We all have our way of destroying ourselves
Some people take a blade to their bodies
Others make themselves feel numb with drugs
For me, I took my head and lightly hit it against the wall
or my nails to my skin till I would bleed

I never realized how important time was until
you left me and then i realized
i lost 2 years of my life fighting a one sided fight.
You didnt care. You never fought. Then i wasted another couple months crying for someones love that was never mine.
I never again will stay when i feel like im fighting alone.
I want to spend my time traveling and loving life not crying over a person

Abandonment thats what mom says you did to her and me and my sister
I was 15 and you left to move 11 hours away to live with her
Why. She is better then us
I thought you loved us
Now shes pregnant.
Are you replacing me???
I thought I was your baby?
Were we not enough?

We are the ones who are hard to understand
We'll be the last ones in the movie theatre
because the ending scene made us cry
We'll stop to smell the roses
because they deserve to be appreciated
We are the ones who will take the time
to learn what keeps you up at night
We are the ones who will imagine
an entire future of adventures
with the people who show us love

We are the ones who will love you more
than we love ourselves
We will give you our strongest parts
in hopes that we can make things better
We desire to see you become the best you
to make sure that you always feel our love
We crave affection and appreciation
We give a piece of ourselves away every day
sometimes to people who don't deserve it
Our love is easy to take advantage of
and sometimes we don't get back
the love that we give away

When we hurt, we crumble and fall apart
We constantly have to put ourselves back together
We are more fragile than we like to give off
We carry our emotions on our sleeves
Our flaws have the ability to consume us
We aren't afraid to give you the world
but we are afraid to feel unloved
We want you to see what we see
We want you to understand where we're coming from

We are good people with good intentions
We are stronger than we believe
Not everyone can feel the way we feel
We feel too much, too often
We are not hard to love
We are something not everyone knows how to love
But you need to remember that
your worth does not change just because
no one is there to appreciate you, to remind you

You are not any less lovable
You are the most lovable person in the world
You are a light that the world needs
Your kindness is not your weakness
You do not need to change for anyone's acceptance
You do not need to stop giving love
just because you don't get any back
Your heart is the best thing about you

And one day when you least expect it
someone will notice you from across the room
and know exactly how to love you
They will think all of these things are beautiful
They will deserve the love you can give
They will fill the empty space in your heart
But for now, don't stop feeling
We are the ones who feel everything so deeply
We are the ones who can't give up because
We are the ones who will teach the world
how to love

Today,
I found out you moved on,
I realized how little you actually loved me.
How little I meant to you
I was doing fine till today
When i seen the post, i tried to hold in the tears
But i couldn't help it. I started to cry,
To be honest I don’t know why
I don’t want to be with you,
But i guess I still love you
Why though why do I love someone  who hurt me so much
How could someone who lied so much
Still have a part of me
But Also today
I realized I need to love myself
I am the only one who can full the hole inside of me
I need to love myself before I try yo love anyone else
I realized I don't need you
You do not determine my worth
All I need is Myself

One day you might be torn apart. life might be falling around you and you just sit there holding it all in because it's all you can do. you are waiting for the floor to fall from under you and it hurts so much to keep quiet to not want to bother others because you know they have problems of their own and you know that someone cares but you don't know who and you feel all alone even in a room full of people. you feel like an outcast and you act like everyone else you act like life isn’t killing you. you tell everyone it's okay. you are fine but you know if they make eye contact. you will break. you will cry in front of someone, so you avoid eye contact no matter what. you can not show how hurt you are. no one will understand. they probably don't even care. Just hold it all in and hopefully it will just disappear.