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Seth Honda May 2018
Happiness is a strange thing.
It comes in small amounts each time.
It is never as consistent as rhyme or as the sunrise...

The space between those spurts of happiness can sometimes be cruel and mean.
And as time goes on happiness comes in even smaller quantities,
And those packages are very scarce.

Happiness is a mindset they say.
Well do you think I make the conscious decision to not be happy every day.

Everyone wants to be happy.
But not everyone is.
It takes a lot to be happy.
It's hard and requires work.

Happiness is like a beautiful yard,
It starts out barren,
It is then flourished with the seeds of plants that is childhood.
That is where the yard becomes green and,
As time goes on,
Without constant maintenance the yard begins to die
And sometimes it rains,
Then the grass begins to grow
But... that never lasts long.

For you to remain happy it is not a mindset,
It is a matter of your perception of happy.

So be happy,
But also remain happy.

Keep your child like spirit,
Never let your yard die.

For once a plant dies,
never again will it be alive,
No matter how hard one tries
Remain happy, and tend to your yard :)
  May 2018 Seth Honda
Love isn't blind,
blind are those,
who never loved.
Seth Honda May 2018
It hits the table.
Your keys.
You sit down and look over at me with a look of love in your eyes, admiration.

Our eyes lock.
They meet and your lips begin to turn up into a smile.
Then it all goes black.

There is no longer light between us, it is just.
But that is not true because there is darkness.
And for there to be the absence of light,
There had to be light in the first place.

The humming of electricity stops
The click click of the fan,
The voices on the radio,
There is no longer sound between us,
It is just.

But that is not true because there is silence,
And for there to be the absence of sound,
There had to be sound in the first place.

But that is not all.
There is a love between us,
An unspoken love.
The buzzing of our atoms reaching for each other,
The sound of our hearts beating in unison.

I light a candle and our love illuminates the room.
We talk and there is no longer silence. There is the sound of two lovers speaking, Connecting.
And I know then that there is something there.

Our eyes lock.
They meet but you do not smile.
The lights shut off and the buzzing is less significant.

There is no longer a desperation in our touch.

I do not light a candle that night,
Scared that the light will illuminate something in the dark.
Something I do not want to see.

I prefer the dark.
I prefer the dark over an unconfessed lover,
Over the “i do not”s or the “but”s

I prefer silence over the truth.

Our eyes do not lock.
Your lips are pursed together and there is a tear forming in your eye.
I do not hear much.
Just the rustling of you beneath the blanket.

I have my own now.

We go night after night,
Hands to ourselves,
Lips not touching,
Voices not colliding.

How can I be laying next to you and still be lonely,
How can I see you but miss you.

Now. It is like your voice is a commodity,
Something I long to hear,
Something that is scarce,
Something not given.

Our eyes lock.
They meet and you do not smile.
The tear falls down your cheek.

There is nothing.
Just silence.
Because for there to be unlove,
There had to be love in the first place.

The absence of... anything.
Is that nothing?
Or is it just emptiness.

The lights do not go out that night.

I hear the drifting apart.
Feel my feet shuffling to the couch.
I see the loneliness, inviting me in.

I turn off the lights.

I light a candle and I lay down.
The candle illuminating my tear stained face,
The skeletons in my closet,
The monsters in the dark.
It illuminates my darkest fears.

I keep the light off.
I put the candle out,
Hiding my pain.

It hits the table,
Your tears.
And you sit down and look over at me with tears in your eyes, sadness.

Our eyes lock.
There is no longer love between us.
I am alone now.
I go through the motions.
I go to coffee shops looking for love, gas stations, bars.
I speak over crowds in hope our eyes will meet.

I write poems and I walk the streets
Looking for something in someone else’s eyes.
Something you took from me.
Something not mine anymore.

I glance over and see a coffee mug in the air.
Covering a face framed by long black hair. Different from her blonde.
Curls flow down and bounce on her shoulders.
Different from her straight.

It hits the table.
The mug.
You come over and sit down
You look at me across the table.

Our eyes lock.
They meet and your lips turn up into a smile.
Then the lights turn back on.
Sometimes it takes a little bit of dark for you to see that you have to move on || Seth
  May 2018 Seth Honda
she was the maker, he was her muse
a creative girl with everything to lose

she colored her canvas with her bleeding heart
she loved him and watched her world fall apart

she got her heart broken but kept a blank face
knowing that there are some mistakes you can't erase

she gave up her art, a lover betrayed
her pure white mind turned a darker shade.
And then there were seven.
Seth Honda May 2018
I believe in love
Or at least the idea of it.
The idea of two people living so perfect in unison, the perfect fit.
Then I met you,
You were the eye of my hurricane.
But the eye will eventually move on;
So you left just as you came.
I believe in love.
Or at least once upon a time I did.
Short but sweet :)) || Seth
Seth Honda May 2018
Flipping through song after song,
The search begins.
A search for a song that will satisfy my ears.
A song that fulfills my desires.
A song that brings my emotions into focus.
Any song.

The music stops.
I sit in silence,
A peaceful silence of blue,
Or yellow,
Or orange.
Nevertheless, silence.

I hear a ringing in my ears,
The silence brings me peace.
The silence makes me feel safe.
It wraps me in its warm embrace as I close my eyes.

The darkness also brings me peace.
It brings the world into focus
And causes my emotions to begin to stir.

The silence is now stabbing my eardrums
As memories begin to surface.
Memories I have pushed down,
Memories of loneliness,
Of loss.

The darkness behind my eyelids begins to take shape.
Shapeshifting to the monster in my closet,
To the one under my bed,
The boy in the mirror.

I lay still.
The boy in the mirror is crying,
Screaming for help,
He bangs on the glass and I shrink back,
I neglect him and his feelings.

I lay still. I try to open my eyes,
I can not.
I press play but the music does not pierce my internal silence.
I can not move.

I stand at the top of a building.
My feet are tingling,
My palms are sweating.
I begin to walk.

I look to the concrete,
It seems so welcoming,
It encourages me.

The space between me and the concrete begins to turn a red hue.
My heart is pounding and the concrete calls my name.
I fall.

Not forward,
Back onto the building.

As my back comes into concrete with the roof I fall through it.
My eyes shoot open and I **** up.
The music is continuing to play.
I flip through song after song,
The search continues.

A search for a song that will satisfy my ears.
A song that fulfills my desires.
A song that brings my emotions into focus.
Not just any song.
A song that will keep away the silence and the darkness,
Until I learn how to myself.
September 8, 2018 || 9:52 PM
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