Mickey

Mickey Jul 2019

And I look at you and I just smile.
I grin from ear to ear.
But my heart.
My heart is crying rivers.
I trained my eyes.
So that they won't shed a tear.
This way you can't notice my pain, my sorrow and my doubts.
This way I can keep it to myself.
Keep it all close in my chest.
So that you.
You will see me,
And you will look at me and I will just smile.
I will grin from ear to ear.
Everyday.

Hello my dreamers. Thank you for reading! I just wanted to say that this is a heavy weight one. I feel this one through my entire body. In all my poetry I try to put in all my emotions and feelings. But this one kinda feels heavier for me than the rest. I think because I am the "smile away all your problems" kind of person. And this one hits that spot. Remember and also a note to self : smiling away your problems is not the solution. Talk it out. - Mickey

#smile #broken #love #sad #eyes #grin #heart #cry #pain #you

Mickey Jul 2019

What are we

I don't have the strength to ask you.
Everytime I think I have the power to bring it up I fall back.
I am so afraid of all the what if's. Terrified of the answers you could give.
And I just don't have the strength to ask you.
They have broken me with this before.
Turned me down or made me feel worthless.
So really, I am afraid I will never have the strength to ask you.
"What do you think of me?"

#love #insecure #ask #questions #honesty #broken #life #moodafraid #dark #tell

Mickey Jul 2019

With you

I want to live,
I want to love.
Intensely,
Beautifully.

I want to live,
I want to love.
Fearless,
Worryless.

I want to live,
I want to love.
To the fullest,
To the milky way and back.

I want to live,
I want to love,
With you.

#love #you #heart #live #life #couple #feel #mood

Mickey Jul 2019

The one thing I have left

Turn my heart into a ******* stone.
Make my eyes turn into the deep dark depths of the ocean.
Break my bones and turn me into a fallen rose with no strength to get up.
Take my smile and tie my lips together with your strongest thread.
Leave me behind, broken, shattered and defeated.
But,
Never.
Please never, touch my soul.
My oh so beautiful and unbeaten soul.
It is all I have.
All that is still pure.
No scratches nor judgement.
No pain nor sadness.
It is the one thing.
that keeps me,
Alive.

#soul #love #hurt #alive #life #toxic #sad #pure

Mickey Jun 2019

When you wish upon a star

kneeling down to the night sky.
praying.
As the galaxy is my religion and the northern star is my god.
My heart is screaming to the glittery sparkly and calming site above me.
Oh dear god.
please.
I won’t ask for much.
Just give me a tiny little bit of this magical thing everyone is talking about.
A thing, I want to discover.
A thing, I am curious about.
A thing they call,
Love.

#universe #religion #love #stars #moon #galaxy #believe #wish #pray #magic

Mickey Jun 2019

When a fire starts to burn

You started a bonfire.
Oh baby, all I see is red.
And as I dance sensually with the flames.
I can feel it.
My soul.
It’s in danger.

#flames #fire #bonfire #red #love #life #danger #soul #heart #toxic

Mickey May 2019

Inhaling you

How many doses can I take of this toxic substance.
How many can my body hold.
I can feel it burning.
With every puff I take.
How many?
Before I turn into ashes.

#ashes #toxic #inhale #puff #love #mad #sad