I am every age I’ve ever been,
And she lives inside of me.

I changed, I grew
But I’ll always remember
What it feels like to be 12, 10, 2
To view the world from a perspective
Stolen from me by aging

Now as I grow taller, older, wiser
It is my job to make her happy
The child still inside of me
Who just needed someone like me

I went for a drive today
And pleaded with someone inside of me
Squeezing my arm and dragging me into
The idea that running away
would fix everything
I could have been gone this entire time,
I realized
As nobody thought to check on me
I drove down the roads I grew up on
And passed every house of everyone I’ve ever known
And knew that they could not host me
So I drove further
The beach welcomed me with warmth and
The sound of children laughing around me
Feeling the magic I lost years ago
I could have been gone this entire time
I thought
As no one looked at me twice
I walked this time, and into the water
I could have been gone this entire time, i realized as no one stopped me

Please break me
Hurt me
If you want to be mean
Be mean to me
I can take it
Just like that
I know the whole time you’ll be here
And i make you feel powerful enough to stay

I wanted to know what made you tick
The ins the outs
The corners of your personality
I wanted to know everything about you
And love it
And you left when you found out
What I looked like naked

Will God leave the light on for me
If I never believed?
Would he be so kind as to walk me
To where he ****** me?

I wanted to watch you die
What a sweet child
Corrupted by
Lack of love
Lack of light

Your kindness was for a reason,
So when they leave, don’t regret
How many times you said “I love you”
How you gave em all of you
How you know you must have made them feel
They needed it as much as you

I don’t need to know why,
I’ll find better love
Stronger than it ever was