Your flawless exterior, shines like a self-righteous diamond
Gleaming and reflecting, deflecting and beguiling
Meddling in the emotions and perceptions
Laying waste to the argumentative non-believers
Of your worth
This one is not pleased!
The light that shines on your walls is so much brighter
Than the darkness inside gives it credit for
Is there no path towards the center?

My personality has receded to the point of unrecognition
A theoretical reversion into equilibrium
Coalesced with the collapse of certainty
And Compounded by a conquered concentration

Shhhh, I said, as I touched my finger to her lips

Let me share a secret, an impart, a tip

A gentle lie or a subtle truth

It’s a story about vanity, and youth

You see, there was you, and me

And in between, a life that could never be

An agreement between friends

And a pledge that we could not assail

But ultimately it was me, don’t you see?

I could never let go, I could never perceive

Oh how I tried though, I swam into the waves,

And you just smiled, when I returned, all out of brave

There were times when I would imagine you, watching me

And I would imagine myself, just standing there

Looking contemplative and alluring

I would dream you filled with desire, looking at me

My heart, my soul, my mind, my being

Drinking me in, biting your lip, anticipation

And then I imagined me, oblivious to your needs

Obscuring and hiding, even denying water, to those seeds

I must have died a thousand times, drowning in the vanity

All this sand beneath my tongue

I feel compelled to lie

I sent my hands an email

But all I got back was an out of office reply

Speech is so cumbersome

When your mouth is filled

Sandy sweating sweetness

As I climb back down

High from another epiphany

Bleeding righteousness

A pool of slippery lies

Honor is bound to exist

At the end of this meandering life

I have fixed the bathroom window and locked the bedroom doors
But these windows won’t hold
Still I can’t seem to lock them all
I take note of the filth and decay
but I’m not bothered by it
The bed is rotten
but I’ll be sleeping here tonight
I look through a hundred panes and into the darkness
And I can see right through you
And right through the others
Your feet pass by and I can feel your gaze
But thankfully, I am not in your sights
I dare only to steal a glance or two, and fearfully at that
The thought of catching your eyes is horrifying
The smell of mold and mildew seems to offend you
But the truth is
I can stomach it, easily
I want to tell you about that place
About how afraid I was when I explored it
About what’s really in there
But the words are not easy
And it’s so close now
Besides, I can feel that you are pleased with me, and I am at peace with that
So I say nothing
*And we are somewhere else

Layering bricks of blame
Hiding the love for the others we pass
Sheltered in a dreamlike shame
Such is the state of our mass, society
Hindered by failure, fear of simplicity
Do you heed the call, ascend
This hatred born from love’s absence
Pick up the fight and carry, your brother
In your arms, in your heart
Your flammable memories, burning
Away, the price of freedom
Is love
The only reason

Disgusted by my desire
To wash you clean of filth
Just to see you defiled again
Oblivious to how you cast your rage
Innocent blood on every stage
This imperfect reflection
Even the mystics are mystified
This debacle of your mind
Such a mangled mess defined
I pray for your unhappiness like these Christians pray for a sign