why won't you bruise me
i bruise myself so easily

marks all down my legs
how little effort it would take

colour me up
oh baby
colour me

why do you look at me so gently
it should be intense with lust

eyes full of desire
whisper i love you
but you're a liar

i wish it was wrong
i wish you would make me cry

so that i could live on trusting
the world is disgusting

colour me up
oh baby
colour me

but you hold me like i'm precious
and treat me like your princess
not your mistress

and you did from the start
appreciating my heart
and loving every part

i'm so scared
my world is different
it's uncanny
you're not only teaching me to trust in love
but in people
most importantly
to trust my own happiness

i rub your back
and you rub mine
and with the things i lack
you pick up the slack

like a strong green pine
you're a breath of fresh air

oh and im grateful
for each breath that we share
though mine is cold
and it floats in the air

between our kisses
and our sentimental stares

like a strong green pine
you're a breath of fresh air

i bring the winter cold
i bring it with me in my pocket

i freeze the life around me
and the ice fractals grow and trap me

i bring a whirling blizzard
to your feet
but you stand tall
and unphased by me

like a strong green pine
you're a breath of fresh air

i was not prepared
for your arrival
you came into my life
so quietly and gentle

and from the beginning
you put your heart on your sleeve
your courage was inspiring
and from there
my heart was yours to keep

like a strong green pine
your a breath of fresh air

one day i'll wake up
put on a cozy sweater
one that'll keep me warm from
the wind

pack up a backpack
fly up oh so far
somewhere i've never ever been

there won't be anyone
i'll leave behind
my nature keeps me alone

maybe somewhere
out in the unknown
the universe will give me
a bone

oh oh and it will be good
oh oh and it will be nice
oh oh and it will be alright
oh oh new home

you'll find me
in an empty park
on days that are too cold

i'll be leaving
trails of smoke
blood rushing to my nose

i can promise
if you see me
your face i will remember

but i am no more
the one you knew before
and i won't look your way

**
v

seems im meant for the road
my heart and my soul
no rest and no home
hope i won't be so lonesome

sometimes i'm stuck in my mind
and i float up high
till im gone in the sky
and i need a hand

^

oh isn't it scary stuff
when things around you change
it's the way of the world

time makes the things around you
grow and wilt and age
the consequence of time is change

i know it's everyone's wish
that things stay the same
content in your space

me im plagued with feeling bored
i'm plagued with wanting more
i've seen too much
a restless case

oh oh and it will be good
oh oh and it will be nice
oh oh and it will be alright
oh oh new home

I baked you cookies
so you'd think I could bake
they tasted like ****

When you compliment me
i make sure to
not seem to happy

I'd give you space
so you'd think that im secure
but i just get lonely


chorus:
I was broken
and im learning
that to want is okay

When you hold me
very slowly
missing pieces fall in place


I started to show you
that i can cry
and i didn't hide

I started to tell you
things that keep me up at night
you'd help me feel sane

chorus

I baked you cookies
so you'd think that i could bake
they tasted like ****

I baked you cookies
so you'd think that i could bake
you liked them anyways

I I I
fall into you
I try try try
to keep myself cool
but you
you hold the sun
melt the frost of my skin

without a thought
you stole my heart
and my spirit sours to you

Let's go go go
across the earth
the day will fade
and darkness will come
but you
you hold the sun
your light
will shine the way

without a thought
you stole my heart
and my spirit sours to you

what if i told you goodbye
today, while you're still soaring from a high
sitting on cloud 9
tell you i'm not ready
or i'm too busy
too sad for love
what if i was that unkind

would you break
into pieces
lose your sense of self
lose your shape
would you need time
or an instant rebound
to cope through the pain

sometimes i wonder what it's like to be the dumpee
sometimes i wonder if anyone goes through pain as much as me
sometimes i wonder if the reason people that left me did because i love too much
too strongly
thought i was crazy

but one thing is true, i love so much
i'm loyal in my blood
to the brittle bones of my body
i love like crazy
like a fairytale
like a pre-teen girl writing a boys name all over her journal

nobody's wanted me this much before
not the last, not the first
being adored this much, loved to the core
i'm scared
i think about the end
and not being loved anymore

but he's still here
and the love grows in my chest
and the fear grows with it

I want to be safe
always in the arms of someone
or kept close by
held by the hand
guided with a hand on my back
and be told everything is ok
all the time

how foolish
how dependent

but i walk alone
always keep a distance
tell myself i'm happy
i'm great
i'm safe
hold my own

while the fear dances in my stomach
in my chest
tickling my throat
making my body ache

why don't i let myself go
why do i hold a wall inside
when all i want so badly
so excruciatingly badly is to connect
be taken care of
express that i need help
need love
need safety

will i be like this till im dead inside
or will i break down my wall and let my demons go