I don’t matter to myself because I do what everybody else wants me to do.
I do not do what I want to do and therefore I believe I do not matter.
I believe I do not have a say in my own life, but I can change that.
I will change that.
NOW! I already changed it.
You seem safe when you open yourself,
so I open up as well.
What if we all stayed open?
Is heaven the gateway to hell?
I create a dream and then lose myself into it.
My whole self.
I create the biggest most soothing dream that I could ever imagine; all of my wants and all of my current needs I put into it.
I invest all of my life energies into the dream and then I crush it.
I really mean that I crush it.
It gets scattered into millions of pieces of stardust and meteorites sprinkled among the mountains and dales of the galaxies and beyond.
Nothing fails as nothing is started. I am nothing. I become nothing and I stay as nothing until a new dream appears and the process is repeated once again. It expands and shrinks as it blinks back at me.
"It is all a big joke August."
I can hear the voices of the gods.
It is all the mystical nature of it all.
I am the Phoenix
I need something to hold on to.
I need you.
When I let you go I died.
I lost myself in you and now I am stuck here alone and together at the same time. As one for eternity and out.
Stuck as nothing.
Stuck as no-thing...
Your thought is an entity all by itself. Hold onto it. Let it go. Put it on a shelf.
What more do you want from me than the simple truth?
You are just a thought and your body is a booth.
Your body is a booth
You give and you get.
Do not reject.
Let it come.
Whatever you chase...
It will never be enough...
Witness yourself being ****** into the impossible dream of arriving somewhere else than where you are.
No need for a scar.
Just where you are.
Just where you are meant to be.
Never enough. Never enough.
— The End —