Lucy Jul 2017
I miss how it was
When we were so in love
The things we use to do
But now I feel nothing without you
My face is emotionless when I walk
My throats sore from screaming, can barley talk
I shiver whenever I hear your name
It's like a curse word I hear everyday
From our friends
Again and again
It makes me sick to my stomach
Because you don't care, probably even love it
How powerful this must make you feel
Knowing you hurt me deep, how it felt so real
I can't stop the sadness
I can't shake it off, it's madness
I just want to curl up into a ball
How do you make me feel so god damn small
Lucy Jul 2017
Confusion is soaring and my brain
I can't help but feel that I am going insane
The things I want, the things I need
The things I pray for, are never meant to be
Feeling empty inside
Darkness surrounding me
Not a noise, not a whisper
Nothing here to see
Dropping to my knees, hands covering my eyes
Wanting to sleep, wanting to dream
Wishing that things were not the way the seem
They hug you and say they love you
That's a lie
They say it's going to be okay
But I still want to cry
Ashamed of what I am
Never wanting to see that face in the mirror again
Staring back at me with disgust
Telling me I'm not worth much
Lucy Jul 2017
So this is how it ends
Because I fell in love with my best friend
Didn't have much luck
Because I wasn't enough
All I wanted in life was love
That was all I could ever dream of
But now all my hopes and dreams are gone
I should have believed all along
That you were going to do this
How could I have missed
The signs
I suppose you were never really mine
You turned my beating heart into stone
Now I'm afraid of dying alone
My tears spill on the words on these pages
Seems like I've cried for ages
I hate how you make me feel
How I actually believed this was real
At night I lay in bed and sigh
Because now I don't know how to feel alive
Lucy Jul 2017
Let me sign
This letter to you
Write my confessions
Of lifeless secrets
Something you can have
Keep it
Cry over me
Over my grave
Speak for me
Be brave
Think of me in your sleep
The memory of me keep
The hugs and laughs
Let them last
In your mind
All inside
Now read and understand
I wasn't born to be who I am
So I ended this for you to see
That I am gone now
So just leave
Lucy Jul 2017
She's the epitome of perfection.
Her smile lights up a room.
Her eyes seductive, mines fill with gloom.
Her hair sleek and straight while mine is too much to take.
Her style is hard to define, you could say she's one of a kind.
Her skin flawless to everyone,
while I need make-up by the ton.
Her long pearl dress dances in the wind,
while I'm in worn out jeans and a big shirt. How will I ever win?
She's better than me in every grace.
I'm just a girl with a horrid face.
Her hourglass body can easily be picked up.
While my figures the image of a pickup truck.
You deserve to be with someone who you can show off to your family and friends.
Not a girl who never wants to be seen again.
That must be why you text each other on your special days.
Every day that passes by I feel you distancing yourself further away.
I'm sorry I put you through all this mess.
It's time I leave and give you some peace and rest.
I can't compete with such beauty in any way.
So why are you with me?
Why do you stay?
My first poem on this site!

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