Phosphenes

Phosphenes Jul 2019

Oh, my bad

I didn't love you enough
Can I try again harder?

I think I loved LOVE
More than I loved you

Phosphenes Jul 2019

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She laughed that day and I smiled forever.

Phosphenes Jun 2019

That night

My eyes were clouds
     but it's raining red

     My voice like thunder
     but my throat hurts

    Next night the sky was purple
        and there were shining stars

    Small things
         could change her every night.

Phosphenes Jun 2019

Times

When I go to my old poems
I find your love
The love I forgot
The love I hated the most.

Phosphenes Jun 2019

My demon

Is smiling
there in the corner
At me-
For putting myself
in hell
without his help.

Phosphenes Jun 2019

her

All I want is
to hold her tight
and listen
to her whisper

Then I'll start
kissing her neck

I just need that
on repeat
Till the ever ends.

Phosphenes Jun 2019

Thought I moved on

I was scared
so I shut my heart down

Now I know how dumb I am
My eyes are still bleeding

Thought I moved on
turned out I pretend healing
and all of me can't live long.