That song plays,
and I am taken to a place,
a time,
a corner
of my mind,
but so real.
Where the pain is physical.
A pain in my chest,
and a stomach ache.
I gasp for breath
while oxygen leaks
from the hole where my heart
ought to be.
Take me back to now please.

No,
I dont think we can
ever
be friends again.
The pain is too strong,
my memory too long.
When my heart went still,
you were always far gone.

Just imagine,
a world where all the hate
was replaced with love,
where absolute empathy
was inherent in all of us
where we comforted
the lost,
the broken,
the lonely,
where we realized
the universal connections.
Just imagine.

You did nothing
to deserve my obsession.
You do not deserve
this level of control
over my heart
my hopes,
my dreams,
my time.
Long ago you were injected
so deep into my bloodstream.
Everytime I think I've gotten clean,
flushed you from my system,
the toxins multiply and spread.
I wish I could extract these feelings,
with scalpels
calipers
tweezers.
Pull them from the fibers of my being,
and burn them in the fire.