what message
be sealed with
a kiss
this love is
thine

I want you,
I want you to take in
My words like never before
Taste them like chocolate
Let them caress your tongue as they melt
In your mouth
Swallow
Cocoon them.
Keep them warm as they make their way
To butterflies in your stomach
Let them play.
Allow them,
Pieces of me
Inside of you,
Part of you
Touching you

When the winter left and Canada had finally warmed up, we both had wished it stayed around for just awhile longer.
So we could have mustered up some more thoughts about how we would apologize to one another.
Before the particles of the magnolia trees and white trillium had tickled the sensors of our nose and had made us forget about one another.
I can feel the Carolina dog days of summer approaching while the last of your snow finally turns to a muddy water.
Anima gemella, you promised to be in my arms come spring time.

I tried to hate you in the fairest way a man could hate a woman.
Hatred because she destroyed the name of love, dissolved destiny, and distorted all poetry.
Enough false hatred so I would never have to speak to you again.
Making even the greatest -- Poe, Neruda, Bukowski, Plath and the others all live in vain.
But even I knew that wasn't possible.

Not defeated by the fact that you can't love me back
But by the feeling that you're the only person I've ever loved
And that I'll never get to feel the warmth of your body in a hotel room bed in the center of the city.
And that you'll forever live through a 3.5 inch screen however many states and countries away.
And how every day, whether you're listening or not.
I will tell you that I love you, whether or not you love me.

It all seemed so perfect from the beginning,
My first love since the move,
But slowly I began to realize my mistake,
Control,
That's all he wanted,
After telling me how things had to be,
He returned to his sweet and charming self,
I am a giving person,
He exploited that,
Everything,
I did everything for him,
With nothing in return but his company,
He used me,
Controlled me,
Came close to abusing me,
But I just couldn't leave,
Every time I came close,
He ran after me crying,
Explaining how he'd change for me,
For us,
If I had only known it was a lie the first time I tried to leave,
I simply could not bare to leave him,
Standing there,
In the cold,
Crying like a toddler,
He was so weak,
I thought I could help him,
If only I knew I was powerless against him,
If only I knew he wouldn't stop,
I had always been attracted to the "bad boys,"
If only I really knew how bad he really was,
How much pain and suffering he'd put me through,
If I knew then what I know now,
I never would have said hello to him on those stairs,
I never would have been looking for another guy,
I would have talked to my love sooner,
I would never have gone to his room,
Some of my regrets and horrid secrets lie within that room,
That room of his,
I had to return one last time to collect my things,
He had to stop me,
He had to win me back,
It was different this time,
This time I wasn't giving in to him,
This time I was strong,
Now I am strong for my love,
But now I must decide my true feeling over him,
And my feeling over what happened with him,
I just hope I can be that strong again...