I am quiet when everyone’s loud
all I want is to speak over the crowd

I am small in a world that’s incredibly tall
wanting to be something great and grand like all

I am weak while the world around me is strong
it’s hard to feel like I really do belong

I am different in ways I can’t yet describe
everyone’s the same as I live umong my own tribe

everyone can fly into the air with a leap
as I am stuck on the ground

I am the black sheep.

She was a delilah
And sprouted from the ground
She came up to meet ya
And tell you you're found

She grew like a fire
Straight through the sky
And bloomed like a choir
As your tears begin to dry

She was a protector
And became your shield
As sweet as nectar
With her heart she has healed

Miss Delilah was strong
The day she broke through the earth
To sing you this song
And to show you your worth.

at this time of night
when the moon is up high
the quiet's alive

but no one's awake

I'm the only one up
the lights are turned low
and I feel alive

but no one's awake

the silence is chilling
this blanket is warm
my body's alive

but no one's awake

my earbuds plugged in
I take a quick stroll
the music's alive

but no one's awake

at this time of night
when everything's sound
I feel alive

I am awake.

Even if you're struggling now,
I'm still so proud of you.

Even if you can't get up,
I'm still so proud of you.

Even if you did some wrong,
I'm still so proud of you.

Because no matter what,
You're still so strong.

And I'm so so proud of you.

I remember what it was like to have a crush
It was a magical feeling, such a rush!

Having the thought that they might be the one
And when their eyes fall on me, it was I with the sudden feeling of stun.

But now as I grow older
My heart begins to feel colder

Why is this? I ask
My feelings are only a mask

Have I been hurt too much?
Maybe love and I are no longer in touch

I miss this feeling that we speak of
And perhaps, I will forever just be colorblind to love

My eyelids are heavy
I close them once
They continue to fall
A struggle to lift

I stare into space
To keep them ajar
But they still continue
To fall like bricks

Or a feather to the ground
Soft and hard
Heavy or light
But continue to drop

My head is in buzz
I fight to wake
My eyelids still fall
But I stay awake

Because I cannot sleep
Must stay awake
Too much to do
And still too much weight

My eyelids will fall
Which I can't allow
Them to fully close
So I carry the weight

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I don't even remember why I was embarrassed!
She thought right as she accidentally reminded herself
why she was embarrassed.

All I want
      Is to feel your warmth again.

How I manage to be both a ******* and a ******* is beyond me.

Everything's better
With the presence of you.

You can make the world smile
As if it's on cue.

Shopping list:

- Milk
- Eggs
- Oranges
- Pie crust
- A poem
- Strawberries
- Pencils
- A story
- Cereal
- Soup
- A way to express
- A need to feel
- Someone to impress
- Conflict to heal
- For people to see
- How this world can ****
- A place to be free
- To not feel this chill
- That life leaves behind
- This battle uphill
- Of not being blind
- And staying together
- In a time of hurt
- To fight off this weather
- And to wipe off this dirt
- Yogurt

I once was apart
And I still might be
Even so, I put the pieces back in the cart
Then stacked them back into me

With a bit of duck tape
And then some glitter glue
I fix them into my shape
Becoming as good as new

I will be better this time
I've learned from my mistake
Climb back to my prime
And this time, I will not break.

I think of you a lot
And talk to you on the spot

I hope I'm not annoying you

I like you sweet
You've got me beat

I hope I'm not annoying you

I stare at you
My mind feels new

I hope I'm not annoying you

Butterflies in my gut
Their wings won't shut

I hope I'm not annoying you

As bold as thunder
But still I wonder

I hope I'm not annoying you...

I can't wait to meet you
The one who'll make me whole

But I will sit patiently
And when I know I've found you

I will love you forever

So, to my one future lover
My hand will be waiting for yours.

Look into the mirror
and write a poem

Not about the bad
Not about the sad

But about the good
I think you should

How your imperfections make you unique
No one is like you
You are the perfect you
And that's enough

Fitting in has never been my strong suit

For years and years it's been a task
To find core friend and put on a mask

But I've noticed as time continues to sweep by
That maybe it just won't work, no matter how hard I try

This used to upset me, and yes, it still bites
Desperately, I ended up changing myself through fights

I changed and changed until I was no longer me
I locked myself away and would not let free

As time passed along
I kept singing this treacherous song

But soon, I felt tired of who I was
I saw my reflection, and didn't recognize myself. I paused.

A person who stared back at me was someone of lies
Someone who only held sadness in her eyes

This was not me and this was not right
It was time to end this weary fight

As the years go on
I learn to love someone who once was gone

I met new people who loved me as me
And they taught me that this is who I should always be

A person who once was lost and alone
Has learned that she never has to change her own.

I remember the day when my life had fallen apart

June 2nd, 2016

This was when everything for me changed

I thought there was nothing left

And had finally hit rock bottom...

But what can one do in such a horrific time

But get up and try to live again?

Even when we're inches apart,

               You still feel like an ocean away

I wish you knew

The pain I feel

Everyday

But you don't

Because I never

Let it out

For you to see.