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Alyssa Nichole Feb 2018
She struggles,
To find out who she is.

She starts to ask.
Why am I here?
Why do you love me?
Why do you want me?
Was I mistake?

If there was no drugs or alcohol,
Would my dad be in my life?
If I didn’t struggle would I be depressed?
If I were to die today,
Would people actually care?

If I tell you my story, would you listen?
Alyssa Nichole Jan 2018
She being held hostage by her stereotypes

Her dreams being restricted by someone else's expectations.
Her thoughts cropped out of social standers.
Her life living for someone with their dreams,
Running through her veins.
Her mind lost in good times,
When she was her self.

Now she's pretending to be someone,
To let someone know she's fine...

But she being optimistic
Struggles hard to let herself out of this agony.
Alyssa Nichole Nov 2017
She said she was okay and you believed her?                                      Let me tell you what really wrong with her.     She's tired. 
Thats exactly what she is, tired.
She's tired of getting hurt
She's tired of being let down
She's tired of all the lies
She's tired of holding it all in
She tired of feeling broken, damaged,
worthless, never good enough, pain
She tired of all of her flaws and insecurities
She's tired of trying
She's tired of getting her hopes up
She's tired of being treated like crap

She's me
I am tired of everyone treated me as a piece of crap
I am tired of being stressed about everything
Alyssa Nichole Nov 2017
She is shy.                                        
She is weak.                    But She is not herself. She is a different person. Called not herself. That person is a poison to her soul. It kills her. Doesn't make that her strong. It makes her weak. That soul within her. Is a demon in her. Its not her. Its the demon within her. That kills her soul. And makes her weak.
Alyssa Nichole Jun 2017
You were my dad that I once knew,
But little do you know the pain you put me through.
I've grown up and realized
That your life is nothing but one thousand lies.
You say that you love me more than I know
But if that were true then why doesn't it show?                                    But don't forget I'm your blood,              
But obviously that doesn't mean anything to you,
I remember when I was the twinkle in my daddy's eyes.
You say mom's standing in the way
And all she wants is for you to pay.
Maybe that's true,
But what can I do?
I'm your daughter,
And you're supposed to be my father.
Does that mean anything to you?
But that you'll never see,
And a father you will never be.
If you could see the tears running down my face.
Still the years have passed you can't replace.
So, Dad, I've given up on you, and this time I'll leave.
Alyssa Nichole May 2017
Comfort on difficult days,                                                            Friendship to brighten your day                                                       Sunsets to warm your heart.                                                              Beauty for your eyes to see,                                                       Confidence for when you doubt.                                                           Faith so that you can believe.                                                         ­             Courage to know yourself,                                                               Patience to accept the truth                                                            ­         And love to complete your life.
Alyssa Nichole Apr 2017
I miss you in the morning                      And when the sun fades away,               The ache within my heart                    
Just will not go away.                                 My heart fills with love for you     When I think how much you cared As I relieve all the happiness   And the joy that we both shared.    You’re with me every moment                And so in every move I make.    Lay the memories I have of you   That I never will forsake
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