Hari Sabtu,

Mendung, gelap layaknya dirimu yang sedang termenung di antara dua sandar.
Saat dimana semesta menyaksikan, keindahan yang tak tertandingi.
"Iri" dirasanya. Yap, betul sekali.
Dirinya sudah membuat cemburu Sang Semesta.

Setiap harinya itu yang kurasakan.
Entah kurang bersyukur atau tidak, rasanya ingin sesekali memiliki.
Hanya aku dan kamu, membuat cemburu sekitaran kita berdua.
Mungkin menyenangkan, tidak tahu apa yang engkau rasakan.

Suatu hari nanti kuyakin, hari itu akan datang.
Hari dimana engkau melihatku sama seperti ku melihat dirimu.
Hanya rasa rindu dan sayang yang tak terbendung,
Liar pikiran yang berlari-lari di dalam kepalaku.

Kamu diantara gulungan para ombak.
Nampak indah untuk dinikmati.
Hanya kamu sayang,
Yang mampu melakukan itu semua.

I'm so lost without you.

Things I could never say to you,
I wish I had more time.
Though I know that my time have come to an end.
All I do is pray.

Wishing you well.

Falling for nothing,
Not the dreams that I wanted.
But hey, not every miserable feelings will be forever right?
The time won't end,

And so do we.

Sorry for everything.

Kau jauh,
Biarlah semua tetap seperti apa adanya.

Tak pernah luput wajahmu yang selalu muncul di benakku.
Berkata " jemput diriku ".
Semakin mendekat, Semakin terasa mimpi.
Hingga kini, diriku memutuskan untuk bermimpi.

She's beautiful just the way she is.
I'm just so lucky that I can be in love with such an amazing woman.
Of all the chaos around the world,
The loneliness of mine beneath stars at night,
Journey that made me who I am,
The sun will swallow the only earth we have,
And I am in love with you.
I wouldn't mind to wait,
That eventually my heart will break,
I don't mind.
As long as I can,

I'll love you till I'm doomed.

When a man loves a woman,
He'll trade the world
For the good thing he's found
Because he knows she's worth it

Well, this man loves a woman.
I've gave you everything I had.
Even you wouldn't notice,
I'd do it for you.

I'll stay with you
Through the ups and the downs
I'll stay with you
Because I love you too much

Even though too much will never be enough.

Falling in love is quiet beautiful
Yet dangerous
Is it me that won’t letting myself out
Or she that won’t letting me in ?

After all this years
I searched myself something to love
I’ve found it
But I let it go

Not because of all the rejections
Not because I’m giving up
It is because I love her
The only way to love her, is to let go

I know that my presence isn’t desired
I know that no matter how hard I try,
She closes the door when I knock
Since then, days of memories is all I got.

Days to be remembered.

Beruntung bisa berbincang
Terikat dalam dunia mu
Mencinta dibalik pertemanan
Menumbuhkan bibit cerita diriku & dirimu

Izinkan aku untuk memberi isyarat
Biarkanlah perasaan mu menjalar
Dekaplah bila terasa nyaman
Rasa ini telah menyatakan

Semesta yang menjadi saksi
Bahwa keajaiban terjadi di hati ku
Mendekatlah
Tangan mu akan merasakan detak ini

Berdetak hanya untuk mu
Sampai akhir hayat
Terikat dengan mu
Mendekatlah.

Tired of losing my dearest
I don’t wanna lose you
Trying to hold on
But I need you

I don’t wanna believe that all I get is heartbreak
Illusion of love that I create
It’s such an unnatural thing I do
But I’ll hold on

I need you
More than I ever want you
I want you
More than I ever love you

I know that you’ve been pushing away
I’ve always try to pull back
I wish I could say all the words
I should stop cause we’re miles away

From understanding each other.

Ruang-ruang kosong di jiwa
Sangat merindukanmu
Langit berbintang memelukku erat
Hingga sendiri menjadi nyaman

Terbanglah bersamaku bila kau mau
Kau tahu hanya butuh memanggil namaku
Genggamlah tanganku
Kau tahu kau tidak sendiri melawan dunia ini

Hati akan berbicara
Bila kegundahan menerpa
Meski tak sempurna
Cintaku akan mengisi gema ruang-ruang hatimu

Disisimu, akan kubawa kau berlayar
Menuju dunia tanpa kesedihan
Disisiku, akan kubuat kau bahagia
Membuat dirimu merangkum rasa.

Saat hatimu dilanda kegelapan
Yakinlah penerangmu tiada lain
Selain Allah SWT
Penerang dari segala kegelapan

“Dan kami turunkan dari Al-Qur’an
Suatu yang menjadi penyembuh
Dan rahmat bagi orang-orang yang beriman
Dan Al-Qur’an itu tidaklah menambah kepada orang-orang yang dzalim

Selain kerugian. “

Lantunan ayat tersebut
Bismillah...
Bawa aku pergi dari kelam
Selamat diriku

Ya Allah SWT.

Sepenuh rasa
Hati ingin berbicara
Bahwa mencintaimu
Rahasia terbesar yang kumiliki

Kerah bertegak dirimu hadir
Sempurna ciptaan Tuhan
Memanjakan kedua mata
Membungkam mulut dari perlakuan liar

Hakikat kemurnian yang sangat dijunjung
Bicara keindahan
Meluangkan ruang imajinasi
Bunga - bunga mawar berterbangan

Lukisan manisnya
Tersenyum dalam lamunan nya
Sudikah engkau mengetahui isi hati
Lebih dari yang kau tahu selama ini.

Skycrapers on land of history
Buildings filled with people who tries to live
A twilight city
When it's the first time to saw an angel, You.

Berjabat tangan diawal realita
Berpeluk mesra diakhir imajinasi
Aku jatuh padamu
Terlalu dalam.

Walking around the city
Feels like just you and me
Talking things, laughing things
Living our day in different dimension.

Hari - hari disisimu membuat hari mewangi
Ketika kaki menginjak di depan duniamu
Menatap mata
Hati pun berbicara, mulut membisu.

Kiss you goodnight’s
And I love you’s
Me and you darling
More than saying I do

One day at a time
We’ll build this love from our imagination
For worse or better
I will be all you need

Loving you everyday as my number 1 list
We’ll give all that we have
Nothing but happiness that we share
Until grey becomes our hair

Till forever giving you the world
Praising you because you’re the best
Till forever it’s all of me, all of you
Us against the world.

I found a love for me
I never knew you were the someone that i’ve been looking for
I knew it that I found home when i look at you
I have faith since then

Baby you don’t need the world
The world need you
You are the one
You know you deserve the world

Spending my life
Falling deeper in love with you
Watching stars and moon
I know that you glows the most among them

You looks perfect
I don’t deserve it
Angel in person
I fell for you. Too deep.

Waktu adalah sahabatku
Jarak adalah musuhku
Bersamamu adalah saat kesukaanku
Berjarak denganmu adalah keengananku

Terlintas di benak ingin membuat mesin waktu
Melintasi waktu
Teleportasi menuju duniamu
Menghabiskan waktu yang tersisa bersamamu

Berbicara segala hal
Mendengarkan segala hal
Mencintai segala hal tentangmu
Bersenggama selamanya denganmu

Tuhan telah menurunkan malaikat di hidupku
Setiap malam kubisikkan doa-doa ku kepadaNya agar diriku layak
Setiap hal di dirimu membuat segalanya sempurna untuk menjadi layak
Tuhan, jaga malaikat ini untuk tetap disisiku.

Mahluk Tuhan yang begitu murni
Menutup diri untuk tak terlihat
Melihat hanya dengan doa
Menggincu disisi akhlaknya

Dusta bahwa dia tiada lain dari sempurna
Dia lah arti kata sempurna
Dusta bahwa dia tidak berjalan dengan arahanNya
Dia lah jalan untuk diriku berpulang

Rajutan luka perih di jiwa
Penyembuh kesepian
Reinkarnasi seorang malaikat
Permata yang paling berharga

Kau adalah jantungku
Berdetak di setiap detik kematianku
Kau adalah darahku
Berjalar renang disekujur tubuhku

Membuatku merasa hidup.

Lately i’ve been thinking
Things that we had
Love that we felt
Pain that we took

Lost in confusion
Like an illusion
Love an imitation
Left in regression

Tell me was it worth it?
We were so perfect
Nothing can ever replace you
We won’t find a love in this crumbled world

Baby there’s nothing like us
All of those pain and happiness
World that becomes torn apart
Just because we set us apart

Menelusuri ujung dunia
Tidak berujung

Temani diriku
Terangi diriku
Tuntun diriku

Kau pun menghilang
Diriku, terabaikan.

Kutarik secarik kertas putih
Kutumpahkan tinta hitam
Kutulis namamu
Kuceritakan segalanya

Cintaku kepadamu yang terawali layaknya sebuah kepompong
Hingga menjadi sebuah kupu-kupu
Terbang melintas dunia
Berakhir dengan kematian

Tetes demi tetes tinta
Menyusun kata per kata
Membentuk sebuah kalimat yang ramai
Mewakilkan mulutku yang membisu

Untuk siapa kubuat tulisan ini?
Tulisan yang tak lebih melibatkan amarah dan kebencian
Namun ditulis dengan sedikit rasa cinta yang masih melekat
Putih suci ditimpah hitam penuh dosa

Bisik Sang Hati " Lipat dan buang. Sudah cukup sudah. "
Jemari bergerak melipat surat itu
Berbentuk perahu
Perahu kertas.

Raga berjalan ke tepi laut
Seakan jiwa yang menggerakkan
Mulut yang berbisu mengucapkan sebuah doa
Tangan melepaskan surat itu

Perahu kertas,
Bawalah mimpi buruk ini berlayar denganmu
Berlabuhlah di neraka
Agar dosa dan penyesalan ikut terbakar disana.

Cinta
Mungkin adalah hal yang paling sakral di kehidupan
Terjadi ketika 2 insan bertemu
Saling menerangi sesama

Rindu
Mungkin adalah hal yang paling ajaib di kehidupan
Terjadi ketika dirimu terlintas di benakku
Turbulensi yang bergejolak di hati dan pikiran

Doa
Adalah saat ketika keajaiban akan terjadi
Ketika kuucapkan namamu yang begitu indah di doaku
Agar didengar oleh Allah SWT

Dirimu
Sebuah anugerah yang sangat dijaga
Begitu sucinya dirimu untuk dilihat
Seolah-olah menggugurkan segala bintang

Diriku..
Lelaki yang mendambakanmu
Seperti kerumunan semut yang berciuman dan yang mencubit
Pada waktu satu anak kecil yang menggigit-gigit kuku jari

Rindu adalah bulu matamu, bergulung-gulung layaknya ombak

Perempuan ciptaan cahaya
Perempuan semua anggrek kesayangan
Kau layaknya labuhan terjauh, pekat, tidak berujung
Bolehkah aku berlayar disana?

Sore senja
Sunyi
Rindu akan rumah
Ruang hampa

Kedua mata menatap jendela
Terlihat sepasang burung bersemayam
Saling bersenderan
Memiliki sesama

Cemburu akan kehidupan sepasang burung
Naif kah jiwa ini mengelak dari itu?
Rindu akan hal yang mustahil
Mustahil untuk dirindukan.

I lose myself
I've lost everything that I love
I wonder why I deserve all of this
Did I deserve this?

Nights that I've been through
You've crossed between stars that I looked every night
I miss you
I do really miss you

It's been 8 years that we haven't met
I lose myself for nothing
I don't believe what I've become
In the end, I've only got myself to blame

The world that I've been fighting with
Won
Against me
A shameful defeat

Once I thought that life is too beautiful to ruin me
But truth has spoken
Life doesn't want me
Me...

Unrecognized..
Unseen..
Unheard.

Songs we used to heard
Feelings extracted to each other
Stares at each other
Thinks that “ Us “ is forever

All of these things that we had
Based on three empty words
We can’t fix what’s broken
Even we still feel each other

I won’t say those three empty words
Because we can’t take it anymore
I know it’s hard
To not fall on us.

A tall building with many windows outside of it
Some glows light at night
Some dark at night
Same at daylight

Every window has it own story
A couple that live happy together
A family that always argue each other
A man that live all by himself

But every time when it's midnight
All of them are the same
It was a quiet moment
Peaceful

Where everybody sleeps
Flying to a world that never been traveled before
Warm blankets that cover them up from the cold night
Magical things for every each person

Quiet hallway
Sound of water drops
Footsteps
Ringing door bell

A building with thousands of stories in it
Hundreds of people live together
Without knowing each other
Hesitation to say hello

" How's your day? "
" Hai there, how are you? "
" Can we hangout someday? "
" Did you hear the new movie coming up tomorrow? "

Questions that filled in thoughts
Fear to feel awkward
Life that filled with stupid moral
A Hai is a no to their own ego

Life of an apartment world
Living with hundreds of strangers
Loving a solitary life
Less living as a human, more destruction to humanity.

Hai
In this very moment
I would like to say thank you
For everything

We knew each other when we were just a sophomore kids
A tomboy girl that i knew
Turned to a beautiful hijab girl
The most beautiful girl i think.

You amazed me
Your personality
Your beauty
Your smile

Everything about you is perfect.

Every night i always thought about you
Our moments
When we were still a bunch of spoiled kids
We went places together
Just living our life with fun

Our first meet that begin with a " hai "
You smiled
I smiled
Then you told me your name

It is the most beautiful name that I ever heard.
We became a best friend since then.

You consider me as your best friend
But my heart told felt different

I love you.

I don't know how I ended up with that feeling
But I love you
I fell in love with you
You've become my world.

Everytime we laugh together
I feel so happy that I'm the one who makes you happy
Everytime you smile
I feel deeply in love with your beautiful smile

I don't have a courage to tell you this strong feelings
I'm afraid that if I do
I will lose you
And that's the risk that I will never take for the rest of my life.

When we entered highschool
You came to me
A long time not meeting you
You came with a hijab on your head

That's when I fell deeper for you

You've turned like an angel that Allah sent to me
You are the most beautiful woman that I ever love with
My heart beats faster than my breath
My brain freeze for a while and focus on you.

What did I do good so that I can be with someone I love with?

Perfect
Defines you.
Beauty
Reflects you.

Until now
I still love you
You might don't know
But I hope you know.

So help me God

To become yours

Forever.

It was a beautiful night in a coffee shop
Warm lights soaking the scenery
Ordered myself a cup of English Breakfast Tea
Enjoying Jazz music

Then there was this beautiful lady.

Sitting while reading books
Sunk into her own world
It is indeed a beautiful scenery
It's like my mouth forcing me to say " hai "

I look at her.

A pair of brown eyes
Soft lips
Making a smile towards the book
Manipulating my brains to do crazy things

She drove me crazy with her eyes.

I don't know what's holding me back
Is it because that I'm shy or afraid ?
Can't take my eyes off her
Distortion that happened in my mind

Am I worth to ask what's her name?

Wondering of her name
Is there even a name that fits such beauty ?
I thought tons of names
But none of that pleased me

Drying up my cold heart
Frozen
Warming up my mind
Warmed

Hello, can I have the honor to know your name ?

Nights that filled with unresolved problems
All the possibilities that i’ve decided to ignore
Regrets that stuck in this broken heart
Words that can’t escape from cold lips

Books are written by a dying souls
Filled with bloods
Represents the dark story of life
Lonely, without anyone saving me from drowning.

Living days with darkness surrounds all the time
Passing by a dead flowers who onced a beautiful one
Heat that struck to my skin, replaced by cold
Freezing my body and soul.

Is this life?
Or this is hell calling my name?
Destroying me slowly
Piles of me that will never come back.

I wonder if you know
That you've been my love since the day we met

I wonder why you go
That I've gave everything for us

I wonder if you noticed
That you are my everything

I wonder if you ever think
That I've drowned into a unknown world

I wonder if you know
That I've lost my world

Which is you.

Ocean is deep
Sky is high
Land is wide
You merges 3 of them

Talking to you is like drowning deeper than the ocean
Walking with you is like flying higher than the sky
Loving you is wider than the land
You are a dream world to every man in this world

Things that I love about you that you don't realize
Every move that you make that made it most valuable steps
Every smile that you made is a little piece of heaven for my eyes
Everything in you that made me fell to deep for you, My Love.

Your presence
Changed my way of life
Becoming my best friend
In love with a friend who've always been there

Unable to reveal everything in my heart
Words that cultivate in my brain
With one believe
We will be together as one someday

One day I said it all with courage
You smile instead of getting shocked
Next day we walk together
Stepping into a new world belongs to both of us.

Cinta, kini kau datang juga
Cinta, sungguh indah citramu
Dunia terasa hampa
Bila kau tiada

Arti cinta yang melingkar disekitarmu
Demi kasih yang kudambakan selalu
Kusembahkan hatiku yang murni
Untuk disinggah oleh dirimu

Cinta, kesucian yang sakral
Cinta, sumber luka yang menyakitkan
Mampu membawa raga dan jiwa
Keabadian atau Kematian.

Pagi disemat dingin sejuk
Terbit matahari menghangatkan
Melihat senyum indah darimu
Apakah raga ini terbangun di surga ?

Memulai hari dengan imajinasi yang menghanyutkan
Memandang Sang Penerang bangkit dengan dirimu
Sungguh menyempurnakan elemen dunia ini
Khayalan di dunia nyata

Nyata atau mimpi
Dirimu sungguh sempurna di dua dunia
Satu yang memandang dekat
Lainnya yang memandang jauh.

Mendung gelap kala itu
Angin yang berlari-lari
Kilat petir mengambil alih langit
Kegelapan menyelimuti

Burung yang terbang diantaranya
Satu diantara membuat perbedaan
Burung yang duduk diatas pagar
Seakan kelelahan melawan

Meratapi kegelapan menerpa
Hujan deras menyelimutinya
Duduk terdiam
Lelah akan melawan.

Puisikan
Semerbak hujan
Merangsang ingatan
Menggantikan kelam

Menunggu Sang Surya datang
Namun lelah menunggu ketidakpastian
Kini yang tersisa luapan tangisan
Hingga merasa distorsi yang tidak terbendung

Membius raga dengan memori kelam
Rasa ingin sendiri
Terbang menuju dunia baru
Meninggalkan realita