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Jan 2019 · 189
Dear Poets and Reader
Nathan Wischropp Jan 2019
Over the past few years I’ve fallen short of writing but a sprinkle every other blue moon on this delicious cake.
Though I never stopped writing on the scratch paper in my head I would have liked to have printed more often for my inactive fans and those of you who stumbled across my trash bin of crumbled feeling on this site.
This year I will upload WEEKLY so don’t be shy to follow me through this year and keep up with my less than thought out poems and lyrics as well as short stories such as Star Crossed Me.
My deepest thanks from your fellow poet ~Pilgrim
Dec 2018 · 170
Star Crossed Me
Nathan Wischropp Dec 2018
A short story of star crossed lovers who can’t even touch ones finger tips.
Follow to stay up to date on the latest chapters.
Dec 2018 · 330
Cigarettes and You
Nathan Wischropp Dec 2018
looking down at that lipstick print you left on that cigarette and what it meant to me
So here’s your crown to the ******* queen of lies letting every ******* guy between your thighs end my life with your eyes like a knife without words I struggle to find the time to think about you when I’ve found someone new.
Working edit 3
Dec 2016 · 400
Dead Rose
Nathan Wischropp Dec 2016
This flower had color and good bloom once and yet death blind to the beauty of all living things even one as vibrant as this has swept over it branching it closer to the ground until it breaks
Nathan Wischropp Nov 2016
Sunlight shining through my curtains like fire on eyelids reaching over this empty bed in which I lay. The smell of fresh coffee fills the intoxicating  smoke filled air I breathe lighting that morning cigarette. Exhale interrupted by a sudden cough followed by a sigh. The clock ticks 6am. I'd rather be asleep.
Nov 2016 · 244
Blood Not Tears
Nathan Wischropp Nov 2016
Like frostbite on my fingertips my life is numb and my heart is cold
I've given in to the physical harm and the mental abuse
Waking up each day wondering why and asking myself to cry
All these lies like
If you just be yourself people will like you or
It's okay to cry
I sharpen my razer repeatedly screaming inside to wake up
When in reality I'd rather be asleep
Blood flows like a river from my vains
Spill blood not tears I tell myself
My body grows cold lying on the bathroom floor as the room begins growing dark
Silence follows
Waking up in a hospital bed only to ask myself why...
Nathan Wischropp Nov 2016
why can't I write anything original
Even if that's my topic I can already hear the critics cry out
"How unoriginal this poem is"
In that response am I left speechless?
Do I just drop my hypothetical pencil and give up?
Even if the world turns it's back on me
Or at least whats left of my world
I'll keep writing hoping one day my words reach your heart.
Whoever and wherever you are out there.
Nathan Wischropp Nov 2016
tonight i walked through a field that used to scare me
more than i scared myself
and thought of the last time that i felt hopeless
sixteen in my fathers car wondering how
an artificial light could make me feel so empty
and if it looked as dull pouring from street lights
as it did shining from my tiny arms
on days when the world was too loud
and my voice was too small

i wish i had known you then
about your mind and how it perfectly mimics my own
or how good it felt to lie in this field
knowing it was never death that interested me
it was the idea of an opportunity
to follow a cold breeze that promised to take me anywhere
but here

and you thanked me for curing you
for saving your life when you thought nobody could
and reminding you that people are worth loving
and worth holding onto
but i’m left with a knot in my chest asking
why this feels so much like leaving
and letting go

treat me like a stained mattress
rest your body on my body
let me feel the weight of your existence
so i know what purpose feels like
and i’ll lie patiently, waiting for a kiss
three seconds to prove to you
that the biggest mistake of your life
was jumping before the building collapsed

i’m sorry you thought this couldn’t work
because i’ve never wanted anything more
in my entire life
than to prove that it could
Nov 2016 · 454
I'm broken but I'll try
Nathan Wischropp Nov 2016
Try and try again
Never changing
The same result each and every day
Worthless trash
Words can't describe
Why am I still in pain
Inside screaming
Never crying
Scars bleeding
Heart beating
I'm alone because I'm broken
Nathan Wischropp Nov 2016
Why him over me?
You can't even handle your own soul.
Oct 2016 · 230
What a Waste
Nathan Wischropp Oct 2016
What a waste of not only my time but my money.
With you I wasted blood and smiles.
I wasted my eyes and heart looking at you.
I wasted my breathe speaking to you.
My life was better before you.
Oct 2016 · 213
Kitten do you remember?
Nathan Wischropp Oct 2016
Will you remember the beating of my heart against your chest?!
Will you remember the soft touch of our lips?!
Remember how it felt to stare into each other's eyes?
I still love you.
Oct 2016 · 217
Feelings
Nathan Wischropp Oct 2016
My emotions are numb my heart is cold.
I open my beers never spilling my tears.
Blood pours from my wrist drip by drip.
Am I broken?
No!
My eyes are open.
Oct 2016 · 239
6feet Under
Nathan Wischropp Oct 2016
With everyone around me yelling why are you breathing
I often ask myself the question should I even be living
I've never thought of suicide as an escape
To stare up at a slab of wood paid for with my life savings
Why would anyone choose that over spilling unwanted blood
I AM ALIVE!
I EXIST!
Oct 2016 · 179
Believe it
Nathan Wischropp Oct 2016
All I want in this life is to feel close to someone who won't wrong me or sleep with my friends. I want to walk into a room without someone saying I'm trash. To make enough money to support myself and help others. This world is rotten.
Oct 2016 · 192
I'm just done
Nathan Wischropp Oct 2016
No matter what I do or how hard I try. I'm still trash. My initials are NAW because naw **** that guy.
Oct 2016 · 224
List for lyfe
Nathan Wischropp Oct 2016
Love is a lie
2. Nobody will ever truly understand another person.
3. Suicide is never an answer.
4. Humans are cancer to the earth.
5. Emotions are controllable.
6. Love, Peace, and Harmony.
7. There's darkness in all of us.
8. If you give up on yourself you will truly be alone.
Oct 2016 · 202
Paper cut
Nathan Wischropp Oct 2016
Suicide isn't why blood needs to be spilled. It's spilled to keep my demons at bay.
Oct 2016 · 389
Melting Snow
Nathan Wischropp Oct 2016
Snowflakes fall down one by one in the many surrounded by others all different but join together in a blanket of snow sharing the same fate and slowly disappear.
Oct 2016 · 217
Untitled
Sep 2016 · 299
Im drunk
Nathan Wischropp Sep 2016
Why is this whole world fake but wait maybe it's just fate to late I'm here not to care with no fear drink beer not one tear comes to my eye so good-bye sleep tight and good night ***** **** it.
21 in 14 days.
Sep 2016 · 210
you please
Nathan Wischropp Sep 2016
I'll get down on my knees
Won't you kick me in the face please
It'll make everything I say sound like poetry
Sep 2016 · 175
Cracked Mask
Nathan Wischropp Sep 2016
You know my mistakes but you don't know me.
Sep 2016 · 439
(sad face)
Nathan Wischropp Sep 2016
True honest love doesn't exist.
At least not for someone as broken as me.
Everyone I fall for is nothing more than a *****.
Ready to cheat and give up because I'm a worthless piece of trash.
Why am I here if I'm only ment to suffer?
God if you exsist please help me.
I can't take this torment.
This judgment from everyone.
I need you to show me that love will be there in the end.
I'm broken and crying.
I want to die but hold on to hope.
I don't want to do this on my own.
Love if you exsist then show me a sign.
Give me any reason to keep on living.
Or am I ment to die completely alone?
Sep 2016 · 210
Where are you?!
Nathan Wischropp Sep 2016
Why do I always poor my heart into someone that leaves me out to die.
Why don't you finish the job and stab me in the eye?!
I ask and I beg; I plead and I cry
Why can't I **** myself only God holds me back.
If there is a God then why am I torn.
If he's watching me cry then why doesnt he help.
Because there is no God.
Yet I can't **** myself.
Sep 2016 · 226
Kill me
Nathan Wischropp Sep 2016
Cut me
Burn me
Stab me
Choke me
**** me
Poison me
Kick me
I don't ******* care anymore!
Just take my life PLEASE!
I'm to much of a ***** to pull this ******* trigger I beg you!
I WANT TO DIE!!
A message from my soul
Sep 2016 · 179
Dear God
Nathan Wischropp Sep 2016
Just ******* **** me already.
I'm ready to die.
Sep 2016 · 400
Izabell
Nathan Wischropp Sep 2016
I'll keep fighting for you until you love me.
I won't let you slip away not again.
You may be in love with him...
But let me tell you this darling.
He'll never love you the way I do.
Don't make this mistake please
Stay with me
Not just tonight
But forever
Good luck out there kid
Sep 2016 · 426
Sleepless without you
Nathan Wischropp Sep 2016
Thinking of you wherever you are
Watching the night slip by
Endlessly waiting
Always wanting
Your voice
No call
Sleep
Sep 2016 · 1.7k
Nicole (Hotel Books)
Nathan Wischropp Sep 2016
I think I'm losing you, but I will never regret choosing you
Because I am in love, and for now that will be enough
And the ones around me convince me that I was the only person who was dumb enough to believe that you and I had hope.
But now I know even after you began to let your emotions slow the only reason I stood alone was because I was the only one who knew our love was never going to let go.

Everyone wanted me to see that we could not thrive, so gouge out my eyes.
Because if this is reality then I guess I'm not alive,
Because I don't know a life in where I can't make things right.
And when life teaches you to drive and you finally say goodbye
And you won't let me stand by your side
Ill know that though some feelings are hurt, none will have died.
Cause I used to stay up at night and picture myself looking into your eyes
Shouting as you would sigh “how dare you think you can fall asleep with water dripping from the kitchen sink, how dare you think you can fall asleep with all these little leaks in this home we built in our dreams”

A picture is worth a thousand words or whatever people say to me.
It's hard to believe when your mind is lost and in need,
And all you can picture is a memory inside of someone else's sheets.
A prayer that nothing will keep,
A hope that light will seek before the dark sinks too deep.
Or at least the sinking feeling inside of me will decrease when the release of perceived dreams burn in the flame of feeling free.
So feel free to be free if that's what you need.

And if someday you feel alone and everything caves in when you try to breathe,
Know that you are not alone as far as I can see,
Because you were everything to me.
Through this I have realized that if I were God we would have all just died,
Because darling you were mine and now I feel so dead inside,
And what good am I if all I can create is a projection of my own mind.
A dream of finding time to remind you that I'm still here and I'm not fine.
And darling if you're going to leave just remember who you are,
And do what you can to remember me.

Maybe someday we can talk about our past and we can talk about the weather.
Whenever you leave I don't care what I'm remembered for,
I just want to be remembered.
Because even if I failed you at least I tried,
And maybe our lives don't add up now but someday our graves will look the same when we both die.
And if I had a chance I'd give you one last kiss and I'd bite down on your lip
And I'd try to puncture it so you'll never forget that time,
But you'll always regret.
And darling I know sometimes life will take a turn for the worst,
And sometimes life will even hurt.
And I know some days, some days you'll be afraid of the lessons you'll have to learn
And some days you'll even feel burned,
And I want to let you know that I want to love you through them.

But I always get what I deserve.
Aug 2016 · 568
Last Time
Nathan Wischropp Aug 2016
Trying to sever the connection we once had ready to go
Why hold on and fight me when you already know
We once stood together in the mirror of life
Now shattered and separated cut with a knife
Our hearts are paper torn and burned to ash
We both knew this wouldn't last
I'm done trying to get you
I'm just asking for one final chance to let you know how much you ment to me
How much I love you
You need to come see me. I need to show you something before it's gone.
I love you.
Jul 2016 · 460
Papercut
Nathan Wischropp Jul 2016
You're as cold as a statue pleading **** me so he'll touch you while I'm forced to watch you moan his name screaming out with pain I left you don't say you're sorry I'm already bleeding from your name being called from across the room trying to run at a dead end I beg you to block me like paper I'm torn.
I hate you but, darling I love you.
Don't dial my number and tell me you're happy or talking to him. I'm better off with this picture of torture I paint for myself on the walls of regret. Forgive me while I pull the trigger.
Jul 2016 · 759
Searching for you.
Nathan Wischropp Jul 2016
All I've ever wanted was that person I could always call when I felt alone.
Searching endlessly 4 city's.
Darling do you even exist?
Lost blood like vanishing hope.
I close my eyes every night and I'm ready to breath!
I'm ready to believe!
I'm ready to be alive!
Just show me what love looks like...
I want to believe you're the one. After what she did I'm scared to step forward. Take my hand darling. Pull me just a few steps closer. Look into my eyes when I tell you. I love you.
Jul 2016 · 345
The reason I left
Nathan Wischropp Jul 2016
I left you because I couldn't stand the thought of watching you be the one to walk away.
I broke up with you because even though it hurt walking away. I feel better knowing you weren't the one to say the words.
Jul 2016 · 239
VS the World
Nathan Wischropp Jul 2016
I have to let you go. You don't see it but darling I see you with him and I hate it.
I'm better off without you. I know what we had was real. I've never been happier then the days we spent together during our adventures. I know you'll do something great for the world one day; don't settle. Never forget who you are Karen. Thank you for who you've made me become. You have opened my eyes to the universe around me and for that I'll always hold a special place in my heart for you. VS the world baby.
Jul 2016 · 526
Dear Karen
Nathan Wischropp Jul 2016
He saw you as a quick **** and a friend, sexurally attached. You were my soul so why choose him? You knew as well as I did once you said you were getting your own place it met moving in. While he pushed me away I fought for you. Even with the loss I love you. I guess I couldn't win every battle. When I'm gone I just hope you look back and remember the good times darling not the dark.
     -the boy you loved.
She said it was a lie.
Jul 2016 · 206
Scars your name
Nathan Wischropp Jul 2016
I cut your name into my flesh
Blood like sand from an hourglass Drips onto the bathroom sink
Don't let this last drop be it
Run away with me
Let's be free
This commercial world isn't for us
Darling realize
You are loved
Why hesitate
I'm willing to start a new with you
Say yes
Jul 2016 · 183
Heart (part 1)
Nathan Wischropp Jul 2016
I didn't want to realize when we were together how hollow our love was! Now that it's gone I'm still here and all I want to know is love.
Jul 2016 · 270
Contact
Nathan Wischropp Jul 2016
Write me a song
Write me a letter
Write me a text
I need to feel your connection
Please
Darling
Don't forget about me
Jul 2016 · 164
Fall for pain
Nathan Wischropp Jul 2016
When you see pain behind someone's eyes
It's so easy to love them
Jul 2016 · 194
Human
Nathan Wischropp Jul 2016
We shouldn't be here.
Jul 2016 · 374
Loner
Nathan Wischropp Jul 2016
Maybe I like to being alone.
Coming soon
Jul 2016 · 498
Fuck Slut
Nathan Wischropp Jul 2016
Every boy is a **** boy, every girl is a ****.
Maybe that's a perfect picture.
I just want to find someone important to that.
Jun 2016 · 535
I said I wouldn't care
Nathan Wischropp Jun 2016
So what she chose you.
She didnt like me anyway.
Look at her how could she.
Although darling I still want you.
Guess I'm just a **** boy after all.
Id let her use me again.
I miss her.
When I said I wanted to wait, I only wanted to wait to see if you got back with him. Because I don't like being used.
Jun 2016 · 264
sleepless envy
Nathan Wischropp Jun 2016
A night alone without my hope and without my snow. Torn between a great personality and a body I can't hold. With her gone and you with him...I'm envious. My dear I miss your soft lips. Don't let this be it. Because though it may be selfish... I want more, I want you.
To the girl who held me. :)
Jun 2016 · 189
Finding Love?
Nathan Wischropp Jun 2016
I've been so upset trying to move on from her, it only took so long before perfections lips cured my pain. I think I'm falling for you.
Jun 2016 · 395
Moonlight
Nathan Wischropp Jun 2016
With a tear I say goodbye and watch the moonlight leave your eyes.
Kiss me dear one more time, take my hand and hold it tight.
Jun 2016 · 1.1k
One More Drink
Nathan Wischropp Jun 2016
Trying not to think.
I drink.
The pain remains.
Listening to your heartless claims.
Reject me.
You're free.
I never loved you anyway.
I always knew you'd betray.
Even when I can't drink anymore.
You are still just a *****.
I don't believe in love.
Jun 2016 · 649
Last Kiss
Nathan Wischropp Jun 2016
If I could go back to that last kiss I would bit down on your tongue until you bleed out that way you would remember it.
Jun 2016 · 812
Worthless
Nathan Wischropp Jun 2016
Everytime you tell yourself you're not worth it!
Everytime you tell yourself you're worthless!
You're being lied to.
And in that case...
The liar is you.
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