She didn’t know where she was heading
She didn’t know where the path she has taken was leading
She was going to keep going as long as she was still breathing

Was she lost?
Maybe she was, but if she kept going what was she
Going to lose?
And what if she stopped?

She had hopes of making it big
Was it her fate to be big?
Or was this path only leading to a dead end?
What will happen at the end?

Is she lost?
Must she keep going?
Will she make it?
I don’t know
She also doesn’t know
I bet you don’t know either
She’s just a lost child

Hey listen lover.
I’m confusing, contradicting &
A liar.
My lies can’t run much farther
Soon enough il Speak.
You’ll turn weak & Wonder .
Question our love and debate wether it’s worth living further..
It’s no shock to hear me say
“I’ve used.”
It’s A shock to know it all along just hoping your doubts weren’t true.
Hey listen lover
You’ve known this for awhile
I struggle with addiction & have never truly recovered .
I’m suffering daily & I can’t come across a reason to really say
“ I don’t need this. I can do it. I can handle my problems & life’s struggled
Sorry baby
Leave me and find some one truly amazing

I’m here.
I just shed a tear.
Il Be Fine
It was caused by a line
I’m still lying
I know deep in me I won’t be fine.
—
I say I’m Tired
The Addict life i Want to retire
I say I hate this
I write about regret everyday
I cry & Type I’m Helpless
Of how fed up I’m with
this dope ****.
I Confirm it’s not true happiness
I don’t feel good , I feel worse
And say I don’t truly love it.
I Clarify I don’t have fun nor do I enjoy it.
Rewrite about the way it’s not fantastic, I don’t feel Great.
I’m an addict.
I use drugs to run from **** & deal with nothing .
I don’t pop pills to have fun like raves & parties.
I don’t do lines to spend Good vibes
with Friends..
——
I Repeat it’s not enjoyable
How I want to travel back & never encounter.
Why am I always contradicting then ?

Theres no words
After each breath I take
What can I possibly say ?
The mistake was already made.
Again of course
After how many times of saying I’m sane?
How il Be Sober for real.
Make a big change.
There’s no words .
After each breath I take
What can I possibly say ?
“I’m sorry I promise to not fail again”
I’ve said That a thousand times
Il keep saying it again
Il lie every second
Till i convince you il be fine
I don’t know what to say
I Can’t Apologize
I’m speechless.,

It hurts to lie .
To front as if im alright.
Within skin layer
I’m faker than fake.
I’m sorry baby.
To have lied once more ...
To fool your vulnerable heart.
It hurts to lie.
Pretend like everything’s ok.
My entire life is a lie .
I’m on drugs and I’m still crying.

It’s not want anyone wants.
It’s not a situation that’s common in talks.
Nobody wants to deal with a
Drug addict.
Talk , speak or be near a ******.
They are viewed as trash .
Not ever knowing they don’t truly want to be lost on drugs.
Nobody cares about Addicts.
Such a bad label it’s a rare topic.
They have no importance besides viewed as ***** , thief’s & lazy.
Which is why I tell you baby,
You don’t need to deal with me.
I can imagine the confusion.
The disgust & Unhappiness.
What you go through just wishing I can let go.
I can imagine the headaches.
The stress & frustration when you find out I used again.
My addiction interferes with our relationship.
It Plays many roles and always the blame to my actions.
Why I tell you baby ,
If I’m too much for your life?
Leave .. i Don’t Want you being miserable with me.
Go find a normal girl .
No issues , no history.
A fresh start hunny ...
That’d be so ****** up.
If you agree with my advice..
If you really feel like being with me is too much for your life.
If you feel I’ve put you Through a lot.
If you truly believe you have it rough when it comes to me.
If you have thought to back up
Leave me for someone Els ..
I’d go crazy ...............
What I went through as a friend since the start , will never compare to the complicated life you think you have with me ..