It's been fading over time,
but I'm sure if I keep it up
everything will be fine.

Don't stop, keep those feelings disconnected,
maybe then
this love will be requited.

Lock it away, these old feelings.
Left with no other choice, concealing
those thoughts, once bright and cherry red,
now paled and fickle.
Come, listen,
I'll choke out an elegy, to my love now dead.

You inspire me.
I wish I could be as oblivious
to my own pain
as you are to it.

"I'm fine", the words crawl out of my throat.
Gross and slimy, I spit them out.
Telling such blatant lies,
I'm starting to feel sick.

Just put me out of my misery.
Strangle my feelings,
until they croak.
And **** my heart,
until it stops hurting.

The muscles in my cheeks ache,
from holding this pointless smile.
My eyes are darkened and empty,
yet I'm grinning all the while!

Everyday, spitting out hollow words.
Empty laughs and void smiles.
Meaningless such as I,
unknown as to how to make myself whole.