I remember marking
Your territory
Taking trips
Taking time to
Carefully draw up
Every inch
Of your body
With the tip
Of my tongue

I remember playing
Hide and seek
On your territory
Letting hands explore
set up a camp
And build a fire

I remember claiming
This territory
Taking it
Willfully demanding
This territory
To be mine

I remember you
teaching me

Turning things around

I remember detention
For being cheeky
In your class

You took everything
and returned to the scene
To take home some images of victory
and I knew too late what happend
Staring right into your eyes as the realization ended
All I could do was try to look anew
Attempting not to bleed right through
While I splashed about in shallow waters
I'll just have to learn how to go without
The shame in this game will never max out
and you left me there weeping
Sold me cutthroat trout
I ate it up
Gluttonously
Then spit out the bones of the person I used to be
She's so far from me
I ode to the quicksand beneath my feet
To the weasle who found a way into my keep
The racoon who robbed me so blind
and left me defiled morales
Now left behind and strung about
I graced him like a loser should
I fought but much too late I understood

I'll keep you safe
From the things that I can.
But you can't hide from hate.
Or from deception.
I hope you'll be ready
When you see the world isn't good
Learning the hard way just how things really work.
How you're fate is in your own hands
That others don't decide who you are, only you can.
Stay on the good path.
Find your way to happiness.
I may not always be here for you
But I try when I can, to help you prepare for the truth
That everyone keeps hidden.
What isn't talked about until you get there yourself.
The pain,
Sorrow
Anger
Envy
And hatred.
I know you can't understand yet
How could you in your perfect world?
But one day you'll have to grow up too.
Just know I'm here to help you through it all.

If you found it
It was never lost
Just tossed aside
In the room with the faux fox furs,
and the tanned cow hides.

Inside you always knew
That you couldn't face it
Couldn't erase it.
Tried to wipe it from your memory.
But being free comes at a price
You wouldn't pay
So what should be locked away is not.
And you've got,

Sleepless nights,fevers a chill
That lack of will when will won't do
And you know why.
You should have forgotten but now you cry in the endless doom
Give me room,give me room,I can't breathe.
Grieving does that
Knocks you flat and caves you in
And anything you ever thought you knew
The news is, you do
Now.

How do we reconcile the years and the miles that have been,seen and gone
Only the burning in the soul goes on.
If this is hell and well why not
Just something else you've got.

And if you find what was not lost
Put it back in place
Forget you ever saw my face or heard my voice
Your choice
I have mine.

Time
So little left
And I have wept my tears
That don't bring no added years.
The crying's done
I had my fun and can't complain
Still,
It seems a shame
I wish the clock was slow
Not wishing to go
But I will.

spider legs
enter under
thin skin

webs of desire
capture the *****
secrets hidden
in crevices
of bare
nakedness

tying knots
in nooses,
stringing our necks
like christmas tree
lights
glowing yellow
on glittering snow.

clockwork
hearts
strike midnight
and the haze
disperses

what is here
is the nuts and
bolts
spewed from
iron lungs
tiring of forgiveness
and valentine
card love

our bedrooms are damp
from the leaks
and the cracks
in the walls
in the pipes
in the roof
in our hearts
in our minds
in our smiles
in our tears.

Orange plastic bottles
filled with pills
that slide down my throat
like cherry pits
1,2,3
i'll take more
until it's all empty
and i've fallen to the floor

power comes in simple
uncomplicated motions
like wind through trees
spin spin spin
until dizziness sinks in
and you can plop right
next to me
and i'll clear your head,
get you back on track
again