What lurks in the shadows
What stays out of your sight

The beast lurks
It's patient
It's agile

It's eyes
Has a cold stare
Has a trembling glare

The darkness
isn't behind you
but sleeps inside you

Fire fire fire fire
I have to reach higher
Can't stand still any longer

My heart cries out to leave
Can't keep my cards under my sleeve
My dreams can't fulfill themselves
It's time to be myself

No more depression
No more anger
No more resentment
No more hate
Nothing

Nothing but fire
Fire so hot
You can feel it through my words
Fire so hot
You can feel it through my thoughts
Fire so hot
You can feel it through your seat
Fire so hot
Turns cool a/c too 100 degrees
Fire so hot
It burns through pain
Fire so hot
It cuts through sorrows
Fire so hot
It rushes to tomorrow

Who can destroy me?
How can you **** what you can't see?

Can you feel it in me
The fire burns so hot
My veins feel explosive
My blood feels corrosive

Anything that gets in my way
Will be blown away
Blown to bits
Rest in peace

Can't stand in the shadow of fear
When my dreams are so near

"No one likes you"
Ow, that hurt
Who knew words could hurt so much

"You're so annoying"
Wait! I just wanted you to like me
I wish there was someone just like me

"I love you son"
Mom, please love me more
Cause the hurtin' they did on me left me sore

"You're so stupid"
I know I am, which is why I act so smart
Don't you know, being fake is an art

"Paul, I love and care for you"
Words I heard in my head
Wish they were real
Is there a person that can make me feel?
Or maybe the pain will never heal

So much on my mind; I don't know how it fit in my brain
This much pain will drive me insane

So much on my heart, it might stop
Is love like a crop?
If so, how do I make it grow?

So much weight on me, I feel like my bones will break
Could you carry my burdens
Dang, I need a break

My head hurts,
I feel a hole in my chest,
And my body feels weak
Am I dying this weak?
Someone help me I'm weak!

If no one comes I'll really die this week

I really like you, do you like me?
A question I ask constantly
Your smile, your laugh
What does it mean?

I never told you this but I think your beautiful
What do you think of me?
Do I look ugly?
If so, look in my heart and see the real me
And maybe we can be beauty and beast

When I write these word they help me feel
It's like each sentence helps me heal

Each line is a session of therapy
Each line are all a part of me

I'm sorry that I'm not logical
My feelings can't be rational

My heart cannot be defined by science
I can't give society dominance

My anger can raise hell
It can be a bombshell

My love is deeper than the ocean
My mind thinks of her every motion

My heart bleeds out sorrow
Sometimes I don't wanna see tomorrow

I don't know why I write
But every stroke just feels right

I looked up to you
I wish I were you

You and I were the same
Even though people told me you were insane

I didn't care what anyone said
Because when I needed you
You always came to my aid

But then you weren't there for me
When I needed you the most
It felt like no one cared for me
I was so lonely

I used to hate you
I'm glad I forgave you

All the thoughts of fantasy
I dreamed us as a family
Ended up being a sad tragedy

I won't make the same mistake
I'll be there for every birthday cake
From the time they wake
To the time we go to the zoo and see a king snake
In fact well even make Swiss steak
Or cupcakes
Or pound cake
We'll play with snow flakes
We'll go see great lakes
I'll be there for heartbreaks

I'll give them the love I never had
I've forgiven you already and I'm not mad
But at the end of the day I'm still glad
You were my Dad