Do you ever get those feelings of worthlessness?
Or those feelings that you could've tried harder?
What about those feelings that make you just want to crawl in a hole and die?
How about the feelings that you are ugly and you hate what you see in the mirror?
Most people have experienced at least one of these feelings at one point in their lives.
I experience them every day.
I wake up in the mornings dreading to get out of bed, not just because I'm a lazy teenager who doesn't get enough sleep.
But because I am tired.
I'm tired of always feeling worthless.
I'm tired of hating the reflection the mirror shows me.
I'm tired of constantly thinking 'if I had just tried a little harder I wouldn't be a failure.'
I'm tired of wanting to hide away in my room forever, so people can't judge me.
And yes, I'm tired for the obvious reason of lack of sleep.
What I don't understand is why people feel the need to make others feel worse about themselves to make themselves feel better.
Do you really get a satisfactory feeling after putting someone in a ****** mood and ruining their day?
If so, you need to take a long hard look at yourself and your values.
Should we not as a society encourage people to be their best and help one another rather than conforming to social standards and mocking them if they aren't wearing the latest fashion or how big their bodies are?
We mock and tease people because of what they wear, the way they look, the colour of their skin, the size of their bodies, the amount or lack of makeup they wear, their relationships, their hair, shoes, nails, eyebrows, age, gender, sexuality, acne, wealth, weight.
But we never see people going around telling people how great they look, how beautiful their smile is, how wonderful they are to have around, or how happy we are that they were placed on this earth.
We are so quick to judge others just by a quick glance, jumping to conclusions without a second thought.
We are so quick to blame society for our problems, but we tend to forget; we ARE society.
We complain how society has ruined us and it is an injustice.
We complain how society depicts women and men.
We complain that society has given us unrealistic expectations of men,
women, school, jobs, living, and people in general.
Who are we without society?
We are humans living in a world without each other.
We ARE society so WE have the power to change it!
We cannot sit around and wait for things to get better without working for them.
We have to take what we want in this life, we have to change our ways of living to see the results we seek, and we have to change our perspective of others to change their perspectives on us. Nobody is going to hand you things in this life, so work for the changes you want to see.
We don’t know anything about one another until we sit down and talk to each other.
Don’t be so quick to judge me on my looks, body, hair, makeup, clothes, and lifestyle when you know nothing about me other than what you want to see.
I promise you I am so much more than what you perceive me to be.
Don’t judge others when you know nothing about them. In fact don’t judge others, period.
So again I will say, I am tired.
I am tired of the way people look at me when I walk down the street.
I am tired of the way people treat me without knowing a **** thing about me.
I’m tired of hearing people call me fat.
I’m tired of walking up and feeling worthless.
I’m tired of feeling like there is absolutely nothing left to live for in this horrid, judgmental world.
I am tired of hating my body.
I am tired of hating myself.
I am tired of having a simple black line drawn on my eyelid control how I feel about myself.
I am tired of constantly worrying what others think of me.
I am tired of believing that I am ugly.
I am tired of constantly feeling like people are judging me.
I am just tired, plainly, simply, tired.
I. Am. Tired.
– I'm Tired // F.C.