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Soldier Jun 2016
Sweet desolation
****** at me
Like the frigid fingers of death
Creeping slowly closer
Hiding in the rifts of my happiness
Waiting
For a chance
A chance to pull me under
Finding purchase in my memories
Distorting them
Killing the weak
And defacing the strong
Never to be the same

The desolated parts of me
And lost time
Hiding from the monster in my closet
That’s now in my head
I welcomed it
Thinking it would vanish
But looking back to find it
Crawling through my very being
Growing as a deadly cancer
But keeping me alive as food
Until the time
It’s strong enough to take me away
Soldier Mar 2016
Trees sway
As a slight breeze intertwines itself
With each solitary leaf
Reaching out like attenuated fingers
Touching each branch tenderly
Slowly passing by
Leaving a chill in its wake

You will find me
Motionless
Under the willow
Stirred only by the brooding thoughts
Of yesterday
A meaningless shadow of me
Like a leaf in the wind
I am unbound from all ties
Free to float into my deepest thoughts
Cascading slowly through them
As they envelope me
And lay me to rest
Soldier Mar 2015
They tell me
It’s just a nightmare
No its not
It’s real
It’s my imagination

I can’t explain
How it finds what it shows
All I know is it never slows

The fear
The pain
The hurt

As they linger
A little longer
I try to find a place to hide
But I’m always trapped in my mind

There’s no escape from the cries at night
No end to the tears in the morning

There is good that comes around too
Not nearly as often
But it’s there
Hiding in the back
Sometimes it tries to comfort me
Try’s to help me feel at ease
It helps at first but always gives up

My imagination makes me who I am
Makes me run or make a stand

There is love and there is life
But there is also pain and fright
Each has a spot within my soul
But one always seems to take control

I jump out of my skin when I hear it knock
Once… twice… hide

It always finds me
No matter how hard I try
Where am I safe?
Where am I free?

No!
Not again!
Here it comes
Ready for the hunt
Ready to haunt me
And never to stop

My calls for help are never heard
Never found
Always forgotten

Maybe if I give in
The torture will end
And I will be free once again

Look left
Look right
Neither side has found me yet
I have to go
I have to run

I can’t see where I have to go
But I need to get out
That’s all I know

I can’t wait any longer
I have to go
Now is my only chance

I run and run
And run
And run
And run
But I’m not getting anywhere

They say your imagination can’t hurt you
Then why am I running?
Why do I have to escape?

Here they come
Running after me
Closing in
Closer and closer

I can smell the scent of sour milk from my left
The bad must be there
I dare not glance

To my right
The scent of fresh cut grass and fresh air
The good

I try to move to the right but to no avail
The scents are mixing
Changing each other
They are all around me

I start to scream
Scream for help for light
But the darkness is closing in
Its winning

I have to be strong work with the good
Change my fate
I look to the right to see the good is gone
Lost like the wind
Nowhere to be seen

Why?
Why me?
Things are going to be different now
Darker
BETTER

No
I have to fight
Change everything

I start to think of the memories
The lake
My family
Colour
Love

All I see is black
I’ve lost
Changed

I hold on to the good memories till it hurts
The darkness
Taking anything I have to offer

Hold on
Don’t let go
Don’t give up

I can’t!
It’s too strong compared to me
I have to give in

This can’t be it!
But it’s taking over
Pulling me as far under as it can
Farther and farther

My last goodbye
My last day
My last breath
Darkness is all I see
Find the light and don’t let go
Don’t take it for granted
Live your life like it’s your last day
Because it could be

— The End —