It's 02.20 am in the morning
Let me just sit in
And take all that in
Every words
Every sentence
Has life been way too ******* me?
Oh i thought i was powerful
Or maybe i was wrong?
Is it just an illusion i have on my head?
Because truth is,
i can't handle any of this
As i wish i could
So i keep on thinking i can
I keep on dreaming i could
I constantly wondering if i would
Endure all the pain
By myself,
Take the suffering away from others
And burn it inside my flesh
But i can't! Can i?
The illusion of me, is there
But i am not capable of doing any
For better things
My heart does ache
My body gets weary
And no one will ever see it
People are too blinded
By their own thinking
By their own mindset
By their own perception
Including me
We are fooled by ourselves
It is proven by the theory
That our thinking
Is pretty much shaped
By our own desire
And i'm telling you it's good
You gotta put yourself first
You need to do things that satisfy yourself
But remember,
Other people exist too
And respect is much needed.

i don't know
what hurts me more
your filthy words
of the mourn galore
or your hearts that grow
apart as the wind blow

i thought I've loved you dearly
too keep you happy
i thought summer's sunshine
won't fade away

but darling I've been so wrong
about you all along
now i am long gone
i am long gone

oh my crescent
how are you today?
shine your light on me
i'll capture the slightest glimpse
of your beaming moonlight

a shady night
raindrops from above
cursing every petals
that falls to the ground

oh my crescent,
where are you tonight?
a wondering heart
longing for your presence
to shine your light on me

an empty dull room
with opened windows
crumpled bed sheets
in a night so chilled

oh my crescent,
how do you feel tonight?
sorrow as i do
without my crescent
to shine your light on me,
darling, shine your light on me...

of heart that was torn
shattered into pieces
causing tears
upon a little girl's cheeks

of eyes that dimmed
no longer be seen
now has lighten
and she's simply smitten

they called me naive
for being kind
wishing people
to always be fine
giving my heart out
to those
who burn me out

they called me dreamer
for wishing
of my own lover
a home to come back to
when i have nowhere to go to

but darling
i call myself a star-gazer
with mind full of dreams
and a heart full of hopes

here
take both of my hands
hop onto another land
grant my only wish
for i am a believer
that you and i
are both good together

one December’s night
how could you be so bright?
do all the stars collide?
are all the street lights on?
is the moon there?
is the sky so clear?

or is it just your eyes
that i get lost into
is it just your smile
that ease my anger
is it your scent
that lingers on my sweater

or is it just you?

husky voices
telling me the truth
of words tied
into a rhyming lullabies
guide me along
to the la-la-land

Time heals
Time burns
Time plays fire with the things we lure
Now's not the time to stay
Tomorrow's the time you'll have to go

A looping circle of hell
Where you couldn't be here
and time wouldn't tell

Time heals
Time burns
When's not the question,
Would you?

To fall in love is an easy feeling
The way it blooms, fresh
Colors burst like summertime

To stay in love is rather daunting
You'd fight, with bone and flesh
Trying to make it till the end of time

Would you read me
like an open book and try?

The train runs too fast
My dear i can't keep up
Droplets of rain
Start to fall down
Pouring onto me
Standing between the line
Of Xs and Os

if i ever be
your cup of tea
that keeps you warm
from the morning breeze

i'll add honey
from the flying bee
but you don't like
a cup of sweet tea

you still won't drink
even if i plea
cause I'm just not
your cup of tea

two feet
standing on the sand
of a calming sea
waiting for a love
that sails towards the shore

it is peaceful
yet thrilling
because you never knew
to where the wind blows

I would love you
A million times more
If you let me,
If you want me to.

Blue ocean tide
Calms the tiniest
Storm in my heart

Not as soothing
Calming
Not as serene
As you

Some things are to be grateful for,
you're one of them.

Have i told you
How stars collide
Above my head
That one night in June?

Have i told you
How i colour
A blank paper
Light blue?

Haven’t i told you?
I was nothing but
A miserable virtue
Till there was you

a lover of the moon
craves some kisses from the stars
wishes the warmth of sunbeams
i was build upon your constellations
hoping one day
i could be a part
of your galaxy

tell me if a heart would know
what's worth fighting for
and what's not
cause the guilt
can't be taken over
by a sip of black coffee
the curiosity can't be wiped off
even if it's raining heavily
this little empty space
was built for you
brick by brick
hoping it was enough
for you to call it home
and it wasn't only just
up for rent

in a corner of a patio
we sit down
one cup of hot coffee
one chilled vanilla frappe
as the light flickers
and you smoke your last cigarettes

in a crowd so loud
we sit down
with words floating around
waiting for it's turn
to be heard

in between all the people around
we sit down
with smiles sealed
onto our lips

in this very moment
we sit down
with the rhythm
of our heartbeats
we are alive

I love you from the very bottom of my heart even on the days where we both do not feel like it, i love you even on the days where you think i don’t. I do.

I love you on all of the days when you’re feeling blue, where you can’t even find yourself within you. I love you on days where loving wasn’t seemed true. I’ve loved you on the days where my heart was set on curfew. I’ll love you, i will do, even if it’s the last thing i do.

scrambled words
ripped papers
blue ink
scratched lines
taped pictures
heart shaped drawings
darling i'll write for you
even if
the pages worn out
i'll scream my lungs out
even if
the sentences struggle
i'll reminisce the memories
even if
the polaroids becloud
darling i'll write
a thousand poetry for you
even if
it's dreadful
darling i'll do
till i'm weary
till there's nothing left
but this shattering pieces
of heart
that loves you
terribly
tremendously
unconditionally
here's for the unspoken
the untold feelings
here's the one
for you

i wonder how
someone as lovely
as the evening lights can
be so far away
from the lovers of the stars
it aches
everytime it goes dark

I am lost of words
Feelings untangled
All scattered
On the rounded table

I can’t write about you
The feelings too true
All i can see is hue
Of deep dark marine blue

The time has come,
we're on the other side,
around and around we're
back at one

The beginning has come,
the untold, unknown
hand in hand we're
never going down

The end has come,
the clock's ticking around
we're waiting,
waiting for the sun to go down.

Fingers intertwined
Let me call you, mine
Of what's left from the past
Let us buried it all behind

Had I dreamt of days like this
Ones with the tenderest sun
One of the gentlest I can ponder on
Nothing less more's ahead,
You, what I may call
The truly one.

It once feels right
in a world so wrong
living in this universe
full of the unknown
you and me
were once felt real
i don't know what put us apart
or i refused to understand
neither one of us put it in words
i know the cut
twinge deep enough
but i can say
you and me
were for once
real

Little foot steps
Walking across the crowded streets
Black and white polkadots
Barely know where she's heading
Little does she know
Smell of tuberose
Has caught someones attention
Vanilla and Brownie
Are just someone's cup of tea
Yet she's dreaming
Roaming around
Walking to the east
Falling to the ground
Watching sunsets
With her eyes closed

I'm falling deeply
into an endless emotional abyss.
Each stroke of your fingertips
deepens the sinking of my heart
Creating space through times
where all that we are,
is nothing but distance.

darling, breathe in
as the strings of guitars
strummed by these fingers

darling, lay down
as the wind blows
through those windows

darling, close your eyes
as the sun goes down
over the green grass hills

there's something about your eyes
the way it reflects the stars
about your sweet laugh
and your hideous jokes
about the corner of your mouth
just the way it smirks
that redden your cheeks
something about your hair
a tangled mess
something that these eyes
can't help staring at
a chaotic miracle
a beautiful disaster

I dream in lights
as i will not see your beaming smile
i dream in colours
as i will not see the eyes that drown me
for as long as you take those steps
and you're not walking towards me
i'll be forever dreaming
of you will be coming home
to me

i have never thought of love to come
in many phases
in a basket full of lilies,
a moment before the sun rises,
or just in time when droplets of rain rush their way to the ground.
Of love you lay upon me,
when the lilac sky turns dark,
right before midnight
before we burry ourselves into coldness in time.