It grows like a garden
Lodged within your throat
Vines and roots pouring out
Blooming with such elegant notes
Flowers amitting a sweetness
So tasteless to the tongue
As the choking feeling erupts
To those failing words does it clung
Staring into the starlight
Eyes swelling red
As the tears water the garden
Of which words are dyed red
Vibrant colours of many
As the bees come to pollen
Poison is the beautiful
As the blooming flowers that have fallen
As the vines wrap your throat
And the sickening sweetness **** you slow
The words stuck within your throat
Are yet to be known.

Like a poisonous flower garden
Blooming so beautiful
Ah, What a sight.

Hello world, It's me again
Lil Miss temporary bliss.
I'll hold you close, I'll hold you dear
You can vent and scream, You can shed your tears
If you draw me close, You will feel my warmth
My love, affection, You'll feel a connection.

I'm also good at being a replacement
Tell me the deepest fears you keep locked in a basement
I'll listen and support you, I'll do all I can
So you can feel at home, have a safe place to land

I've felt pain in my heart, as I'll never be as good as the original
I'll never be as wanted or as loved, unlike the beloved
I'll never be the final piece, That perfect life where you will feel at peace

I'm but the second rate individual, the past time to heal your heart
After that very first one, torn you apart
And it's alright to seek safety, seek love within my arms
I'm the fool who believes it, believes it will last

I need to learn to stop forgetting
That I'm but a rebound, a temporary person
Because I'll never be loved the same
Never as valued like their persons

So forgive me, Lord, as I'm a fool
I need to learn my place
And you keep giving me reminders
But I get lost within that smiling face

And my face it burns, with hot tears streaming down
The end ticking nearer, but I refuse to drown
I've been used all up, my expiration date is here
This one wants to move on, to somebody who he actually holds dear

So here we go again, I'll be returning to square one
With a lot of excess baggage, and trauma. Fun.
Use me, abuse me, beat me till I'm blue
As my famous line goes

"As long as I can be of some use to you"


All I ask is that you love me
Want to be with me
Is what I'm asking really too much?

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It hurts.

When it feels like your whole world is breaking

S H A T T E R I NG

B R E A K I N G

Into tiny little pieces

When everything you've worked for
Fought for, with all your might
Feels like its slipping away between your fingers

And you keep trying to grasping that fraying rope
Trying to hold onto that last piece of hope
But the power is no longer in your hands
You can't do anything about this
Only he can

And it hurts.
Feeling it all on the bridge of disappearing

That warmth you feel in his smile
The softness in his hair
The short prickle stubble on his face
The way he looks and stares

That perfectly beautiful blue eyes
Swelling with emotions about
His genuine feelings for you
A cute little pout

His large hands entwined with yours
Those comforting endless cuddles
The security and safety he makes you feel
Love welling up like bubbles

When you love him so dear
That he doesn't even know
That to you, he has become
Your entire world

He may not be able to give you a future
That one true promise
But being with him is enough
All that he is, and ever will be is enough

So keep holding my hand
Please don't let go
And keep walking this path with me
Let's see where this road goes.

It will workout.























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