She comes to me
bleeding inside
from a thousand
individual scars
with pleading eyes
self contained
She speaks in gentle
refrains
"I don't know where
I'm going
I don't know who
I've become
I go through the motions
deaf, blind and dumb
I dance on cue
I stand in line
I've tried to be so
good.
I've left behind the darkness
I've forgiven the past
I'm far too aware of time
It doesn't matter really I don't mind
I wish I could tell
you what I find
The struggle between
my internal world
condemnation
irritability
judgement
fears
heartaches there, vile rages, petty hatreds
*** dancing on the head of a
pin
exquisite laughter
it's all there.
While my behavior is quite the
opposite
accommodating, loving, compassionate
flirtatious, curious
connection is my goal
When I'm alone I'm lonely
when together suffocated
the best distance is
from here to there
I wish I could tell
you that I mind
The storms still
come and go
luck rides the
tides
each day the
sunrise
This human stuff
is all too real
it creeps up on you
so you don't know
how you feel
Which is why I've
come to you to
speak my mind
they say you are the
complaint department
the garbage collector
I'm bleeding inside
from a thousand scars
that's not to say I really mind."
They say the healer
must heal themselves
so of course I ask
"How can I help you?"