It's all trial and error;
weighing heavy on
the latter.
When I feel like this,
I want to build an
exit machine;
walk through it to
a different life.
Too many irons in
the fire, I'm burned
beyond recognition.
The situation unfolds
like it always does,
I fall down, and
then get back up.
But I'm tired, and sometimes
the ground is comfortable,
and way too familiar.

I'm weak
push me harder

I don't want to know
even if I break soon

I might run out of time

will I make it
can I still make it

why can't I do perfect things
everything I touch is torn apart

at the end of the day
when my shoulders are tense

nothing can help me
I'm so stressed

with a million things to do
I try and keep quiet

don't want to scream and cry

push me harder
so I can fall

let me hit the ground
till I can't remember anything anymore

he's worth
all the judgemental stares

the age difference
she's older
he's beginning to realize it's fate

he doesn't look up to her
he just wants to have fun and make her smile

all she wants is laughter

they wait for every thursday
to feel alive

I won't stop you from saying
what I want you to say

I won't stop you
because it's what I want to hear

a few white lies
won't hurt you

still haven't learned my lesson
still have them all unfinished

all the white lies I tell
become tainted and stained inside out

all our conversations
lost into a void of numerous codes

all our shared voices
our tall tales

afternoon voice calls
doing laundry with you on the phone

I loved you
when I realized you saw the ugly parts of me

I lied and I ran
but you were always there
when I came back

I think I was in the wrong
you're so sweet
hate that you saw the good inside me

I was bitter
I hated you
hated myself and everyone else

I didn't think there would be a day
you would find someone else

didn't think there would be a time
you would leave

when are you coming back
please don't let it be

remind me I'm still good
even if I don't deserve you

truth is
I hate being the bad guy

but I said I was sorry

that wasn't enough
this time

no one loved me like you

I took you for granted
lost my advantage

no one else matters
like you

I'll wait
if you ever want to come back
I'll be here waiting forever

there's not enough hours to sleep

I can't find peace

walking up like a zombie

I hate this society

I can't sit down

standing up when I want to fall

there's not enough time

my brain is dead

now I wish to go back to the beginning of the year

filled with pain

but there I could rest

why do we born
to be weak
to be owned
to recover alone

why do we taught
not to say no
not to be heard
not to be complete

miss the windy nights
walking in the dark

you're were so close
so far away

I wasn't fast enough
can't match your pace

you always walked ahead

wait for me
I'll be ahead soon

I'll catch up

we can run together
somewhere they can't see us

go wild
get drunk

I want to buy the night sky
you can have what's mine

We met by chance
We parted by choice

We loved completely
We still let it end

We lived with regret
We tried to reconnect

We failed