My brain started answering all of my heart's questions .

"I won't come back to you this time. Even if it kills me.

You knew how ****** up my social life was. I didn't even care to talk to anyone except you, and now I am left alone.

No one bothers now to even ask about how my day went.

I am afraid to do anything. I scream your name daily, I look at your pictures daily.

I am afraid to delete the photos. I don't know what to do.

I'm roaming here and there for a shoulder to put my tired head on.

You knew I had no one, still, you didn't even care to sort things out this time.

My brain is so done, but my stupid heart isn't. It wants you. But no, not this time.

It's always the same; if I get angry over something, that thing is always so small for you. You always try to brush me off with that.

Why are you getting over that small thing? That wasn't small for me.

I am afraid to love again .

Bye.

I am suffering. I will continue to suffer, hoping I will get numb to that pain."

I tried to be the best temporary person in your life if not permanent.

Slowly slowly,

Music replaced her .

How to fake happiness ?

I am unable to do that .

I want to learn it .

The memories hurt a million times more,
Than the trauma itself.

I am dangerously insecure...

I am so sorry.

For every time I hurt you..

For every cruel word I’ve ever said to you..

For not seeing what you needed most..

For not being kind to you as much as everyone else..

For every tear you have wasted..

For every time I stepped on your heart..

For every time I didn’t believe in you..

For every time I didn’t listen to you.

I am so sorry.

For ripping you apart..

For destroying the beautiful things in you..

For always making you pay the price..

And I apologise for all the wrongdoings I caused you!

Forgive this fallible human that is you.

I am so sorry.

It may look like I'm silent
But don't let it fool you
I'm holding back the will
To say that I love you