You have left me here For over two years Pining and praying I've watched silently as you've loved another Whispered his name next to the ever poisonous flower of 'I love you' I've felt your lips on mine and I thought we might make it We might navigate the battlefield of our youth and make it out alive I've heard the deafening sound of silence as my heart slowly broke when you left me Your reasons clouded in cryptic ever changing half-answers I've celebrated when you finally let him go I foolishly hoped now there might be room for me again Afterall you never denied it I've waited patiently for you to be ready 'I don't want a relationship right now' That constant excuse that I respected every breath But here we are Two years later and you have led me on a wild chase through the gardens of love Only to wind up in the arms of another Someone new that hadn't ever even been in the picture In fact he was pushed so far beyond the frame I didn't think he could ever come close To your winter twilight eyes and your electricity that I thought you had promised me But yet here we are I'm loosing you for the third time and you still have never told me why But I will shove it all away My heart's been broken for years What's one more *****?
I will always love you and I won't let our friendship suffer because of it. But I will forever be waiting for you to keep your promise
I wrapped my heart in pain-infused steel To protect from the words you try to impale me with 'Just shed a tear, maybe then I'll stop' Why would you want to make your child cry? 'To make you show emotion' My silence is my emotion If I move to defend you will just cut me down With burning anger that is unmatched by even the devil himself 'You don't even care.' But I do I just learned not to flinch when faced with a predator
There is something rotting in my brain Something that turns my empathy to apathy My kindness into weakness My love into pain There is something fundamentally WRONG With twisted smiles and insane eyes A short leash on emotions I am not even sure are real What will happen when I snap? When everything explodes outwards? Will there even be anything left?
Your greatest enemy is hope It makes you believe that maybe Just maybe You stand a chance Because the person you thought you were over Is back And you are stuck hoping That maybe Just maybe That the person that made you loose faith in love Might just make you believe in it again
I always thought it would be you We would sit on the sofa wrapped in each other's arms as we watched the ball drop I would feel you lips on mine like the fireworks they always were Welcoming in a new year But here I am Alone once more Watching movies and writing poems about someone I no longer love For not the first time in my life I wish soulmates existed Maybe then I would have been spared Maybe I would still believe in love Maybe I would instead be filled with wishes instead of bitterness Maybe I would still want a New Years Kiss