Dang im unhappy, laying down in my bed
Dont wanna deal with all the thoughts rushing up in my head

Let me find something to do, to pass this little time
Thinking outside the box but scared to cross the line

Im so sick of repetition, aint nothing really to do
My appetite sparking up, i feel the voidness with food

Smoking aint really fun, its just something to do
We all idle right now so of course we thinking its cool

We ain't got nothing to prove, but we try to anyway
Rather try to fit in than be ourselves any day

Aint got nothing in common so we make up something to say
We make fun of any and everybody who won't cooperate

We can't enjoy the time now cause we waiting on another day to come
Can't concentrate on where we going cause we keep looking back at where we come from

I know it's hard to forget because what made us was the slums
But we must keep moving forward and remember that them days in done

My life seems to be everywhere
Think im getting lost in a maze
Parts of my life don't seem real
A phase within a phase

Looking at the mirror
Staring myself in the face
Been wondering who I am for so long
And how did i get to place

Im stuck in a space
Trapped behind the walls
There's no rock bottom
I just continue to fall

A bottomless pit
Is what this feels like
Got a smile on my face
Knowing i don't feel right

Im blacking out and getting nauseous
Questioning everything I see
Wondering how we were all created
And how did he come to be

Its hard to keep focus
I been thinking bout this for weeks
Seeing things that I can't explain
Every time I go to sleep

I have no control sometimes
My flesh is too weak
I can't ask anybody questions
I know they don't have the answers I seek

When I speak
I sound more than insane
But I have to be right ?
For unlocking that part of my brain

My mind is not the same
I've realized that much
But I feel it within
The things that can not be touched

I know it can't be rushed
But im ready to see what's happening
Haven't talked to nobody lately
They suggest that im mad at them

Its not even close to that though
Im just trying to figure it all out
What's going on around me ?
What is it all about ?

Cause if i tell you
What i been going through
It won't just be me anymore
You'll think im crazy too

You know I don't believe in marriage
Well not in the tradition
I don't think it's a goal
Or one of life's missions

Or something that you do
When you feel your life has gone missing
Or when you got a lot of bills
That you need some assist with

I don't think its something you do
When your in a certain religion
Or some move that you make
To further your commitment

Why do I have to sign a paper
Just for us to go the distance
I want to be with you for life
I don't have to walk down an isle to admit it

I wont change my last name
Cause im not your property
You may not get it right now
But can you see it my way possibly ?

I shouldn't have to do the extra
For you to acknowledge me
Im sick of everybody around me
Telling me who I gotta be

My love is worth more than a ring
Or some pearly white dress
You can't set my love up in a church
Like its some kind of project

You can't tax my love
And make it one of your fees
My type of love is too strong
Itll make you get down on my BOTH knees

I shouldn't have to beg
I shouldn't have to plead
I know im worth it all
I have everything that you need

You mean I have to go through a court
Just to prove my love
And use the petty excuse
Of "you doing it in front of the one above"

You know that im yours
And i know that your mine
Im completely happy with you
I guess that'll show over time

Ill always love you
You should trust that
And if most people did
They wouldn't have to sign a contract

I wish back then there was something
that alerted me of all the danger
We had became best friends
And now we are known strangers

Really it ain't no anger
Just some junked up memories
Of how I treated you right
And you played me like the enemy

Had me thinking you was into me
Feeling me up with promises
But when the time came
I wondered where the promise went

I guess it was my fault
I gave you too much dominance
Told you you had the juice
And it gave you this boost of confidence

You was insecure at first
Then out of nowhere came arrogance
Started looking down on people
And acting like you was better than

Really it seemed better when
You was a lil lame
When the girls wasn't looking
And ain't nobody know yo name

Then when I came
And walked into the picture
All the girls wanted you
Cause they seen that I was wit you

And you went for it
Had me looking stupid
Thought you was my man
And I was ready to fight to prove it

Ready to go through whatever
Just so we could be
Fighting for a relationship
That you wasn't trying to keep

So really it was just me
Holding on to nothing
I threatened to leave
Somehow you knew I was bluffing

You laughed when i started cussing
Like it was all a joke
Ignoring my face being red
And my ears filing up with smoke

i knew it was no hope
I knew i would have to cope
With that hard growing pain
Worrying about what i would lose, not realizing what I would gain

You said that it would change
But it never got better
She did everything to get you
You did nothing to not let her

I was really fed up
With all yo player type stuff
Gave you all i had
You acted like it wasn't enough

When i was ready to leave
You tried to come closer
But you had yo chance
It was already over

Imagine
Use your imagination
You cant limit your thoughts
Your mind is the one creating

Im trying to live now
I don't have time for saving
Stood still for too long
I dont have time for wasting

Im moving around like crazy
Because I dont have time for patience
But i can't stand still no longer
When I'm trying to be one of earths greatest creations

The fire inside me is blazing
With a lot of ideas
The demons around me constantly mad
Because of the negative thoughts that i ****

Nothing is real
Everything is an illusion
I solved the equation
The only answer I got was seclusion

Gotta keep moving forward
I have no time for excuses
Listening to what's inside
My soul is the most soothing music

The inner me is the only thing
That clears up all the confusion
It does get hard sometimes
Because of the human body that it's fused with

I used to be scared
And think my ideas were foolish
My fear is no longer holding me back
I gotta go ahead and do this

Its a game out here
Im tryna make some money
But how can i do that
When they keep taking it from me

Keep talking to myself
Giving me some assurance
All these different taxes
Now they tripping off insurance

Felt like it was no hope
Like my happiness was ruined
Because the lowest paying job
Is being a positive influence

They want yo whole life
For that job you pursuing
Then it take 20 years
For you to really get into it

They got us all clueless
Unable to grow
Paying to learn stuff in school
That we already know

Working all these years
With nothing to show
Expecting us to survive
Knowing the pay way too low

Aint nowhere to go
When you dont know nobody
Working all these hours
Putting a toll on my body

Cant do what i love
Gotta find a different hobby
Its depressing as hell
Every night stocking grocery boxes

They throwing me instructions
Soon as i walk through the lobby
Im mad at myself for coming in
Really ready to hurt somebody

Working my **** off every night
But yet im still poor
Giving all i got to give
But yet they want more

I have one off day
But they never trip off they slack
Plus these bills collectors keep calling
Tryna get them off my back

All this stuff is really wack
I cant take it nomo
One day ima take off this uniform
And walk straight out that door

You got me
Feeling emotionally attached
Didn't even see this coming
Feeling emotionally attacked

Said I'd never love again
I was being dishonest
Can't think of nothing else
My mind I'm keeping you on it

Future. Past. Present
Thinking of you in every tense
See. Hear. Taste. Smell. Touch
Got me wanting you in every sense

How my love get this deep ?
It don't even make sense
We laid in bed all day
I can still smell your scent

When I see you walking
No, when I see you gliding
My heart warms up
My body temperature rises

My smile widens
Then I attempt to hide it
Got a lot to say
But my shyness got me on silent

It may just be the way
Ya lip curl up when you smiling
I like the way you do you
You got ya own style and

You pick on me like a best friend
Sometimes it make me blush
Lets eliminate time
A few hours just ain't enough

When you're away
I still feel you next to me
Connection run so deep
Got me thinking this destiny

I want what's best for me
And that's you
I made the first step
Anticipating your next move