Haruhi

Haruhi Mar 2016

Depression is a black mass that swallows up the sun.
Depression is the lightless cavern in the sea.
Depression is the monster eating away at me.

I always think and it always gets the better of me. Don't take this the wrong way, but why do boys ****? I just need to know. x(

#depression #thoughts #me #problems

Mar 2016

Lexie

Dying

I am like a ghost to you
Never knowing what to do
Take this heart and use it to
Its not much good without you

I am like a staircase
I can take you to a place
Never to see your face
But you step on me with grace

The clock is ticking out of time
We stepped out of line
The sun refuses to shine
On this face of mine

Whatever makes you happy dear
I want you to hold me near
Never will you sense my fear
A little longer and I wont be here

Haruhi Mar 2016

Hanging On to You

I'm hanging onto you like a kitten on a branch.
Calluses appear on my hands like acne on a teen.
Sweat beating down my face, glistening against the sun.
Holding on takes too much.

There is no support system.
No beam.
No ground.
Nothing to lean on.
Holding on takes too much.

I watch you from down here listening to every word.
Hoping I hear you say my name.
I feel the weight on my body grow heavier and pull me down.
Holding on takes too much.

Falling, still gazing back up at you.
Hoping you catch me.
Hoping you notice me.
Hoping you care.
Holding on takes too much.

Depression. Dark and empty.
The only result of chasing you.
Depression the only result of needing you.
Holding on takes too much.

R. I thought of this. Sounds like the two if us right? Any one feel like this?
Sorry if you're a teen and you don't have acne. xD

#depression #need #emotions #noticeme #holdingon #toomuch

Mar 2016

Rianna

Because You're You

I love you.
I love your odd colored eyes,
I love your laugh
Your sense of humor
Your arrogance
Your smile.
I love you.
I love you personality,
Your quirks
Your bad habits.
I love so much about you.
I love you because you are just you.
I hate you because you broke my heart.
I hate you because I can't forget you.
I hate you because I'm afraid of a life without you.

To the boy who was my first love. I still love you.

#love #heartbreak #depression #pain #sadness #boyfriend #relationships #romance #firstlove

Mar 2016

Stefan Michener

I am my

I am my sober side
Not the one you see
Drinking a slow suicide
I am not really me

I am my sorrier side
Not the one you hear shout
Deserving some soap inside
A foul insincere mouth

I am my somber side
Not the one laughing
Ignorant and amused
living In worlds of nothing

I am my depressed side
Not the one you feel
Tickling your fancy down the slide
I hide my face and kneel

I am my repressed side
Not the one you sense
Has hope in Hell on the outside
Of my lily-white fence

Haruhi Feb 2016

Mother

This sadness is bottled up **** a nicely aged wine.
I going insane and trudging through the pain.
Mother, mother my friends are fine.
They would never let me stray.
Or fall behind.

Mother,
I'm crying on the inside by showing off a smile.
My lies are the truths and my truths are lies.
I couldn't bare to see you mad or sad.

Mother,
You've tried to make me a respectable young woman,
Tried to push me to the light,
But the monster in me is holding on tight.
Time and time again you've pulled me out,
But the madness is overwhelming consuming me inside.

Mother,
It's not your fault.
But mine.
I'm the stain on your heart,
You can't rub off.

I still care even though I blew it.
I wouldn't be surprised if you walked out just like daddy did.
But that doesn't matter now.
I'll go to sleep shut my mouth.
But in the morning don't expect me to be sitting there on the couch.

I don't know what to say....
If anyone needs someone to talk to I'm here! ^.^
I'm a good listener! I swear! <3

#lies #pain #mother #thoughts #stains #freinds

Haruhi Feb 2016

Strong

Recollecting on a paper ,
With the one you love,
Is hard to do and hard to fight.
The time comes when we must be strong.
Strong enough to remember when things were bad for us.

Relationships, family, even life in general.
We were meant to be happy and joyous, not hateful!
When memories creep up on us,
We acknowledge them and say "Hey!"
This may be hard and seem impossible
But we can only go as far as we paddle.
Be strong for us.
"Together we stand divided we fall."

We remember the emotions and mix them in our heads,
Wanting the emotions to be buried again.
I'd like to try over. Do everything right.
I want the chance to make him happy one more time.

I'm and idiot and can't remember where that quote is from so if anyone wants to tell me, I'm all ears. xD
Fight for what you want and be strong and confident.
It may seem hard but you're strong enough for the job!

#love #happiness #emotions #strong #fighting #anotherchance