Who do I have?
Heaven and hell, my friend, my friend
I won't fit in here
Everything must end
Hello, from the dark side end
Does anybody here wanna be my friend? (my friend)
Want it all to end
Tell me when the **** is it all gon' end?
Voices in my head telling me I'm gonna end up dead
So save me, before I fall
So save me, I don't wanna be all alone
So save me, before I fall
So save me, I don't wanna be all alone

~Xxxtentacion~

His name will live, brother
I feel hella ****** because it's like
if I would have known he was so cool
And it's like, if I would have watched interviews sooner, bro we were so alike
It's unfortunate because it's like, yo, when people die, that's when we like 'em, you know?
'Cause your remorse kinda makes you check 'em out

~~Lil' Peep

Ooh
Baby, I need you in my life, in my life
Please, bae, don't go switching side, switching sides
I swear this is where you reside, you reside
Ooh, please don't throw your love away
I'm nauseous, I'm dyin'
(She ripped my heart right out)
Can't find her, someone to
(My eyes are all cried out)
Lost it, riots
Gunfire inside my head, I've
Lost it, riots
Gunfire inside my head
Baby, I need you in my life, in my life
Please, bae, don't go switching side, switching sides
I swear this is where you reside.

~~Xxxtentacion

I'm sorry for my failers,
I'm sorry for all my imperfections and faults,
I'm sorry for all my tears and caring,
you made my world spin and take off like a lifeline,
I'm not bad and I'm not perfect,
I'm sorry, I'm not fake and don't change like you do,
sorry, I'm to not change and to die inside,
I'm sorry your heartless and immature,
I'm sorry that I really don't like you,
I cant fail and show im a clinically depressed,
no I got to show im not sorry for being a man,
im sorry for listening to my heart,
im sorry for having feelings,
but ill never be sorry for living,
im sorry i cut,
im sorry my attempts of death didnt please you,
im sorry i cant cry like i use to,
you were my drug,
but you like all the drugs do is fail,
as though i feel ashamed to feel sad but thats what our society does,
if you are not perfect or popular you are nothing,
your alone,
it's sad how many people feel of this emotion,
and yet others are happy,
it's sad to be sorry with your pride hurting,
can any of these feelings create a beauty of the arts,
my brain is in racing time spirals that cant stop,
i cant say sorry to you the way i wanted as my sadness and name remember it,
your sorry didnt come,
such sadness...
say sorry.

As she lies bleeding on the floor
I promised I would do no more
Harm to Myself I really tried
But even I knew that I had lied
Now I am dying and no one is home
I has no help I is all alone
I wants to get up and fix it all
But there is no one left for her to call
Now as I dies on the floor
I hears everyone calling I a *****
I hears them calling out cutter-****
Now I wishes I didn't cut
I wishes I could prove them wrong
But now that dream sounds far too long
I made the choice and now I will loose
I wishes that I could choose
If I could I would choose life
If only I didn't grab that knife

I know why we do it
there are all different reasons
for some it is the blood
for some it is the release
for some they just like the pain
it’s the only pain they can control
for others it is the sense of being in control
but for me it is the scars
those are what I crave
for they are permanent
something one can never take away
never
they will always be with me
I will never be alone
they will always tell me stories
stories of my pain
the pain of my life

love at first sight
before i never believe in love at first sight
but it happen to me

i meet a guy
the first time i saw him i was shock
i don't know what i gonna do or say
only i know is his face, his smile and his voice

in one side i was laughing
because it happened to me
that i never expecting
the love at first sight

I know that it hurts sometimes, but it's beautiful
Working every day, now you're bleeding through your cuticles
Passing through a portal as you're sittin' in your cubicle
Isn't life beautiful? I think that life is beautiful
Tryna keep your cool at your grandfather's funeral
Finding out eventually the feeling wasn't mutual
You were not invited 'cause you're nothing like the usual
Isn't life beautiful? I think that life is beautiful
You wanna see your friends, but you're stuck inside a hospital
Doctor walks in and he tells you that it's terminal
Tumor in your brain and they're sayin' it's inoperableThey'll **** your little brother and they'll tell you he's a criminal
They'll ******* **** you too, so you better not get physical
Welcome to America, the type of **** is typical
Isn't life beautiful? I think that life is beautiful
Wake up in the morning, now you're doing the impossible
Find out what's important, now you're feeling philosophical
When I die, I'll pack my bags, move somewhere more affordable
Isn't life horrible? I think that life is horrible
You think she's adorable, she thinks that you're intolerable
You think you can do it, but your chances are improbable
Once you feel unstoppable, you run into an obstacle
Isn't life comical? I think that life is comical
And if you ever need a friend then you got me
And in the end, when I die, would you watch me?
And if I try suicide, would you stop me?
Would you help me get a grip or would you drop me?
Run away, make friends with the moon
Why you trippin'? You'll be with your friends soon
There comes a time, everybody meets the same fate
I think I'ma die alone inside my room
Isn't life beautiful? I think that life is beautiful

~Lil Peep

I LOVE YOU

You gotta keep 'em separated
Like the latest fashion
Like a spreading disease
The kids are strappin' on their way to the classroom
Getting weapons with the greatest of ease
The gangs stake their own campus locale
And if they catch you slippin' then it's all over pal
If one guys colors and the others don't mix
They're gonna bash it up
Hey - man you talkin' back to me?
Take him out
You gotta keep 'em separated
Hey - man you disrespecting me?
Take him out
You gotta keep 'em separated
Hey they don't pay no mind
If you're under 18 you won't be doing any time
Hey, come out and play
By the time you hear the siren
It's already too late
One goes to the morgue and the other to jail
One guy's wasted and the other's a waste
It goes down the same as the thousand before
No one's getting smarter
No one's learning the score
Your never ending spree of death and violence and hate
Is gonna tie your own rope

That day when you kissed me,
I left a poem in your mouth,
& you can hear some of the lines
every time you breath out.

Come up to meet you
Tell you I'm sorry
You don't know how lovely you are
I had to find you
Tell you I need you
Tell you I set you apart
Tell me your secrets
And ask me your questions
Oh let's go back to the start
Running in circles, coming up tails
Heads on a science apart
Nobody said it was easy
It's such a shame for us to part
Nobody said it was easy
No one ever said it would be this hard
Oh take me back to the start
I was just guessing at numbers and figures
Pulling your puzzles apart
Questions of science, science and progress
Do not speak as loud as my heart
Tell me you love me
Come back and haunt me
Oh and I rush to the start
Running in circles, chasing our tails
Coming back as we are
Oh it's such a shame for us to part
Nobody said it was easy
No one ever said it would be so hard
I'm going back to the start

Look at the stars
Look how they shine for you
And everything you do
Yeah they were all yellow
I came along
I wrote a song for you
And all the things you do
And it was called "Yellow"
So then I took my turn
Oh what a thing to have done
And it was all yellow
Your skin
Oh yeah, your skin and bones
Turn into something beautiful
You know, you know I love you so
I swam across
I jumped across for you
Oh what a thing to do
'Cause you were all yellow
I drew a line
I drew a line for you
Oh what a thing to do
And it was all yellow
Oh yeah your skin and bones
Turn into something beautiful
And you know
For you I'd bleed myself dry
For you I'd bleed myself dry

We want people
to love us in ways
that we don't love
ourselves.

And even when they
try,

It still isn't the love
we've been lacking
or longing for

I AM STRONG!
for the most of the time
yes, i often break down
in the middle of the night
when sleep invades me
and the past engulfs me
my heart torn in peices
by the burden of memories
but again, in the morning
the tears have all dried
and i clear up all the wreck
to become strong by daylight.

You're sad because you're sad.
It's psychic. It's the age. It's chemical.
Go see a shrink or take a pill,
or hug your sadness like an eyeless doll
you need to sleep.

Well, all children are sad
but some get over it.
Count your blessings. Better than that,
buy a hat. Buy a coat or pet.
Take up dancing to forget.

Forget what?
Your sadness, your shadow,
whatever it was that was done to you
the day of the lawn party
when you came inside flushed with the sun,
your mouth sulky with sugar,
in your new dress with the ribbon
and the ice-cream smear,
and said to yourself in the bathroom,
I am not the favorite child.

My darling, when it comes
right down to it
and the light fails and the fog rolls in
and you're trapped in your overturned body
under a blanket or burning car,

and the red flame is seeping out of you
and igniting the tarmac beside your head
or else the floor, or else the pillow,
none of us is;
or else we all are.

how did this happen?
i thought i was happy.
why would i do this?
is my life really this meaning less?
i took it without thinking.
please forgive me
HELP ME!!!!!!
i don't know why i did this.
will they even forgive me?
i cant even forgive myself.
i dont have much time left.
so hear me now.
im sorry...