But sorrow
is a strange country
never transversed before
and the traveller hardly
does its terrain know
there's no road-sign
the way to show
as rough winds
indifferently blow--

the sojourner
though weary and confused
must abide on his own
unsure which way to go
ere the dusk were soon
to cast its long shadow-

here time seems
to stop its flow
the heart struggles
in vain--will there be
a tomorrow?

silence
the deepest silence
broods all over-

what lies ahead
the worn-out soul
would not know!

The emptiness
the void pervading
the nothing
the not -wanting

is the beginning
of sorrow's ending
it's the self-liberating
with nothing missing

"It's nice to finally meet you"
~By Ian Spaeth~

It's nice to finally meet, I've heard a lot about you.

I've heard how hard you are on yourself even though you do your best.

I've heard you find yourself ugly even though you look beautiful.

I've heard you think you're dumb even though you certainly aren't.

I've heard that you fear being alone forever even though you have your whole life ahead of you.

It really is nice to meet you, I hear many good things.

I hear you like being helpful even though you say you're useless.

I hear you are passionate even though you call yourself bland.

I hear you have wonderful friends and family but you feel unloved.

I've heard a lot about you.

What I hear and what I see is they were right and you were wrong.

With that said, its nice to finally meet you Ian.

It would have been so easy
to say:  I've found myself
after groping in the blinding dark
a new -made illuminated man
who did once alone embark
upon a spiritual journey
saved, saved at last
(despite all odds)
as though I were hero
of some sort!

self-delusion!
a momentary spark
in time, occasioned
by a certain leaning
of mind and heart
by sudden emotions heightened
vaporises--doesn't last but
only the first breath
of a longing-to-be
a will-o'-the wisp
a mirage-

a harbinger
whispering:
hardly a start
towards the clear blue
unclouded sky
only a tiny path opening
marked Via Dolorosa
before the journey's ending
(until then it's still a self-drifting)
are you ready for more weeping?