I want my mind to finally go silent.
I want to be buried six feet deep with flowers above me.
I want to hear the world finally go silent.
I want nothing but the darkness as my company.
I just can’t keep up
I can’t close my eyes, can’t rest
Awaiting the end
You were always asking if I was alright
Reply was always " Yes, I'm okay"
But deep down something is wrong
Believe me, my intentions aren't to lie.
Please just leave me out of the limelight
I don't know why, but I can't take on the day
I cannot be strong
This unknown pain beginning to preoccupy.
I've been feeling terrible with no real cause and I am unsure of how to explain the pain I feel.
Flirting with death,
Dreaming of abandoning this life.
My skin begs to see the sun,
As I spend my nights drowning in the shadows.
You were my everything,
Now I make sure I have nothing.
The power of the voices in my head,
Make me want to fill my brain with lead.
Keep trying till I overdose,
Pushing until I'm comatose.
Searching for something to dull it all out,
While my happiness is in a drought.
My mind full of thoughts of you
These cold feelings tried and true
crying myself to sleep, begging to be held.
You say you want to see the real me
So take my hand and we shall coast through
The darkness in my mind that’s consuming me
Leaving everyday blue.
I say I haven’t always been like this
But I can’t remember a day of pure bliss.