You were always asking if I was alright
Reply was always " Yes, I'm okay"
But deep down something is wrong
Believe me, my intentions aren't to lie.

Please just leave me out of the limelight
I don't know why, but I can't take on the day
I cannot be strong
This unknown pain beginning to preoccupy.

My mind full of thoughts of you
I'm overwhelmed.
These cold feelings tried and true
crying myself to sleep, begging to be held.

You say you want to see the real me
So take my hand and we shall coast through
The darkness in my mind that’s consuming me
Leaving everyday blue.

I say I haven’t always been like this
But I can’t remember a day of pure bliss.

In the silent hours
A life is born, I take mine
Soon I’m forgotten

My mind fights it’s war
As I lay here overwhelmed
A losing battle

Flirting with death,
Dreaming of abandoning this life.
My skin begs to see the sun,
As I spend  my nights drowning in the shadows.
You were my everything,
Now I make sure I have nothing.
The power of the voices in my head,
Make me want to fill my brain with lead.

I want my mind to finally go silent.
I want to be buried six feet deep with flowers above me.
I want to hear the world finally go silent.
I want nothing but the darkness as my company.

As I sit here watching life move around me
I realize that if I’m gone
This life will still move,
This world will keep turning
The world won’t stop for me.
The only thing stopping is soon to be me.

As my skin tears beneath my nails
The voices chime in louder, stuck in my mind like a broken record
Their bitter words pushing me to go farther.

The blood begins to pool from my wrists
Voices now cheering in approval
I hear the sweet call of death.

My life flows from my arms,
While my body lays as an empty beauty.

Keep trying till I overdose,
Pushing until I'm comatose.
Searching for something to dull it all out,
While my happiness is in a drought.

Is it too late for me?
I am broke, I cannot find my pieces.
On my knees begging to be free,
Hoping my life ceases.

I just want to hear I’m wanted,
But no voice is there to save me from my fall.
All my memories are haunted
By a made up you that leaves me in awe.

Don’t miss me when I’m gone,
You’ve created these issues in my mind.  
With nothing left for me to hold on
I take my life and you remain blind.

Nothing I do will break your high.
Good-bye.

This feeling is becoming old,
Constantly being told

It’s better to be alone.
But these “accidents” I do to myself are becoming prone.

Take a look inside my eyes,
Maybe you’ll believe the lies

I tell my mirror on the daily,
Hoping I can take this day on bravely.