Ive lost all motivation on loving you
Being with you is tormenting
You drag my soul made blue
And you've made me hate loving

Anger corrupts my heart
As beautiful awakenings disintegrates
You enabled my introvert
Now depression reincarnates

I'm so blue it has become evil
No remorse can be tamed
Everything seems vile
It appears I am chained

Loving you felt so euphoric
Until you cursed it for fear
Now I stand disorientated
As everything is unclear

In the end of the day
Who's there for your lonely thoughts
Not to put a blame on anyone
But i’m the one alone on this loft
Made me feel so selfish for thinking theres no one
But truly there really is no one.

I
cannot
compose myself
anymore

As I think of this world
That includes the people I do not adore
I second guess myself
And if my surroundings are enough
I look to the right of me
And see displeasure in the wannabes
Then look to the left
To recognize the ones with no depth
Truth is I don’t know anything
But this feeling of company is way to uneasy
So I structure my soul to distance itself
From people and their drawn attention to chaos
They call me emotionless and unfree
But it’s way more logical to be an absentee
And disregard the scattered pieces of my breaking heart
From the boundless interaction of humanity’s scars

Sometimes when I sleep
I pray my eyes won’t start to peak
And see the eyes of tomorrow
Become my future sorrow

A sparkling light of hope shines
With a heart rate multiplied by 2
The feeling of comfortability and divine
Is part of that third eye breakthrough

trying to calm myself down as I flee
all I can remember is that body decaying
his last breath was with me
and it went something like, “no please!”

and i cant possibly
lie to my self
and say you were the one
when you most definitely
tore me apart
and broke me way to much

She’s a lost soul
Encrypted in kryptonite
Society never failed to lie to her
She was born perfect
But the world just didn’t see it
So day by day
Society would wash the real her away
And the tragedy was
Society’s lost soul was itself
In depth in destruction and insecurity
Society killed itself
For everyone knew
Society was just a bluff

It doesn't feel like pain anymore, it just feels so tense
Words, ideas, they're all aching my head
And I try to hide it with radium and noise
But nothing is to loud for the voices that destroy
So many thoughts have me crying till I scream
Enabling my mind to be nothing like me
I try to run away from the voices within
But even when I dream the demons still break in

Love is supposed to hold me and take care of my heart
Make me feel warmth when it caresses our start
Protect my endurance of being okay
Love should've been our gateway
But somehow someway depression came in
And ruined the time that I saved for him
So I stay in bed controlled by darkness
While love ran away with my love and his heartedness
To call myself alone is no longer an epiphany
The only realization is that he let love leave me
So as I stay in this burden and cry myself to sleep
I know they're together and love is still breathing
The saddest part is the irony encountered
Love was supposed to be my communicator
Now someone I love is with another
While I stay in bed with a broken heart and no lover

So I guess I'm upset over this
You had me feeling like it was a first kiss
New beginnings the sun shined so bright
But my demons and overthinking corrupted my mind
Maybe the signals I missed my fault
But communication did not seem to be our best call
I wanted to love you and care about your soul
But all you ever wanted was for me to let go
I feel very sad and I keep blocking this thing
As I pass by you everyday and your new something
Maybe I'm meant to be alone and sad
As nothing has changed besides me, my bad
Your eyes are still beautiful, your smile still shines
But now I feel obsessed and like I lost my mind
I cry everyday and I pretend it's not over you
But sadness only came when I realized I lost you

Physically i’m immune
To those lucid dreams of just you
A star gazed night of love so blue
Darling you make me anew

Your eyes shine so bright I recognize the truth
A glistened glare so hostile and ruth
You care so much it leaves you confused
And I remember it all because it represents you

Your skin so soft and pure
With a tint of ecstasy feeling nerves
Has my emotions passionately increased
As I think of you and your beautiful being

I see remorse and care in the most mystifying ways
As I look at you on your different days
When the moon protects the sun as night
I reminisce your heart when its near mine

Your choice in beliefs and expressions
Has surely put me under the virtuous impression
Of you being so satisfied of your livelihood
Of you including me in your life for the greater good

You make me feel so euphoric and delight
My eyes glimmer of glee when you smile so bright
So contagious and yearning I’d beg for your soul
Only because I know the greatness it beholds

When the universe seems distraught in our behaviour
And it pokes holes in love to discredit our nature
I look to you for comfort in support and strength
And there you are against the world for us and our romance

Never would I ever give up on your aura
Your heart is a desirability, you are my pandora
Loving you is the most greatest warmth
My love you are the light of my storm