A heavy weight lay upon my chest.
But then I gave a sigh. Of both, pain and of relief.
The pain of coming to an ending.
The relief of it all being over.

In the pain, I felt grief.
Of what was.
And of what could have been.

In the relief, I felt comfort.
Of letting go of expectations.
And the breaking of a long-held silence.

With that sigh, the weight was released.
In its place, peace took over.

I see myself in ruins
All of my pieces
Scattered across the floor

A jigsaw puzzle
I do not recognize

The broken pieces
Of who I was

The pieces that once fit
No longer even resemble
Their lines cut new
And the images, changed

A jigsaw puzzle
I do not recognize

I just stare
A sense of confusion
Despair washes over me

I am lost
In this mess
Of broken pieces

In the darkness of the night
Silence hangs heavy in the air

The weight of grief presses down upon my chest
Each breath catching in my throat

2 A.M. is when my demons come out
They taunt me
And let me know what I am losing

I built my life around you
Never knowing it could come crashing in

2 A.M. is when the pain comes in
Nothing holding it back

I hold in a sob
My chest aches with the effort
I curl in on myself

An attempt to keep
The feeling of cracking
The feeling of breaking

It overtakes my body
I lose my battle

The sobs break free
My body shivers and quakes

2 A.M. when my world sleeps
When the silence is too much

All my haunting thoughts breaking in
The grief overtakes me
I fall apart
No longer able to keep my pieces together

There is nothing to mourn.
You were never mine and was not yours.
We were merely a wish I made.
A hope and sigh, for something more.

I refuse to be the moon.
I will not merely reflect the light of another.
Standing in the shadows.
I was born to shine and spread my own light.
I will light up your sky.
And you will feel my heat.