Flickering lights mimick my heartbeat,
of the sad melody it plays.
I'll accept greetings from the dark,
familiar to its horrors and charcoal designs.
On terrible nights, I'll let the endless stars rock me to sleep-
allowing the cold to sting and bruise.
Yet the chilling darkness,
was the only warmth I could feel,
the only hurt I didn't mind.
The lid of a stained glass bottle,
leaves a burning sensation in my palm.
What was I hoping for?
Surely, this message will wrinkle-
my painful words silently drifting away.
And all that'd be left was my starving soul,
craving to be found one day.
I've been told that all happiness...
comes to an end.
I've never understood,
what they truly meant.
Why have I only understood the value,
once I've lost a friend.
(I just want to make it clear that my friend did not pass away, I'm not sure if my text makes it confusing, I have just lost her as a friend)
I'll try to keep on
They'll get lost in
I'll leave them behind,
Have you ever been scared,
that when you need your courage
You'll be the biggest coward.
I've learned to love
grew numb to all
It's like I've died
a million times,
but still know how
but am I truly
What am I fighting for?
If there's only freedom
What am I dreaming for?
If all comes to
once your heart
cannot keep you alive,
and you've got no
tears to cry...
you'll rely on death
I've fallen before...
Fell into the coldness of a winter night,
and sunk into the chilling shadows of the moon.
I've tripped on the stutter of my words,
and let myself collapse into gloom.
I've never fallen in love before.
Never melted in the tenderness of one's heart...
Or drowned in the eyes of love.
I've never understood the feeling...
of how it is
to truly fall.
We'll put a label
on what we can not define.
What's wrong and what's right?
I hope you'll visit my grave.
You've left me,
six feet under.
with all your love
and all your sorrow.
I never liked horror films,
but it seems as if
it's our only reality.
The hot shower water
cleansing me from the outside world.
Sometimes it takes my tears,
and often takes my pain.
I'm stripped of the negative thoughts,
as they hurry down the drain.
crafted by heart.
capture the many memories you've forgotten.
The ones you've thrown out
but I kept close to heart.
I've been searching
for what seems to be nothing.
I've been dreaming
for what seems to be unrealistic
I've been waiting
for who seems to be missing.
jet black gowns
Abondened on the busy streets of New York.
So many people, yet feeling so alone.
Everyone in such a hurry,
each to someplace different.
They promised me a world where dreams become reality.
With my luggage in one hand and dollar bills in the other,
I gather all the courage and take a step into this new world.
They'd give me many pills
and medicine of all sorts,
but none of them can fix
the heart that you broke.
feels like a drug
rushing through my veins.
And I'm addicted.
We'd be perched on the evening sofa,
fixed on grandma.
She'd tell us many stories
of what her childhood used to be.
Reminding us to savor the little time we had left.
we'd snicker and push the silly remark away.
Impatiently waiting to grow up.
I wish we understood,
how right she was.
Is it possible to have absolutely nothing on your mind.
Just staring at the cracks in the ceiling,
while scrunched in bed.
The gentle taps of the rain
would lightly knock on your windowsill.
Your favorite song-
escaping from your earbuds.
And for a moment, you forget about the world
and all your worries.
I don't worry which way is wrong
or which way is right.
I just want to escape.
I just want to run away and leave my problems elsewhere...
The raging sun burned the tip of my freshly shaven scalp.
Once bright brown shoes, were now worn out rags.
Hope kept us going,
luck kept us alive.
Days turned into awfully dreaded weeks.
My desire for water was the only thing on my mind.
The sorness in my throat was unbearable from thirst.
The nauseous heat choked me-
carving more blisters onto my body.
The haunting sign hung over our heads
"Arbeit Macht Frei"
Is this a nightmare?
Somehow, with just a tiny bit of chocolate
my problems would scurry away.
So colorless, yet so flavorful.
Ready to fill the empty pit in my stomach.
At times I only had my bar of chocolate
to eat away my guilt.
The glossy yellow wrapper would fall to the floor,
while the chocolate melted at my fingertips.
It would stain the fragile pages of my books,
but cleanse the stains of my shattered soul.
You expect me to be terrified,
sweat pouring down the sides of my forehead.
Would there really be a difference if I die?
Taunt me with your threats,
Hold a gun to my head-
see if I care.
I slowly drown in your sorrowful eyes.
Your tears, suffocating me.
With your lips stretched into a gentle smile,
you melt me.
But within seconds,
you turn me into stone.
built him with her loving words.
crumble the tender heart she formed.
Dandelions carelessly dance in the wind
to the songs of the rustling trees.
What was left of the afternoon sun,
buries itself under the ancient pines.
Insects fill the fields with a mesmerizing lullaby.
Luminous flowers steal the last ray of sunshine,
and hide away into the night.
I hope everyone is doing great in quarintine, stay healthy and stay strong:)
The guilty feeling of defeat devours me,
leaving my blank flag thrashing in the wind.
Surrender was not an option,
It was the only choice left.
The bullets that once pierced my skin,
do not matter anymore.
stained by the blood that once was
You've twisted your lies plenty,
now you have a knot.
I desperately try to unravel,
from the chaos that you've done.
But the stories that you've fabricated,
have me all *******.
A chilling breeze raced up my back,
leaving a trail of chills behind.
In the distance, you could see the never ending road,
stretching across the world.
Where was it taking me?
Every anxious step I took,
seemed no different than the last.
Every tense breath,
seemed like a waste.
But I remained on that road,
hoping to find the end.
They say a person can't change,
but I witnessed you become a stranger.
We used to laugh in the numbing cold,
sipping hot cocoa and swearing to be friends forever.
We used to snicker at our secrets and gossip behind their backs.
And even on the worst of days, you wiped away my tears,
But now you've just become a stranger, that used to know me.
Drip Drip Drip
These raindrops seem to carry all the sadness as baggage
As they fall onto my palm
Drip Drip Drip
My eyelids grow heavy
as the raindrops pile all their sadness on my lashes
Drip Drip Drip
I'm lost in the rain
Carrying its baggage
— The End —