Your eyes were timid when I told you that I loved you
I'll admit, my heart was jaded before I met you
In a swirl of it's own misery
Darkest of clouds constantly consuming every pigment of light

How could I forget the the days you'd sit there next to me
There was a warmth in the way you'd pour soul into mine
You taught me the definition of "hope" with the way you wore that broken smile

Your eyes were timid when I told you that I loved you
My heart was open, hoping to find you
Like that song we always used to play
You were the melody that marked the end
Slowly, softly, you faded away

I wonder
what is it in our minds
that drives us insane
to the point we would want to die

Whatever is up there
sounds like a disease
that is poisoning our
thoughts, emotions, and feelings
its spreading all over our body quickly

some have it worse then others
and sadly there is no cure for it

In some peoples perceptive
we are consider "sick"
and in others we "relate"

I just want it to stop
my soul is screaming for help
and my body is shaking

Its so crazy how powerful a mind can be
it can control your thoughts
feelings
body

EVERYTHING

its so powerful to the point
it got me holding a gun
to my own head