Ren Sturgis

Ren Sturgis Apr 2022

DREAMS

In my Dreams aliens invade.
I hide with people I barely know.
We seek solace in each other's humanity for fear of the unknown.
In my Dreams I fly over rooftops, over unsuspecting heads who go about their day as usual.
In my Dreams I am transported, abducted, and chased.
But in my Dreams I am me.
I am lost.
I am afraid.

When I wake static lingers like a long lost lullaby.

#dreams #aliens #unknown #lost #afraid #fear #humanity

Ren Sturgis Feb 2022

So Sensual

Your body against mine,
no fabric in between.
Your body so smooth,
nothing but perfection to me.
Heart races,
beads of sweat build on our skin.
Penetrates deep,
and diving deeper.
Pure ecstasy.

#sensual #****** #perfection #skin #ecstasy #body

Ren Sturgis Feb 2022

Stuck Without Change

Show me you care,
and I'll show some respect.
I'm getting out of hand and you treat me with neglect.
You know all this time I've started to suspect
that even though our problems worsen,
you won't do anything yet.

#change #stuck #care #respect #neglect #problem

Ren Sturgis Feb 2022

Poetic *****

I feel like throwing up all these thoughts and words I have and much, much more.
I feel sick till I pour everything out.
The pain of lust and love gnawing at my soul.
The world eating at my heart.
My eyes full of emotional storms that I don't understand.
My brain is telling me to survive it all somehow.
Eventually I'll make it out of despair.

#throwup #***** #despair #pain #sick #poetic #survive

Ren Sturgis Feb 2022

Invisible

If only you could see,
See that I was hurting.
Hurting on the inside,
Inside of me is broken.
Broken from the past,
Past issues not recognized.
Recognize the monsters,
Monsters that are controlling.
Controlling my very own emotions,
Emotions that are evolving.
Evolving into a revolution,
Revolution of my freedom.
Freedom to change,
Change who I am.
Am I visible now?

It's so amazing to see all these poems I wrote when I was like 14-16 because even though I've grown a lot of my thoughts remain the same.

#invisible #broken #emotions #monsters #hurt #control #revolution #evolve #freedom #change

Ren Sturgis Feb 2022

I Fear Living in Pain

I am afraid.
Afraid of losing ;
losing those dear to me, losing myself, losing what I've yet to gain.
But how can I lose what I've never had?
I get so frustrated because I can't stop time.
I can't fix everything.
I'm not even anywhere close to being healed.
I want to heal others.
My loved ones deserve to live.
We deserve to be happy.
What did we do to bring about such pain, such sickness?
Why are we plagued so?
I'm always asking "Why?"
Why?
Please let us live.
I'm tired of hurting.

#loss #pain #plague #afraid #lose #heal #live #hurt #deserve

Ren Sturgis Jan 2022

Wet Whispers

a soft breeze, waves lapping against the shore

circling around and around, every time learning something new

an exploration of self; a journey of pleasure

sweet caress

wet, wet, wet

it's like the tide is whispering to me

release

a moan like a sigh of relief

there is no shame here

only love <3

#pleasure #love #self #wet #relief #shame #whisper