Alec Llaneta: Poems

When a soldier marches, where does his focus go?
Forward? To glory or doom?
His mind filled with stories of honour and pride of wars long ago?

Backward? Of the life, they left behind?
To the wife, the child back home?
The medals to be shown as trinkets or to speak never more?

Have they ever stopped to look around? Of the country, to be or not to be? The mountains, the rivers, the towns and to the sea.
The damage to be caused? The life preserved?

Regardless, the solider marches

#solider #randomthoughts #random #melancholy #poem #marches #life #wonder #sublime #questioning

Mar 2021 · 444

Ode To Thee Father

Alec Llaneta Mar 2021

Ode To Thee Father

The callus of your hands knows the weight of labour
But we know the weight of your gentleness

The callus of your feet knows the many miles of travel
But we know it always returns home

The callus of your heart knows the spite of the world
But we know its love and its warmth

You grew up in need, but you gave us want

To the best father in the world

Happy Birthday!

Feb 2021 · 1.2k

Scrabble

Alec Llaneta Feb 2021

Scrabble

If a poem was like scrabble
I would surely lose
With many letters to pick
But no words to choose

A seven letter word doesn't sum up what I feel
All the points I rack up is not what I need

Scrabble is game where everyone can play
A game of words, a game to slay
But not for me...

Seven letter words are not enough for me
To form the words I want to say

The patterns on, a scrabble board is what you ever see
Ever changing, ever ending, ever feeling
the emotions of me

Oct 2020 · 280

Words best not spoken

Alec Llaneta Oct 2020

Words best not spoken

Time is to precious
My chances.. are abundant
But I take... my chances and time
On you

#past #love #time #chances

Oct 2020 · 198

I want

Alec Llaneta Oct 2020

I want

When am tired
To rest my head on your lap
Sleep soundly with you watching over me
an angel

When I cry
To do so on your chest
So that your heart my soak my tears
And use it to grow

When I love
To receive it back
To feel what other's felt
All these years

Mar 2020 · 241

Sick Friend

Alec Llaneta Mar 2020

Sick Friend

I wish that you get better
I wish that whatever plaguing you be swift in its occupation
And light on its touch
That there be no after effects
Only ecstasy and bliss
Once the spell is lifted

#sick #wishes #world #wish #friend #2020

Feb 2020 · 186

Routine

Alec Llaneta Feb 2020

Routine

If this is loneliness
then its to have an ocean inside your head
but with no one to empty into
its to swim in its waters for hours on end
with no island in sight
floating, mindless with no destination in mind
only to go with the flow

If this is loneliness
then its to be like atlas
immortal, in solitude forever enduring a great weight
oh how i wish for a hercules to build a pillar
to levee off this great burden
so i may stretch my shoulders
and for once, say hi to the moon

If this is loneliness
then its ti know that silence
is the most deafening sound of all
to sleep, to bathe, with no sound  but your own
with the knowledge and company of your mind and your soul

If this is loneliness
then its to befriend both sadness and joy
one comes and the other go
but always never too long
sadness comes like the rain turns to storm
heavy, in angst, always going about swinging its huge tears
joy comes as the sun ray that pokes through the clouds
cheery, bright and a great sight to see for me

#routine #loneliness #depression #past #sadness #joy

Jan 2020 · 290

You see

Alec Llaneta Jan 2020

You see

You see, during my exams the only words I wrote
Is your name, etching onto paper
Like it did on my mind

I would have probably failed
Only after telling the examiner
Of you

#love #ex #pain #past #loved #bittersweet #loving #short #exam #name

Dec 2019 · 487

?????

Alec Llaneta Dec 2019

?????

Well this is
Me

Smiling but wounded
Healing but the scars still sing
Of the past

That on quiet days....
There all I hear

#past #brokenheart

Dec 2019 · 232

After

Alec Llaneta Dec 2019

After

High hopes, high dreams
that i will never get to see
A future, a life
that was never meant to be

It hurts, it *****
just to let it go
A wish upon a shooting star
that comes... Then it goes

I wish to remember,
but all i do is forget
To get rid of all this misery
to get rid of all this regret

My heart hunger for you
but my mind denies
So it eats other things
better things... Then your lies

My days are sad
damp and cold
Missing you and
the warmth you behold

Yet, i trudge forward
shivering and in plight
Searching, and wondering
where is the light?

#after #love #brokenheart #past #pain

Nov 2019 · 477

Love as not to forget

Alec Llaneta Nov 2019

Love as not to forget

The Prince, my Prince

Everyday you sought out an Atlas
And everyday he carried the eternal’s weight
If you call listening, carrying

1 of 12, 12 labours
Head to the ground, body stripped in apology
So that others may look to the stars

A debt owed, now a debt paid
A happy debt

The Greek remembers with stories
The Roman remembers with dates
People dismiss him with smile and thanks
I don’t, I remember

Your heart, in stone, cracked
A kiss lasting a lifetime, a kiss for two

The Prince, my Prince

The Swallow, my Swallow

‘Will you not stay with me for one night, and be my messenger?’
‘Will you not stay with me one night longer?’
‘Will you not stay with me one night longer?’

Yes
‘Do as I command you’

And so everyday he took the place of Prometheus
Giving fire to humans
As giving light to those lost in this dark, dark world

Eurydice, Eurydice, my dear Eurydice, you went too soon
I sing this song, in hopes that the Gods look favorably on me
Wish granted, time short, rain is all I see

Time for a kiss, not kisses
Sweet, short, sorrowful

The Swallow, my Swallow

#love #prince #swallow #loved #sacrifice #pain #forget #mythology

Aug 2019 · 434

Longest time

Alec Llaneta Aug 2019

Longest time

For the longest time
no one has come to say goodbye
well wishes and farewells
were missed by shriveled ears

In the longest time
its the first i have been in a church
inappropriately lying down
oh god please forgive me

Its the longest time
i had a rest, to lay still and contemplate
on the game i played my entire life
so busy winning pieces, so little to enjoy the game

Its the longest time
to be enveloped by darkness
light leaving quickly like the sunset
at the snap of my fingers, at the shut of the sun's eye
darkness

#death #darkness #time #life

Aug 2019 · 311

Dear...

Alec Llaneta Aug 2019

Dear...

I trusted you with many things
all except the thing you wanted
whole, untouched, something you felt missing
a fire you stopped burning

it was your eagerness, to have one
that i begin to doubt
to question if it's truly right
to give, with all despite

after thinking long and hard
an answer came to me
in words not be spoken
it was never meant to be

#love #heart #unloved #past #regret #dear #reject

Aug 2019 · 151

The sobriety of a broken heart

Alec Llaneta Aug 2019

The sobriety of a broken heart

Like alcohol, it used to lift my spirit high
now that i am sober, it only brought it down
a wasted venture, to escape the world
money and time not spent well
on the drunkenness of love

The hangover came, the heartaches and headaches
1 month sober, and i am doing jut fine
already, i forgot the taste of love
its effects wore out weeks ago

Its tempting to relapse, but my answer is no
the effects, still fresh in my min
forbids me to touch a drink

Aug 2019 · 1.9k

Christmas in the Philippines

Alec Llaneta Aug 2019

Christmas in the Philippines

I still you as the last page
The previous chapter
Even after...

I still go back to read it
Maybe its because its Christmas
Maybe because its the Philippines

But each time i recall
The more faster i forget
I keep rereading, i just keep forgetting

I don't know why i brought it up
Maybe this will be the last melancholy song
My broken heart will be able to play

Each word a note
Each sentence a string of notes
Strung to form a melody; A joyful sad one

It's Christmas and the Philippines
Love fills the air, its infectious
Saddening as its uplifting

Jul 2019 · 128

Reflection

Alec Llaneta Jul 2019

Reflection

Falling for you, was like jumping out of an airplane
But... no parachute :)

Mistake i know, nut hell
Its the first time... love does blind

I landed... thankfully
But in pieces... oh

Hitting the ground at terminal velocity
Then came the pain and misery

I am over exaggerating, i don't put you at fault
I guess I forgot the parachute...
And trusted you

Jul 2019 · 124

Do yo ever listen to me?

Alec Llaneta Jul 2019

Do yo ever listen to me?

Mom: Do you ever listen?
Me: Do  you ever listen to me?

Have you ever heard
My sadness, my tears
From school to home
Crying myself to sleep
Just for being the black sheep

Have you ever heard
My aching heart
It's ability to sympathize and have empathy
To play along with other's melody
And to feel what others feel
The ***** the makes me human,
The bridge that helps me connect

Have you ever heard?
My emotions and trials
My pain and my suffering
Have you ever heard?

Jul 2019 · 119

Untitled

Alec Llaneta Jul 2019

Untitled

Thank you broken heart... and the person who broke it
Like a broken plate, I cut myself holding on to it
My wound weeps of blood and love for you

So much so that, that I don't have any for myself
And so I don't let go.
It would need stitches and it will leave a scar
But with time it will heal

But for now, in the space in between
Past tense and future tense
Tired
Deflated

Being lazy is easy
But productive is hard
I wanna lose myself to my flaws
But a part of me want to work on them

So I gave myself two weeks
To mourn over this dead relationship
Let the pain all out
In tears then in fist

I glued together what parts of me remain
I used little cause there was so little to put back together
In the end it only gave me 40%
As the other 60% was missing or destroyed

Jul 2019 · 170

A debate for another time; My side

Alec Llaneta Jul 2019

A debate for another time; My side

No, I have a more reformed view
A more realistic approach...

End of the day, no one is perfect for you
Pure, simple, a life fact, a done deal

But when your with someone
Of course you ain't perfect, but to them you are

With the work and effort
You become perfect for them

What is pain without love and vice versa?
How can you tell if something is sweet without first knowing what sour is?

#love #debate #life

May 2019 · 448

If love was

Alec Llaneta May 2019

If love was

If love was time, I would stop it right here
To keep it from going forward, to keep it from going back
For tomorrow is uncertain and yesterday is already known
I will stick with what's in front of me
You and me alone

If love was the stars, I'll only look at one
To brighten when its day
To warm me up when its night

If love was you
I'll stop right there and fall for you

#love #relationshipgoals

May 2019 · 589

Collection of quotes said in a Lifetime

Alec Llaneta May 2019

Collection of quotes said in a Lifetime

I shall pray for you the universe, so that you may have the stars tomorrow

As you have the stars today, I pray that you be one too
And that  you bring warmth to those around you
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I wander around endlessly, as a way to stumble upon meaning accidentally
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I dream't of a past person, in future tense
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Reach for the moon for if you fall you fall among the stars
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I wonder why we wish to grow up?
How goes the world at your end?
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When it rains, the world cries with me
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The world can burn, but it can burn on Monday

Quotes, random but touching. Rare but profound :)

#quotes #lifetime #life

May 2019 · 260

When you lie

Alec Llaneta May 2019

When you lie

When people lie
The first to go are the eyes
As there a window into the soul
They look away to stop you peering in

When you lie
Your eyes meet mine
And yet all i see is the black obsidian reflecting back
Beautiful, captivating, a black hole ******* me in

When people lie
Their hear beats spikes
From 120 beats per minute
To well over 200

When you lie
It's my heart beat that spikes not your's
As every word is music to my ears
That my my heart plays along, note for note

When people lie
They get nervous
They stutter, they fall
The minefield of a conversation, as each step could be its last

When you lie
You say so with confidence
Truth mixed with a lie, half truths, half lie
The line gets blurry, I can't help myself feel dizzy, and fall into yours arms for stability...

#love #loved #lies #lie #people

May 2019 · 508

Caged

Alec Llaneta May 2019

Caged

My heart caged, until you came along
Your beautiful face unlocked the door
Your smile threw open the door
And your laugh made it jump right out

It was your words, that encouraged it to spread it wings
Testing it, until sometime, with confidence... it took off

It flew, and flew
Until the moon, the stars, the galaxy and the universe was possible to reach... that its red wings could touch them
But it was your very words that struck it back down

You clipped it wings, and so it headed for an emergency landing
Pity, it never reached the moon
For the saying will never apply
"I love you to the moon and back"

On side note, the human heart has enough beats in a life time to reach the moon and back
Any higher, then i would have loved you for the rest of my life

Shame it never reached
For the farthest it every got was two months
Or 33,000ft
Cruising altitude of a commercial jet

Now with no where to go
Back to the cage it is
However, having tasted the air and freedom of flight

It flutters, it beats within its cage
Hard work for the mind
As it tries to quiet it
To heal it

Someday's, its movement, brings with it momentum
And so those days, I live my life like drunkard
Swaying to the movement of the heart
Although I am sober, I am fighting to keep balance

#love #loved #past #caged #heart

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