I think I have a problem An addiction To a substance So deathly dangerous it could **** me But my addiction Oh how I love my addiction It pulls at my skin with a mighty strength Pulling me closer to my end But honey my death would be bitter sweet I am okay dying for something I love Cause honey you are my addiction And you are slowly drowning me In my own tears Torturing me with hurtful expressions and words But honey I'm okay if you **** me
I was the beauty He was the beast I loved him He didn't love me I wanted him He wanted the Knife I sipped my wine As he stabbed me twice I was the beauty He was the beast But he killed the beauty With his only knife
He's got this thing he does. This thing with his tongue. It goes a tick tock tick. Over and over like a broken record. But what can I say he is my best friend. But annoying as ****
A tick tock tick.
He's got this thing he does. This thing with his fingers. It goes a snap snap snap. Over and over like the spider man movies. And hey I ain't dissing the Spider-Man movies. But come on keep peter perked the same person people. But what can I say this boy Is my best friend. But annoying as **** but not so annoying anymore.
A tick tock tick. A snap snap snap.
He's got this thing he does. This thing with his mouth. It goes a pop pop pop. Over and over like a bubble popping. But what can I say he's my best friend. But maybe I want more.
Tick tock tick. A snap snap snap. Pop pop pop.
Is it hard to say that maybe the Tick tock tick Isn't as bad anymore
A snap snap snap. Pop pop pop.
Is it even harder to say maybe the Snap snap snap Isn't annoying anymore.
Pop pop pop.
Is it hardest off all to say maybe the Pop pop pop Is what pulled the last straw.
Maybe my best friend is perfect the way he is. Maybe I love him more than my best friend.
Tick tock tick. A snap snap snap. Pop pop pop.
He doesn't want what I want. He loves me in a different way. He loves me as a friend.
I can feel my heart breaking For you have smashed it to pieces I love you still though Being ****** as I am I trusted you Now I have lost The only thing that really mattered to me You You You My everything has always been you And it will always be you
I always told myself I would take a bullet for you And you would take a bullet for me But now I know that if I ever had taken a bullet for you You wouldn't have pushed me away and take the bulllet for me Because you shot me You shot me with your own bullet
Conceal don’t feel, Don’t let it show Conceal those scars on your wrist Don’t let them show for if they show They will scare people away from you They would run like you where the monster eating their Childrens souls Conceal don’t feel, Don’t let it show
I don’t know why But every once in awhile I get in this mood In this mood all I want to do is Die I do not see a point in Anything All I want to do is Give Up I want to give up on Everything But then I find something that makes me Happy It is a cycle you see A cycle I can never escape
I miss you dad I didn’t get to say goodbye Your gone and I’m still here You left March 18, 2017 I found out February 2nd, 2018 Almost a year later Why did no one tell me I guess I wasn’t that important Not to you now I see You never loved me But dad I will always love you
She has demons we all do Demons that eat at our souls So our death is sooner and our pain is worst Eating us inside and out this is what our demons do No one can save us from our demons Not even our loved ones The demons eat the souls of our loved ones Everyone has their own personal demons We fight and we lose battles against our demons Keep trying to fight because every demon has a weakness With strength and power we may all be able to beat our demons Just like how one day she will defeat her demons to
He was the flame that ignited her That flame that grew bigger and bigger Until one day the flame dulled Until that flame of his was no longer lit He got bored and tired Have gotten what he wanted from her She was still ignited blind to his dying flame For she was the city and he was the tsunami that destroyed her
So there is this boy This boys name is Georgy He melts my heart Like popsicle on a hot day He knows what words to use What words to make me smile The smile only he can make He knows the way to touch me The way that makes me melt in his hands He knows how to kiss me To make me shiver with every touch Georgy is what I want When he whispers The soft wanting words Into my ear making me want him more The intensity of each other Looking into each others eyes Deeper and deeper each time The look of **** The **** for each other Oh how I love this Georgy
She always thought that he noticed her He saw her in a different light Then anyone else had She thought that he had love her the way no on has He treated her like a princess But that light had faded That love had gone The princess disappeared But this made her stronger Now she strives on her own To live her life as her own
She heals in a way that is not understood She heals herself By putting herself down She heals herself by hating herself The hate which makes her stronger Hate that turns into love She hates herself to heal herself
He heard the whisper of her voice in my ear She had left all so long ago Taken by the guy who stolen her He stole her life right out of her hands With that gun he hid in his pants She whispers to him about that dreadful night Even though she is not there He hears her voice every night.
Everything he does To the way he talks And the way he laughs Every little things makes me fall Fall even more in love with him In love with him Like I’m a skydiver jumping from the greatest heights Every little thing he does Reminds me why Why I fall in love with him Over and over again I love him for who he is Nothing will ever change that
She’s a girl A girl with hopes and dreams A girl who has put forth everything Everything she has Her hopes and dreams Are all she wants Until a man Dressed in black white approached her He asks what she wants the most She told him all her hopes and dreams Looking her in the eye He tells her hopes and dreams are for fools Fools who think their dreams and hope will become reality With those words she loses Loses all her hopes and dreams To what this **** man said This **** man that was only a ghost A ghost in her own mind
I miss you’re mouth and you’re hands I miss you’re eyes and you’re smile I miss everything about you I miss our weird talks To the way you’re hands touch me I just miss you all in all I miss you And I hope you miss me
I wish to succeed in life I wish to find love To get married To have kids I wish to grow up to be a role model For my own kids That when people say who do you look up to They will say with the biggest smile my mother I wish to be the woman my biological mother never was The mother she never was The wife she never could be I wish to find a love that will warm my heart Love that gives me the feeling That I am needed I wish to succeed in life
Imagine a world A world of flowers Flowers so bright Imagine a world with no pain A world of no hurt Where everyone wears a smile Imagine a world where everyone is friends No one is the one left out The **** duckling isn’t so **** Just Imagine That’s all it is though Imagination In the real world The flowers are not all bright colors There is no such thing as no hurt Not everyone is friends The **** duckling is still the **** duckling Imagination is not real Imagination is just make belief Imagination is fake
I find him perfect in many ways What can I say though He is perfect for me My dream guy to be exact No ones dream guy ever comes true But mine did I must be the lucky one For my dream guys name is Jayson
It was the last straw She could hear it snapping like a twig being stepped on He’s done this before Looking into his eyes she barely hears his words anymore All she hears is the flow of the syllables he uses It ends all the same But before It can ends she stands up and walks away To a new life not ruled by him
She looked at him He looked at her The love in his eyes had faded But her love had gotten stronger He gave up on her But she wont give up on him And now she is getting smothered Smothered by her own pain
He always told her That he would Sweep her up To rescue her From the monsters The monsters in her head But when the monsters They came out He ran as fast as he could To find someone else Someone else to sweep up That didn’t have the monsters The ones that she had.
The night terrors have returned to haunt me Not able to sleep alone in my own bed The monsters in my dreams look like you The look of being used and hurt by you When I am asleep with my eyes still open Scared that they might come alive And eat my sleeping body
I have this pain I have never felt before I don’t know why I only feel it when I think about you Your face and your smile Your eyes and your hands I don’t know why it had to be I try to stop thinking about you But I cant It’s like I have an image of you As the wallpaper of my brain I still have your sweater From that dreadful night The night I felt as if my heart My heart was going to jump out of my chest But instead of it jumping out of my chest I gave you my heart The first day That we began our short adventure You pulled at the string You tore at its seams When you returned it to me It was all broken and torn Maybe this is the reason My heart feels this way I remember those dreadful words They left your mouth and hit me as their target I don’t love you anymore That has enough power to knock the strongest of us down Just like how you knocked me down I still love you though I will love you till my last days
I have made some new rules for myself These rules are for me to get over you Cause I don’t need you NUMBER ONE Stop crying kayla That only makes it worst I have cried for to long now. NUMBER TWO Delete all photos You don’t need them anymore They are just memories That don’t belong NUMBER THREE Give back sweaters Burn all letters Get rid of all stuffies NUMBER THREE The hardest of all rules Break all ties Cut all contact If I follow these rules I will succeed in my life If I let you go I will be happy again If only I could I could follow these rules Then I would be able to let you go
She Closes her eyes at night Thinking if it will ever get better This life she was born into She Always imagines What it would be like If she was her She Imagines what it would be like If she lived in a different body One that was not her own She Will grow up Wishing she was different In a different body She Will not give up Even though she will never be someone else She will always be her She
I want to die I remember the first time those words left my mouth I want to die now I don't want to die later I want to slit my wrist and bleed bleed a deep red showing I am human and those words hurt that you speak Maybe those words you spoke to me I should carve into my legs and arms For a reminder of what I am A **** A ***** A FAT COW A ***** Maybe I should listen Listen to those people Who tell me to go **** myself Slit my wrist and go bleed out For I am not wanted Not needed by anyone Not loved Not cared for I'll carve those words into my legs tonight Bleed a deep red Leaving no inch of skin untouched After that I shall slit my wrist Like they have been telling me to do for years I leave the water in my bath tub red Closing my eyes I am finally at peace No people to listen to
I want to die I remember the first time those words left my mouth I want to die now I don’t want to die later I want to slit my wrist and bleed Bleed that deep deep red showing I am human And those words you speak do hurt Maybe those words you speak to me I should carve into my legs For a reminder of what I am A **** A ***** A fat cow A ***** Maybe I should listen Listen to those people Who tell me to go **** myself Slit my wrist and go bleed out For I am not wanted Not needed by anyone Not loved Not cared for Ill carve those words in my legs tonight Bleed a deep red Leaving no inch of skin untouched After that I will slit my wrist Like they have been telling me to do for years I leave the water in my bath tub red Closing my eyes I am finally at peace No one to listen to