It's often harsh

You might say "You're so young, you have so much life ahead of you! so much to live for!"
But what's really the point of that life?
Is there really as much as we think?
Is it really worth it?
Sometimes it doesn't feel like it is
Sometimes everything hurts so much
That I'd rather
Give up.
Today is not a good day
Today I feel like a mess
Today life doesn't seem worth it.
Has life ever been worth it?
Has anything ever been worth it?

The sunflower basks in the light
My light
And I bask in its beauty
The sunflowers laugh is contagious
I can't help but laugh with her
The sunflower makes me happy
I make the sunflower happy too
The sunflower and I are happy together
Best friends forever

The rose's thorns cut me
Blood trickling down my hands
And my decision in the end
Is to leave this rose behind

Even when I had decided 11 was my final hour
You kept trying, so, so hard to help
And you did
I couldn't die even if I had really wanted to
I have so many people who care
And the best part for me
The best part of all
You told me
You love me
Again
That's all I've been wishing
That's all I've been wanting
And maybe
I can be the sunshine to your rose again

The rose is gone
The light is broken
IT ALL HURTS
IT ALL STINGS
I STARE AND STARE
AT THE LETTER YOU WROTE ME
I WASN'T ENOUGH FOR YOU
I COULDN'T DO ENOUGH FOR YOU
AND ALL I FEEL IS HURT
ALL I DO IS STARE
I WANT TO B L E E D
UNTIL THE ONLY THING I THINK ABOUT
IS THE PAIN IN MY ARMS
I WANT TO C H O K E
UNTIL THE ONLY THING I THINK ABOUT
IS THE PAIN AROUND MY THROAT
I WANT TO PUNCH THE WALLS
UNTIL THE ONLY THING I THINK ABOUT
IS THE PAIN IN MY HANDS
I WANT TO HIT MY HEAD AGAINST THE WALL
UNTIL THE ONLY THING I THINK ABOUT
IS THE PAIN IN MY HEAD
I WANT TO SCREAM TO THE UNIVERSE
THAT IT'S NOT FAIR
I WANT TO D R O W N
UNTIL IT ALL GOES AWAY
I WANT TO SOB
UNTIL IT FEELS LIKE MY HEAD IS SPLITTING OPEN
I WANT TO SHOVE MY PILLS DOWN MY THROAT
UNTIL IT ALL GOES BLACK
I WANT TO JUMP OFF A BUILDING
AS IF I COULD FLY
THEN DIE

My light shined bright
but things took their tolls
my light
it hides behind the clouds
and the rose begins to wilt
what should I do?
My light flickers, just a flame
this is merely a wish, my wish
and it's unimaginable all my wishes
I keep them on shelves, in jars sealed tight
sometimes I let one go
in hopes my wish will find its way to come true
but of course, it doesn't.
I am not perfect, no one is
I cannot do this perfectly, no one can
I forget
I struggle
sometimes saying it is like bile
sometimes I don't know how to say it
but even if I don't say it
even if I don't say I love you
I do
if I didn't I would tell you
my words, they never seem to come out right
my actions are better
but here, I cannot use actions
here, words convey it
I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I love you, I love you
but I cannot change this way that I am
I cannot make the words come out sometimes
but even still, I love you, I love you