You said I was the blame
"Your all the same"
You said "But I loved you"
"I loved you too"
You said "You left me"
"You set me free"
You said "You never wanted to stay"
"You pushed me away"
You said "We grew apart"
"You broke my heart"
You said "Goodbye"
"Why?"
You said "I will never leave you"
"You left me cold and blue"
You said "I promise"
"Be honest"
You said "Forever"
"You meant never"
You said "You deserved it"
"Please quit."
You said "I'm better off"
"****- off"
You said "I never lied"
"I cried. Was it pride or ego?"
You said "I was mad"
"I was the best you ever had"
You told me lies
And even thou you made me cry
I have never lied to you.
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It's such a magical night
The moon is shining bright
Im hoping that wherever you are
You are wishing upon the same star
And as the sky
Opened up and started to cry
So did I
I wished you were here
But sadly you disappeared
I long to feel your embrace
Your fingertips softly on my face
I close my eyes
My broken heart cries
This pain never dies
I start to reminisce
Memories of a past life
Dreams of being your Wife
All washed away with the rain
Leaving me with so much pain
My heart starts to break again
Dreams shattered
Pieces of me scattered
On the floor
My whole body feels sore
I feel so numb
Is this what I've become
A broken shell
Living my own hell
I start to dwell
On the past
Memories that go by so fast
I wish I could make them last
I open my eyes
And speak a soft goodbye
Spoken only into the night sky
And as I walk away
I hear her say
"Don't let the past weigh you down. Turn your frown into a smile."
©

Condemned To My Own Hell ©

Tied down by chains
Shackled by my pain
Voices driving me insane
They keep calling my name
Tormented by my shame
Forced to bleed out
I scream and shout
Choking on my tears
Feeding off my fear
I'm all alone here
Condemned To My Own Hell
Images of the past
Flash in my mind so fast
Even thou they don't last
The memories are unsurpassed
I beg to be free
Someone rescue me
Codemned To My Own Hell
Broken and bleeding
Tormented and pleading
But they keep feeding
Off my pain
It is their gain
They **** and drain
Driving me insane
Condemned To My Own Hell
My body wrapped in wire
Burning my flesh like fire
My hell is their desire
My pain is their supplier
Shackled here by a Liar
Condemned To My Own Hell
Forced to live a lie
Tormented by his unspoken goodbye
Wishing I could die
Don't let him see me cry
He feeds off my Pain
My misery is his gain
Condemned To The Hell He Created.
©

Tears stain my cheek
I can barely speak
I feel so terribly weak
Pain lasts a Month, Year, Week
I cry myself to sleep
Who is she?
How is she better than me?
They walk by me hand in hand
I can barely stand
The pain increases
My heart is in pieces
Will the pain ever cease?
Will I ever find peace?
I feel so hollow
Hard to swallow
I scream out in vain
"STOP THIS PAIN"
The image of them in my brain
Of him kissing her lips
His hands on her hips
It grips me
By the heart
Tearing me apart
Piece by Piece
The pain it starts to increase
Again this pain starts
Is this the feeling of a broken heart?
©

Why did you break my heart?
Why did you rip me apart?
All I ever did was love you
Now I feel so alone and blue
My heart will never mend
The pain it will never end
Your words cut through me
Why can't you see?
You've hurt me so much
Just a touch
And I'll break
You drove a stake
Into my chest
Buried deep between my breast
I was too obsessed
My feelings you possessed
Buried deep under my skin
Scratching and burning me within
You were my favorite sin
I hope one day
You feel this way
So maybe you could understand
Why I keep thinking you had it all planned
How could I be so blind
I knew somehow you would leave me behind
Your all the same
You played your game
Now I'm the blame
Isn't it a shame?
Was it ego? Or Fame?
You lit the flame
Now watch me burn
Until karma says "Its your turn."
©

My heart was wrapped like barbed wire
By the hands of a cold hearted liar
Burning my skin like fire
Tormented because of my desire
For Him
Words cut through me like a blade
Slowly I start to fade
I felt so betrayed
Tears stung my eyes
Haunted by his lies
His fake disguise
I cry for the Man I use to love
I felt deprived
But somehow, I have survived
A time when
All felt so cold and dead
Of tears in anguish I shed
My aching heart bled
My eyes were bloodshot and red
His poisonous words sang in my head
Over and Over again
I can still feel the pain
******* tears like the rain
The terrible pain within my heart

©

If you love him, It's a trap
You better run and don't look back
He'll take you and break you
He says he loves you, But his love is fake.
You're not the only one
He plays with hearts for fun
Once he destroys you, He's done.
He'll rip your heart from your chest
Leave you alone to clean up his mess
Breaking hearts is what he does best
Once he has you entangled in his web of lies
No one will hear you when you scream and cry
He'll rip your apart and leave you wondering why
All alone with your pain, Wishing you could die
You're nothing special to him
Watch him break you limb to limb
When hes done with you, He'll leave
Forget about you, And you still grieve
He'll deceive you
If you do not heed this warning, you will end up like me
A lifeless, hollow, empty shell of what I use to be.
©

I cry alone at night
Hugging my pillow tight
Thinking of our last fight
How everything that once felt right
Could fall apart so fast
I think about the past
Of a love that didn't last
How much I use to love you
And how you use to love me too
Then you left me cold and blue
I still wonder how I never knew
The real person inside you
That could be so cold and cruel
The one who played me for a fool
I was in love with a fake
A cold hearted manipulating snake
I lay in bed and replay what we use to be
And how you moved on without me
Our future looked so bright
I once thought you were Mr. Right
But here I lay hugging my pillow tight
Reminiscing of those brown eyes
The one's that held so many lies
I think about your kiss
Your arms around me I miss
Whispering a soft wish
To the heavens above
To bring back the Man I use to love
The Man I can't stop thinking of
The one behind those brown eyes
That are now so full of lies
But I still hug my pillow tight
Here I lay alone at night
Still thinking of our fight
Wishing somehow I could make everything alright.
©

When I look in a Mirror I use to see
The person that was once me
Now has broken edges and cracks
A heart once gold turned black
I want my life back
Now I see a face full of pain
A broken girl who took the blame
A victim of a pathological liar's game
I see a face so full of shame
Will she ever be the same?
Or will she always be broken
By all the lies that were spoken
Still his words consume her
She was once his Prisoner
He held the key
But he decided to set her free
But the memories still haunt me
She believed he was sent from above
Her one true love
The Man she searched her whole life for
The Man who swore
He would never stop loving her
He promised her forever
Promised they will always be together
But those promises were lies
Thats why she cries
When he left a part of her died
But those tears have dried
And even thou she still hurts inside
She placed her fears aside
Picked up what was left of her pride
Cut those strings he had tied
Around her heart
And even thou she was falling apart
She decided to start
LIVING!!!!
Now when I look in the Mirror
I see a once scared girl, Now strong
A girl who has been wronged
Stepped into the light
And done what she felt was right
She moved on
With what she still had left of her life.
©

For Years you led me astray
Made me think it was you and me
That's why I stayed
As long as I did
But you left me
You went away
You started a new life
Without me
You moved on
Left me here alone
Your gone
I still think about you
As the days go by
Sitting here alone
I try not to cry
I want to be mad
Because I trusted you
But it hurts so bad
To remember
And no matter how sad
I am
I have to say "Goodbye"
©

You chased me for Years
Hurt me over and over
I cried so many tears
And always took you back
I faced so many fears
Losing you again and again
You played with my heart
Broke your promises
And ripped me apart
Lied to me over and over
Until I swore I was done
Tired of playing your games
This isn't fun
It might be fun for you
You don't cry yourself to sleep
Wondering what you can do
To move on and be free
Then you say "Hi"
And I can't set you free
I can't stop
Letting you hurt me
Over and over again.

©

Your cheating heart
Tore us apart
You lie and make promises
You say you'll start
But baby you never do
It's always the same
One promise after another
I'm sick of this game
I just can't win with you
It's such a shame
15 years down the drain
I'm done
Find someone else to blame
Someone who believes you
And your lying mouth
I no longer do
I learned the hard way
15 years wasted on you
Hearing your promises
But baby I already knew
It took me so long
I'm just to good for you.
©

Caught in every web that you weave
You never mentioned her
Never dreamed you would leave
Leave me behind in this town
I was the one to be replaced
Behind my back
She was the one you chased
Does she know I had you first
I was the one you ran too
I was the one who satisfied your thirst
I stayed with you
When you were at your worse
I was the last to know
You left town
How could you be so low?
All this time behind my back
Now I know where you would go
When you left town
For days, weeks, months
You ran to your little ***
How could I've been so blind
For so many Years
You were never mine
You were hers
After all this time
I was just another girl
Caught in your web of lies.