Use to be afraid to die. First time I learned about death I could only cry. Sobbing in the back seat of my parents car. Asking them why why?! My mind never went so far. To think my existence could just stop. Like it was just a 9 to 5 job. On the way out, not even a visit to life's giftshop. I learned the hard way to not be afraid. Still I really wish you stayed. My best friend, my soulmate. He thought me to see life trough a different set of eyes. Lifes filled with dark lows and bright highs. Everyone dies. So rather then waiting for your demise. Enjoy life while you can! Don't worry to much about your lifespan. Just enjoy the bumpy ride. Do not get stuck on ,did I get everything right? You can die in peace knowing you really tried.

Why don't you sleep in your bed once in a while? Get out do something else besides frying your brain. Please could you just stop all the ******* and *******. It makes me really uncomfortable. You don't want an uncomfortable couch do you? Maybe watch something new on tv? I'm pretty sick of friends. Hey man, are you okay? I worrie about you.

Needed you to love me
I didn't
Needed you needing me.
I didn't
Needed you to care for me
I didn't
Needed to let go
I did

Lay my head where I please.

I lay it comfortably in the laps of the girls who were nice enough to have me.  

Lay it to rest faded at my friends house.

I Lay it sinking into my comforting pillow apriciating all the endless possibilities.

Lay it down where ever, what ever!

I lay my head in my hands and scream!