I didnt want you..
I wanted those dreams you made me see....

At the end of the day, we just want to be chosen , isn't it??

Yes, the devil is beautiful
He is dreamy
He says all the right words
He does all the right things
He makes you feel all the love
He makes you believe that fairy gods exists..
Then...BAMmmM!!!!!!!
Can you hear that noise?
The noise of your heart shattering to countless pieces...
Then....Ouchhhhh!!!!
Can you feel that *****??
That ***** that pierced through your soul and made you lifeless...
What do you do now???
With all these impossible dreams and unexplained feeling..
How do you get over it.?
Get over something you never wanted in the first place...

Why do I keep meeting the same person in different bodies?
Why do I keep repeating the same old stories?
Why am I stuck in the same recursive loop?
Why does this keep happening to me?

I just wish it would stop hurting when I breathe.....

So I decided to walk away today..
I decided to choose myself.
One of us had to..
I decided to respect myself..
I decided to pick up my broken pieces
And walk myself out with dignity..

It was fun while it lasted..
Maybe I over romanticized it a little
Maybe I exaggerated a little..
Maybe I got attached a little..
Maybe I was in my head a little..
But its okay...

God knows I was real
He knows my feelings were real
So maybe when we meet again somewhere at some point of life
I wont be the same, I wont be complete..
You 'll still have a broken piece of me....

Kinda stuck in my thoughts
I am really trying to get out of it..
That little ray of hope in my heart keeps on burning..
I know I should walk away..
I tell that to myself every hour..
But I dont know why am I longing to hold on..
Maybe he would see me for once
He would realize that I am the girl for him
He would realize that we belong together...
Should I trust my guts or am I just being crazy???
Deep in my heart .. I know he is mine..
For now ,the love he has for me is like a cloth that is hidden on a closet.
Once he digs deeper.. he will certainly find it...
But until when???
Will I be patient enough to stick around ??
Or will I just let go??????