Every job I done had
I felt i was cursed with
They be snatching my soul
I need reimbursment

Gotta use that for my purpose
I feel like i did it on purpose
Slacked off on my dreams
So it could potentially hurt me

Sometimes I feel
Like im really unworthy
Tried everything in my power
Nothing seems to be working

I'm hurting
I did it to myself though
Lost all of my patience
Cause when i tried it all came slow

And I heard it usually does
To those of us who try to stay true
Its hard to work this job
And still try to subdue

All my demons and insecurities
That constantly try to attack me
Got everything I could ask for
But still something is lacking

The money is good
In my love life im happy
being true to myself
Even keep my hair a lil *****

But deep down in my heart
Seeping into my soul
There's a part of me
That I still got on doze

Im froze in time
Waiting on myself to make it happen
Put in my two week notice
Gather my things and get to packing

I'm lacking the fire
To start my next project
I don't what to do now
What steps do I take next ?

I just need to do it
Whatever this thing is
Trying to be an inspiration
And look out for the kids

Cause I don't see too many
And for that I'm starting to frown
I don't have much more time to waste
I guess I'll start this thing now

Cause if I don't
It'll be another soul wasted
That didn't step up to the plate
And the look out for the babies

Leave me alone
I dont wanna do it
Why would i go back
To something that's ruined

Its broken
Its Means me no good
Why wont you just leave things
The way that you should

Last time i was down
Last time I was out
You took my heart
And threw it about

Left me alone
Let me cry tears
I had my hopes up
I did for years

Had to tell myself
That you'd come around
Discover the love
That I've already found

Did it to myself
You told me no
I Woulnt accept it
Didn't think it was so

Told you id leave
You said go
That was the last time
I had done it before

I let you come back
Gave you one last chance
Prove me wrong
Show me you a man

You dropped the ball
Didnt seem to care
Took me as a game
I guess i picked dare

I finally left
Found me another
True as can be
Really my lover

Feelings are mutual
No games to play
No recess break
We stay in all day

Now that you see
That i meant what I said
You running back
On your last leg

I can't allow it
Cant be no fool
You was happy with how we were
Now I am too

I need to talk to you
Yeah it's been a minute
I've been distracted by life
I haven't payed you much attention

To be honest. I ignore you
When I'm making some decisions
Because I can't seem to let go
To my bad habits I become submissive

I already figured it out
You know what's best
Give me signals and signs
That's why I always suffer on what comes next

But let's be real
You make bad decisions too
Emotions running you
Telling you when to move

Your heart is big
Which I have always admired
But it causes you to stay
Where love has already expired

It causes you to give
When there is nothing left
Causes you to be someone else
Instead of be yourself

Its causes you to be dumb
A little bit naive
Just because you opened your legs
Don't mean that he won't leave

Just because you have good intentions
It don't mean that they do
You have to use your mind
Don't let them play you

Stand your ground
Don't be scared of confrontation
They may of had the right one before
But let them know with you they've mistaken

I know I have my faults too
I know I dont have to explain
Let's just work as a team
And beat them at their own game

Lets stand strong together
No matter what they throw
Even if we fall down
That's an opportunity to grow

That's an opportunity to show
That during any situation we'll be fine
Its wonderful to have a good heart
But even better to have a strong mind

Sometimes seeing is believing

I like to hold you
I like to kiss you
I like to touch you

To remind myself that this is real
That you are real
That we are real

This is the type of thing you dream about
The thing you truly fantasize about
The thing you wait a lifetime for but never comes

You are my best friend
The one I tell my secrets to
The one I share my heart with

So stay close to me
Let me touch you
Feel you
Kiss you

So I know that my dreams are actually coming true

I think i know you from somewhere
Farther than what my brain can remember
Haven't been knowing you for too long
But something about you feels so familiar

Were we friends before ?
Way back When I was younger
Your presence alone I recognize
Which brought me to a state of wonder

I can't help but ponder
At every angle of your existence
I usually can keep my composure
Right now my thoughts are way too conflicted

I want to throw off all my armor
Everything I used for resistance
Purposely leave my blueprints on the table
And let you infiltrate every entrance

Money can't buy this feeling
Your richness is way too expensive
I want you to expose it all
Going deeper and more extensive

Lets show our vulnerability
Explore every fossil of our beings
They can't comprehend our chemistry
It goes way beyond believing

Its go ways beyond perceiving
You would have to be us to understand
Intertwined at the soul
Like we share some kind of gland

Someone to care
Someone to hold me
Don't play about it
I want you to know me

I want you to be here
When I'm feeling too lonely
Let me know now
Are you real or just a phony ?

If you need it
You can cry to me
I want you to see
What the eyes can't see

Even meeting you
Was a surprise to me
I'm the one you been waiting on
The others were just dusguised as me

I just need you to be yourself
I was there when there was no one else
I hope you can understand my dillema
Sometimes I just don't want to be by myself

Nobody else gets it
You're the only one
When my soul calls out
You're the one to come

I cut off part of my heart
Just to give you some
If you ever met somebody real
You know where im coming from

Im short really short
The smallest of them all
I remember being higher
The tallest of the tall

I was too shy at first
To even be set up for the fall
Until they came along
And gave me somebody to call

Every single heartbreak
Cuts off a few inches
Wasnt enough left for a full repair
All they could do was stitch me

Hurt too familiar
It became so persistent
Hoping that you would realize your wrong
And start to miss me

You're not around nomore
So now i hurt from a distance
You don't love me today
I wish you would be more consistent

I hate I took all the drugs
Of your hugs and your kisses
Cause now I'm all messed up
Have to get a doctor to fix me

So That's enough for me
I don't want nomore please
Numb to all the pain now
So they cut me off at the knees

Body messed up
Heart turned to stone
It don't make it no better
That I can't walk on my own