I Have a shadow who controls me since I was 13.
My shadow, well, she’s come to me when everything is fine and send everyone around me to go away.
I say “shadow, there’s is room for everyone” but I know, she does not want to share me with anyone
My shadow is so jealous!
My friends can’t see the shadow around me so when she pushes them away, they will.
My family can’t see the shadow around me so when I was sad they want to know why.
“It's her! the shadow!” I won't say, but shadow comes behind me and shut me up.
Sometimes I want to see something behind her but, my shadow is so dark and I lost my flashlight.
And when someone says “you’re not alone” well, my shadow cover my ears and stop me from listening.
And when they ask me why I’m alone, I’m not alone, I’m with my shadow!
I tried to fight with my shadow but I’m small, and my shadow is so big!
I learned to live together with the shadow without seeing, without listening, without speaking and I fight with her every day ‘cause shadow’s does not know that I can write.
But there are still days when I’m so tired that it’s easier to let it win
C’mon c’mon, come, I’ve been waiting for you.
But one day the doors will be closed to you and I will not be able to hear you call my name because my friends have always been noise.
Posted on Tumblr OneMudBlood in September 2017.