All I ever wished for was to see your face
Hear your voice and start from the base
All I ever wished for was to have siblings
Love them all and see what the future brings
All I ever wished for was to talk to you once
And Maybe get some advice
All I ever wished for was to Hear you call my name
But hey we still playing the waiting game

When you’re breaking
You have this look in your eye
Of betrayal
Knowing life brought your hopes up
Just to drive you to the ground
And your heart broke into a thousand more pieces.

When you’re breaking
I can see it in your smile
That strong mask you go back to
When you can’t deal with
The weight of the world
on your shoulders.

When you’re breaking
Your mind goes back to default
Telling you you’re alone
And that you have to be alone
Because that’s how you were raised

When you’re breaking
I’m breaking too
I tell you you don’t have to
Go through it alone
I’d walk with you through hell

When you’re breaking
You don’t see how much people care
How much love is there for you
If you only opened your heart
And let me put your pieces back together

I shouldn't have went there
I shouldn't have gave him too much credit
I shouldn't have said it
How I wish I shouldn't have done a lot of things

I shouldn't still be thinking about him
I shouldn't have been a fool
How I wish I should have been stronger and acted differently
I shouldn't have let it affect me
I shouldn't have believed them because myb I would have been a different girl.... a better girl

I should have left everything in God's hands
I should have learned to love
I shouldn't be confused with my feelings
I should learn to follow my gut

I shouldn't have let strangers be part of my life
I shouldn't think that am not good enough
I shouldn't think about it anymore
I should have worked hard
I shouldn't feel like this
I shouldn't feel sorry for my self
I shouldn't have

We played pretend
We pretended like it never happened
Like it was all just perfect
We chose to play the game
We turned pretence into art form.

I failed to be the best I can be
I failed to take the chance that would have
Made me one step closer to my dreams
I played safe, so I failed.

I failed to be me I played pretend
I failed to always remember my dreams
Giving up on them sometimes seemed
To be an option
I didn’t take risks, so I failed.

I failed to wait my turn
I failed to understand that it takes time
In my dreams I thought I was already there.
I failed to face reality, I kept on dreaming without doing
I became impatient, so I failed.

I failed to put my all
I forgot who I was doing this for
I failed!!!   I failed!!!

Is it too little too late for me to start again?
Without forgetting this time, with my head held high?
I failed…