NO PUEDO.......

I found you
Then liked you
And I was like ****
I loved you
You left me
And I was ...Daammnn....

When I first saw you...
   I was afraid to met you...
When I first met you...
   I was afraid to miss you...
When I first kissed you...
   I was afraid to love you...
But now that I love you...
   I'm afraid to lose you...

A girl in love is
Dangerous
but a girl with
a broken heart...
....Now that's
******* scary!!!

I cry for the time that
you were almost mine
I cry for the memories
that you left behind
I cry for the pain
that was all because of you
I cry for the times
I thought I had you
what I'm felling now
in my mind is you
what I'm feeling now
what I'm heading into
all the nights I prayed
must've all been untrue
I just cant believe
I am losing you...

There's a time for
everything we say
There's a time to move
and a time to stay
There's a time for birth
and a time to die
There's a time to stay silent
and a time to ask why
There's a time to laugh
and a time to frown
There's a time to play
and a time to sit down
There's a time to embrace
and a time to seek
There's a time to throw away
and a time to keep
There's a time to be quiet
and a time to speak
There's a time to hate
and a time for peace
There's a time to be ripped apart
and a time to stay together
Nothing ever lasts
But love will be forever

I am bisexual
don't judge me
because there are many
of us out there
more than the eye can see

I guess I'm trying to be
Nonchalant about it
But I'm going to extremes
To prove i'm fine without you
But In reality I'm
Slowly losing my mind
And I need to cast a smile
While Gradually Im dieing inside
Don't ask me how I feel
Cuz i wont tell you a thing
Cuz i don't want you to see
The fact that I'm suffering
Soo i wear a disguise
Till i go home at night
Then turn down all the lights
And then
I breakdown and cry...

Don't speak
Shriek
Sound
Profound
Provoke
Spoke
Broken
Unspoken
Away
Everyday
Not good
Misunderstood
Broken heart
Pulled apart
Unknown
Un shown....

Someday You'll cry for me
Like i cried for you
Someday You'll miss me
Like i missed you
Someday You'll need me
Like i needed you
Someday you'll love me
But i wont love you

Broken, broken
Broken in two
Broken, broken
Because of you
The relationship
that we had so long
Just now realizing
that is was wrong
Being with you
a big mistake
Your feelings for me
were nothing but fake

What i wanted
Was sun
But instead
I got rain
What i wanted
was love
But instead
I got pain
What i wanted
was peace
But instead
i got hate
And from what i feel
I think everyone can relate

Right through my lens
I see you clear
So far away
But still so near
Im zooming in
your getting close
I want to keep you
In this pose
I focus and
I take the shot
your walking by
cause you do not
have any clue
of what your in
ive captured you
under your skin

Dark hallways
Have filled my mind
Shadowed thoughts
Are all I find

Traveling down
To a place so deep
Soothing words
I long to seek

Reaching blindly
I cannot see
Forgotten dreams
To set me free

Sweet dreams were broken
As I looked upon the sky
Hateful words were spoken
Though I don't fully know why

Silence the laughter
Everyone has gone
Leave me here
Let life roll along

Shut out the light
I don't want you to see
This empty existence
That encloses me

Close all the doors
Let no one in
The person you once knew
Is no longer living

Lock all the windows
Make this my cell
The dark is my prison
This is now my hell

Block out the sounds
Let life take its play
Because the me that you once knew
Is no longer here to stay

He saw you
He met you
He wanted you
He liked you
He chased you
He got you
He had you
He loved you
He got bored
He left....

It's like my sun
Don't shine
It's like my ride
Don't roll
Its like the only one thing
I love, don't love me no more
Its like my right
Goes wrong
Its like my Ice
Gone warm
Cause the only one thing
I love don't love me no more

Every day I listen
And I listen hard
I try to block them out
And move forward
So there's one thing
I listen to and never forget
The drop chill beats
Of Dubstep
Dubstep--where you start the beat off
Dubstep--where you rise the beat up
Dubstep---where you let the tension rise
And then let the beat Drop

Don't always wear black
Don't worship Satan
Are NOT evil
Do not want to **** people
Do not hate everybody
Are not always depressed
Can be happy to
Are usually nice people
Are normal, just like you

Every single day
I feel so depressed
And the thought of it
Makes me want to stress
...Sinse there's nothing
In my life to make me
Feel this way...
...Then I wonder
Why I act like this
Every single day...
...Mabye the things
I think about
But don't want to say...
...Make me end up
Feeling this way...

Cut a rose in full bloom
Till he brings us to our doom
Till the fearless come
And the act is done
With this knife I take
Till we meet our fate
Till the fearless come
And the act is done
Upon time I strike
Chance to live? I might
Till the fearless come
And the act is done
A love like blood
A love like blood

Don't weep at my grave
For I am not there
I've a date with a butterfly
To dance in the air
I'll be singing in the sunshine
Wild and free
Playing tag with the wind
While you think of me

Be with the one that makes you happy
The one that makes you smile
The one that makes you laugh
And each day worth while
Live life for the moment
Try hard to make it last
Because life is so short
It goes by so fast
So when you find love
Dont let it slip away
Hold it forever
And cherish it each day
As long as you are happy
That is what you should do
Love that someone and let them know
No one will love them like you do

Forget his name
Forget his face
Forget his kiss
His warm embrace
Forget the love that you once knew
Remember that he has someone new
Forget him when they played your song
Remember him when you cry all night long
Forget how close you once were
Remember its someone else he perfers
Forget how you memerized his walk
Forget how you love to hear him talk
Forget the things he use to say
Remember that he has gone away
Forget his laugh
Forget his smile
Forget that he stayed awhile
Forget the way he held you tight
Remember that hes not alone tonight
Forget the time he loved you still
Forget he said he always will
Forget he said he'll leave you never
Remember the fact, hes gone forever

Every night
before I go to sleep
I think about just you and me
the way we laughed
the way we  talked
the way we held hands
when we walked
the way you touched me
the way we kissed
you were just so amazing
like wondered bliss
but now as I lay here
and think of you
the only thing I can think is
...what did I do????
you accused me
but I did nothing wrong
only thing I did was love you
with feelings that were strong
I try to think pass it...
beyond all tears
beyond pain
beyond all regret that I have gained
but now as I lie here
under my sheet
all I can do anymore
is cry myself to sleep.....

Every night
before I go to sleep
I think about just you and me
the way we laughed
the way we  talked
the way we held hands
when we walked
the way you touched me
the way we kissed
you were just so amazing
like wondered bliss
but now as I lay here
and think of you
the only thing I can think is
...what did I do????
you accused me
but I did nothing wrong
only thing I did was love you
with feelings that were strong
I try to think pass it...
beyond all tears
beyond pain
beyond all regret that I have gained
but now as I lie here
under my sheet
all I can do anymore
is cry myself to sleep.....

Why Am i always Hurting
Why do i get abused
Why do i always get
slapped in the face
What did i ever do
No one ever gave
a **** about me
Im always alone so **** it
No one cares about my life
Yup im selfish.... "supposidly"
So ima take my life!!??
           And End It
                Bye

She Paints A Pretty Picture
But The Story Has a twist
Her Paint Brush is a Razor
And Her Canvas Is Her Wrist
She Paints Her Pretty Picture
Its A Color Thats Blood Red
While Using Her Sharp Paint Brush
She ends up Finally Dead
Her Pretty Pictures Fading
Quite Slowly On Her Arm
The Bloods Not moving through her
She Can no longer Do Harm
She Painted Her Pretty Picture
But Her Picture Has a twist
You See Her Mind was the razor
And Her Heart was Her Wrist

Looking At you day after day I know I
Just gotta make it
just gotta make it
Just to the smile upon your face I know I
Just gotta make it
just gotta make it
Everything I do, I do for you and we
Just gotta make it
We just gotta make it
To the top of the world
Me and my girl
Just gotta make it
Just gotta make it

Lock your doors
and turn out the lights

Or ghost and monsters
will ***** you with fright

Jump in the bed
and pull the covers up tight

Close your eyes
until the morning is light

Have i told you yet
How much you mean to me
Have i told you yet
About all the happiness you bring
Have i told you yet
That you mean the world to me
Have i told you yet
Just in case i havent
Your the best thing that
Ever happened to me
And nothing will ever change it

Did you hear
Did you hear
The tear
The tear
As soon as you left
I fell apart
And the tear you heard
Was my broken heart

Pain and dread
Fill my mind
Shattered thoughts
Are all I find
Crawl into a place
So deep
So that not one soul
Can bother me
And what I intend
To do now
Is hide inside
And let nothing out
I cant escape
I never will
Just let it fall
Just let it spill
I can never leave
What is chasing me
Because ill always see it
In my dreams...

Her voice is as beautiful as the sky
She's a singing angel up so high
Hearing her, your heart skips a beat
Listening to her voice, I feel complete

Her eyes sparkle like the stars above
She's just so perfect, can't get enough
When I see her smile, I instantly melt
My heart always feels so warm felt

There's something about her that makes her unique
She's god's best creation, call me a freak
She may be far away, but I just want more
She's exactly what I've been looking for

She will always have a place In my heart
There always was, right from the start

Close Your Eyes
I can't be with you today
but if you close your eyes and think;
I'll be beside you in the kitchen
wearing your shirt - standing by the sink.

I'll be with you in the bedroom
waiting quietly on your bed;
Just close your eyes and think of me,
relive those memories in your head.

I'll stand by you in the bathroom,
an unlikely place to meet;
I'll smile at you so playfully
as I let you brush my teeth.

I'll be your light in the darkness,
shining steady through and through;
You only have to watch it glow
to know I think of you.

I'll be the music that you listen to,
I'll be there in every song:
I'll laugh with you and sing with you,
and comfort you when your day's gone wrong.

I'll be the wind that ruffles your hair,
I'll be that warm embrace;
I'll be the hand on your shoulder,
I'll be the tender touch on your face.

I'll be the clock gently ticking,
reminding you of the times;
We've shut the rest of the world outside
we're in our own world - yours and mine.

I'll be the moon as it dances
on the water cold and still;
For I have loved you always
and I know I always will.

Though you may not see me physically
as you live your life today;
Just close your eyes and think of me
I will not be far away.

Love is a thing
That is never tooken away
Its something thats blazes the soul everyday
Love? Yeah it hurts
we all know of this
But its also so many things
Like wonder and bliss
Hurt on the other hand
Feels so much worse
The feeling known as hurt
Is pretty much a curse
And why these words are spoken
Is because my heart is broken
This feeling isnt good
Because you have misunderstood
I love you, you are my heart
But now we are pulled apart
Forces fully unknown
Have somehow come out to show
But while we were together
I felt so much better

If i told you, would it change anything
Would you see me differently?
Would you still be my best friend
Would you be mine until the end?
Would you even care?
If i said you broke my heart....
How would you reply?
What about if you saw me cry?
You ripped out my heart
You didn't even realize it
i can only blame myself for it...
For thinking we could be more than friends...

I hate the way you say
you love me and you don't
I hate the way you say
you'll change even though you wont
I hate the fact that you lie to me
say false **** all the time
I hate that I still love you
its hurting me inside...
I hate the way you smile now
because I know its fake
I hate the way you pull me close
all my energy it takes
I hate the way you always
make me cry for you
I hate the way you say
you'll change even though you never do
THE FACT THAT IM STILL
SITTING HERE NOW
AND LETTING YOU HOLD ME TIGHT!?
Is because no matter what
I love you with all my heart
and all my might...

I have a headache
Go away
I have a headache
Ugh! the aching pain
I have a headache
Cant you see
I'm a ***** right now
Just leave me be

I love you for giving me your heart
and trusting me with your pride
I love you for wanting me
and never leaving my side
I love you for the emotions
I never knew I had
I love you for making me smile
whenever I feel sad
I love you for the thoughts of me
where I'm always on your mind
I love you for finding the part of me
I never thought I'd find
I love you for the way you are
and how you make me feel
But most of all I LOVE YOU
'cuz I know your mine for real

God saw you getting tired
And a care not to be
So he put his arms around you
And said come with me

With tearful eyes we watched you
And saw you pass away
And although we loved you dearly
We could not make you stay

A golden heart stopped beating
You were finally at rest
God broke our hearts to prove to us
That he only takes the best

I cant promise
to fix all your problems
.........BUT.........
I can promise
you wont have to face them alone

Each day ill do my best
And I wont do any less
Ill pull myself together
I wont accept a mess
Ill use my words so carefully
My poems? very neat
And I will not be happy
Until smiles are all I see
Ill always help inspire
Ill help you with every test
I wont forget my promise
To do my very best

Scary thoughts roam through my mind
Scary shadows are all I find
Try to crawl down to a place deep
So that they cant bother me

Try to find a place to hide
They'll never find
Wont look inside

But to my dismay I'm not alone
they are here like I foretold
Nothing left to do but drowned
In the pain that I feel now...

You said you loved me....
Then broke my heart...
I knew you were lying...
From the start....
You never really loved me...
You never really cared....
But I still let you in....
Wishing you were there...
The way you smiled
The things you said
You sounded as if it hurt to say them
Like all you felt was dread
Then why did you bother
To be with me
If everything you said
Was just not reality.....

It doesn't help
It never will
Just let is fall
Just let it spill

Somtimes you just
Have to smile
Pretend everythings ok
Wipe your tears
And walk away

Its Halloween! Its Halloween!
the moon is full and bright
and we shall see what cant be seen
on any other night

come with me
to the graveyard where
we will have a blast

we can see all scary things
like creatures in different masks

skeletons and zombies
monsters and ghouls
ghost and danger
its gonna be really cool

now I know ive made better poems
eesh I mean way better throughout
but when it comes to Halloween
the kid in me comes out

Never say I love you
   If you really don't care
Never talk about feelings
   If they arnt really there
Never hold my hand
   If your gonna break my heart
Never say say your going to
   If you don't plan to start
Never look into my eyes
   If all you do is lie
Never tell me hi
   If you really mean goodbye
If you really mean forever
   Then say that you will try
But if not....then never say forever
   Because forever makes me cry

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