From the day we met i never knew why it strucked me more as if I've been hit by a bus or stunk by a bee.
I kept sticking on you like a mighty bond glueing a broken sole of a shoe.
I want people to realise how amazing you were but you never had any effort to do so.
You say you're not attractive nor would you think you are even for the slightest bit.
You hide problems more that you could speak words thats far from it
You tend to shut your mouth only because it was better that way.
You fear the presence of people and cry in front of class.
You ask people to buy you things from stores to the point that its all going to sink into your heart that you are useless towards others. You're just a victim waiting to happened but what about us?
I want to be there. I want to listen to you i want people to realise how amazing you are. That you are enough to make them all smile. They did nothing wrong. You did nothing wrong.
I want you to realised that your flaws pushes you back
Your doubts and fears are just nothing because you wouldn't have to face it alone because I'm here. Your friends are just an arm length away
Stop minding what other people say  
Realise that you are capable to find more friends and to love not just at appearances but for who they are as a person. Everyone clearly loves you and i love you, too.
Realise that i love you more.

No one ever falls in love with me.
I have pimples that don't go away
a buttoned nose that no one ever thinks is attractive,
I have a chubby person who doesn't take health seriously
No sense of fashion nor i wear make up all the time.
I am awkward and i am weird.

Sometimes, I play the role of just being that one funny and stupid friend who makes me their bro and nothing else.
They laugh at my shenanigans but they can never fall in love.

But why am i craving for love anyway?
is it because i wanted to experience cute moments that i see in every love stories?
is it because i want to know how it feels to kiss another person in a romantic way that butterflies would burst in my stomach? i dont know.

but i want to...

Sometimes, Sometimes you get anxious everytime no one answers you.
Sometimes, sometimes you'll probably never answer at all.
Sometimes, sometimes people will say i'm rude because i couldn't answer a person.
Why am i like this sometimes? better yet, why am i like this all the time?
I never fully understood about what is wrong with me.
I never got myself checked.
I assume a lot of things but what if it's all true?
You don't know this but, people don't like you.
They pity you.
your huge array of history that has happened the years you've been with the same people know your flaws. they'll keep remembering your flaws.
your flaws are as many as your good ones in life.
why do i keep on living anyway when i'm always taunted most of the time. Even to those who're close to my broken heart.

Hindi ko alam kung saan sisimulan
Kung paano tatapusin itong aking liham
Ni hindi ko alam kung kakayanin ko pa
Ang salitang "pamamaalam".

Hindi ko alam kung mababasa mo pa to.
Hindi ko rin alam kung naririnig mo pa ko.
Kung kaya pa bang mabasa ng mga mata mo
at marinig ng mga tenga mo
ang nais kong sabihin para sa'yo.

Maraming mga alaala ang iyong iniwan
Maraming pangako ang hindi na masusulyapan
Mga bagay na dati'y pangkakapitan
Ngayo'y bibitawan na sa iyong paglisan.

Gayunpaman, maraming salamat
Hindi ko man masasabi dito sa’yo ang lahat
Pero Mahal na mahal kita at yun ay tapat…

Im so tired
Im too tired of doing homework
Everything just piling up one by one
I couldn't stand it. I wanna get out
But you really have no choice.

I don't care.
You wont live long.
Its just life