I am high on life,
drowning in euphoria,
and drunk on loving.

I hardly remember,
A warm December.
Or a healthy high?
Until I told my family goodbye.

The world is too dark
And I’m afraid
I’ll lose my eyes
Had I shed a single tear
For every fearful trial
That I’ll witness
And I’m afraid
My heart will break
Had it beat
To the symphony
Of suffering souls

i picture red ugly drunks, bitter
while delirious women dance around them
Together, lathered in music,
rock symphonies trudge over their pounding headaches

sun rays
hitting me one
by one
with warmth
you radiate
making my skin
glisten and
my heart glow

you got me
hooked on the air
that
gently tickles my neck while
I dream
of never getting sober

I'm
dehydrated
lacking the water you pour into me
every time we
drown in each other's
navy blue oceans

No more drugs please
They only make me feel,
Mysterious or mummified,
I've confided in you,
And you told my secrets to the world,
My emotions were dimmed
And I was silenced,
By your ambiguity,
Giants who only crushed
My tiny soul,
And now,
I regret,
I ever met
You

What if
You have been fighting
A losing battle
All along
What if
The silence
Within you
Is only
The calm
Before the strom
And
It is going to be a fight
You just cannot
Win

-jt